|Still Revealing My Heart
Author: Jules.btvsfan PM
Sequel to Revealing My Heart, and much Spuffy goodness for ya. It’s summer, and so many things start going wrong for Buffy. Solution? The Scooby Gang including Spike go out on vacation. Buffy realizes there's still some of her heart to be revealed.Rated: Fiction T - English - Romance - Buffy S. & Spike - Chapters: 3 - Words: 5,941 - Reviews: 55 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 17 - Updated: 04-22-05 - Published: 03-10-05 - id: 2299907
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Okay… due to much requesting from my lovely readers, I am writing this lovely sequel. Other than pleasing you guys (lol), this is also a chance for me to write all the things I didn't get to write in Revealing My Heart. Truthfully, it did not come out the way I had expected. I was planning to do more with the characters and the plot… but unfortunately time, school, and stupid V-day had to ruin it all. Grr. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this!
Title: Still Revealing My Heart
Author: Julesters aka me :)
Summary: Sequel to Revealing My Heart, and much Spuffy goodness for ya. It's summer, and so many things start going wrong for Buffy. Luckily Spike is there to catch her fall, and she realizes there's still more of her heart to be revealed.
Setting: Takes place the summer after the sixth season. No, Willow did not try to destroy the world. Xander and Anya are happily married. And Tara is not dead. It's all happy and pleasant in my world :)
Disclaimer: Do I even have to write this? Of course I do not own Buffy the Vampire Slayer… and I have no affiliation with it whatsoever. Just a big fan who is incredibly happy that Joss Whedon was born into this world.
"I can't do it," Buffy said, wincing.
Spike wrapped his arms around her waist from behind. He gave her a kiss on the cheek. "Pet, you're the Slayer. You never lose the fight."
"But this is different!"
"No. No 'bollocks'. This is probably the hardest thing I've ever done."
Spike chuckled. She was so adorable when she was worried. The frustrated look on her face, the way her cheeks flushed the slightest pink, the uneasiness in her eyes. Every action of hers was absolutely lovable. He'd never seen someone so beautiful, let alone been in love with. In love, the words made him glow with happiness. They were in love. She was in love with him. She was his girl. How did this ever come to be? He had to be dreaming. This had to be one cruel dream that he would wake up and be heartbroken over.
"Okay, I'm going to do it," Buffy said, taking in a deep breath.
Spike gave her a tight hug. "I'm right there with you." He hesitated. "Actually it'd probably do better if I waited out here. Just in case there's flying body parts or exploding guts."
"I wish! Guts, I'm good with." Buffy turned around to face him. "I can work with guts and I can slay things. I can even decapitate. But this? No… Buffy is not good at quitting a job."
"It's about time you quit the Doublemeat. The meat smell? Not appealing."
Her mouth curved into a pout. She stared up at him with big eyes. "You smelled the smell?"
Spike quickly replied, "Um, no."
"You just said you did!"
"Well, it's very faint. Sometimes I can't even smell it."
"That is such a lie."
He pulled her close to him and kissed her on the forehead. "You smell amazing, Buffy. I couldn't live without your scent."
"Are you saying you like the meat smell?" she said incredulously. She saw the look Spike gave her and she added with a smile, "Okay, okay. I know I'm ruining the moment."
He wrapped her in his arms. "I love you, Buffy."
"It goes away after many bathings, you know."
"I did notice that, actually. Vampire senses pick up on almost any scent."
"Good to know," Buffy replied. Then a disgusted look came over her face. "And eww now that I think about it."
"But…" Spike continued. "Certain scents are stronger. Like the smell of you definitely floats my world. Whenever you're around, I drown in it and I can't pick up on anything else."
She beamed. "I love you, too."
"Knew you were gonna say it sometime." He gave her a quick kiss on the lips. "Good luck."
Buffy rolled her eyes. "That's all I get? I'm about to go through hell, and that's all I get?"
Spike closed in the space between them and wrapped his arms around her, their bodies fitting perfectly together. He ran his tongue against her lower lip and then captured her mouth with his. The kiss was fiery and violent, and at the same time soothing and sweet. Buffy didn't know how Spike could make her feel that way, and she sure as hell didn't know how he could kiss like that. All she could do was melt into him and kiss him back with all her heart.
Their lips broke apart gently. Breathing hard, Buffy opened her eyes and looked up at him. "That was… nice."
"Good luck," he whispered softly.
She smiled at him and then turned the door to Lorraine's office, preparing herself for the worst. She really liked her boss, she did. But she just couldn't stand working at that place anymore. And oh she felt humiliated about her icky meat smell. Darn meat patties.
She took a deep breath and went inside, looking back to smile at Spike one more time.
"Are you sure you don't want to talk about it?" Spike asked.
Buffy was curled comfortably in his lap, and the two of them were sitting on Buffy's living room couch. The lights were dimmed, and it was getting very dark outside. Dawn still wasn't home from the Bronze. Lately it seemed as if that was all she liked to do. Hang out at the Bronze with her friends. Buffy wasn't at the Bronze that much when she was Dawn's age. Or wait… maybe she was. But she was the Slayer. She could protect herself.
"Buffy?" Spike's voice interrupted her thoughts. Ughh she had been letting her mind ramble again. Too much of that had been going on lately. Even though it was summer, she could barely relax.
"Buffy, kitten. You can talk to me. How did the quitting go?"
She let out a long sigh. "I don't know. It wasn't too horrible. It's just that I felt so bad for letting her down. She had this look of disappointment and sadness on her face. And there might have been some extreme anger. Couldn't really tell. Maybe she's passive aggressive."
"It's just a bloody fast food restaurant, sweetheart. You deserve better. Bugger, you are better. You've saved the soddin' world too many times to count."
"Seven," Buffy said abruptly.
"Seven times. I've saved the world."
"It seems like a lot, right?" Buffy snuggled in closer to him and leaned against his shoulder. "But to me it's normal. Another year passes, another apocalypse."
"Not this year."
She smiled up at him. "Could have something to do with that Valentine's Day, couldn't it? Who knows where we would've gone if the truth was still buried in us. For all I know Willow might've gone evil, and Xander might've not gotten married to Anya. Who knows?"
Spike gently stroked her hair. "That wouldn't happen. Much as I hate to admit it, the git loves her. He wouldn't do anything bad to her."
"Yeah. Good thing they talked over their troubles. Sorted things out."
It was silent for a moment. Buffy felt so comfortable in his arms that she could fall asleep and dream deep of Spike. But something was nagging her at the back of her mind.
"We're… we're fine, right?" she asked him in such a soft voice that without his vampire senses he wouldn't have been able to hear.
Those words caused a flurry of emotions in Spike. "What's that mean?"
"These four months have been amazing… and I don't want it to ever end."
"Not really four months, pet. More like six. Remember us with the excessive and heartless shagging? Well my heart was in it."
Tears immediately sprang to her green eyes. "I'm sorry. I really am. Spike, I used you. I was so selfish and—"
"You were hurting," he interrupted her. "Don't blame you a second for it. Being here with you now, none of the past matters anymore. This is better than I ever would've imagined. And the sex back then wasn't so bad really. Except that one time you were invisible. And the one outside the Doublemeat Palace. You weren't even looking at me. But hey, don't blame you. Oh the one in the abandoned building was bloody amazing. Hardly ruthless. And that was the first time I was ever inside you."
"Okay wow. Is it 'let's go over every time we had sex' night or something?"
Spike chuckled. "What? You don't like it?"
"I don't really like going over the past of having ruthless sex with you."
"Did you not hear me? I said not ruthless."
"But… you won't leave me, right?"
"Never," he said in a firm, assuring voice. "Don't even say that."
Still, Buffy felt incredibly uneasy. And Spike could sense it.
"Love, is something wrong?" he asked her, touching her on the cheek.
"It's just... in the past I've had these problems. I mean I'm so screwed up. I must not be capable of being in a relationship. First Angel, then Riley."
"Oh please. I could write a book full of Angel's lack of brains. And Captain Cardboard? Idiot would rather get screwed by vampire whores than be with you. Now see that's just stupidity. Bloody poofters they are. I'm nothing like them. And I don't even have me a soul."
"I'd never leave you for the world," he whispered in her ear. "I promise. And if I do, you can stake me."
Buffy burst into tears and laughter at the same time.
"I'm sorry," she said, wiping away the tears. "I'd never stake you, stupidhead." She sighed deeply and then closed her eyes. "Sleepy," she yawned. "Don't want to think anymore." She opened her eyes and gave him a blushing smile. "Wouldn't mind holding me, would you?"
"One condition though."
"Let's get you upstairs to a nice, comfy bed."
"No complaints to that," she replied.
The two of them got up from their comfortable position and started heading up the stairs when the front door opened. Dawn came in laughing and talking to Janice. The two of them stopped short seeing Buffy glaring at them.
"Dawn it's beyond late."
"I know," Dawn started to explain. "But—"
"But what? You just decided to ignore what I said? I told you to be back before eleven."
Dawn looked at her pleadingly. "Buffy it's summer!"
"Oh right. Great excuse. It's summer! Let's all party it up like idiots and get eaten!"
"Eaten?" Janice said questioningly.
"Vamps," Dawn replied. "Remember Halloween?"
Janice wrinkled her nose. "Eww. Did you see the bumps? And the teeth?"
"Hey, no insulting now," Spike spoke up. "I like my fangs, thank you very much. Though technically I can't bite anymore."
Janice's eyes grew wide as she stared at Spike. "You're a vampire?"
"Bloody right I am."
She stared at him with amazement and then shrugged. "Cool."
"Dawn," Buffy continued. "Promise me you won't be late anymore."
"I swear." Then Dawn added in a small voice, "So I'm not grounded or anything? I can still go to the Bronze? As long as I'm not late anymore?"
"Yep," Buffy replied.
"Oh you're the best sister ever!" Dawn shrieked and jumped to give Buffy a hug.
"A big sister who's tired and sleepy," Buffy said, smiling. Okay so she'd been loose on Dawn. So what? She remembered what it was like to be a teenager. She could cut her sister some slack, as long as things didn't get too out of hand. "I'm going to bed. How are you getting home?" she asked Janice.
"My mom should be picking me up any minute," Janice said, glancing at a clock on the wall.
"Okay. Night, Dawn."
"Night, Buffy!" Dawn called after her and Spike, who were now making their way up the stairs. "Sweet dreams! Don't drool too much on Spike!"
Buffy heard giggles coming from Dawn and Janice as she and Spike got into her bedroom.
"You weren't so hard on the Nibblet this time."
"Nah. Figure I should cut her a break," Buffy replied.
"What? What 'huh'?"
Spike shrugged. "I don't know," he said, tucking a piece of golden hair behind her ear. "Just seems as if Dawn's been out more. Don't know what she's up to."
"I'm sure she's fine."
"Are you okay, Slayer?"
"Yeah. Just a little tired." Buffy collapsed on her bed and pulled the covers over her body. She closed her eyes. A short moment later she felt Spike join her and slip his arm around her waist. She smiled and turned around, opening her eyes just to look at him. His sweet blue eyes and those sexy cheekbones. And his soft, platinum blonde hair.
How could she have possibly not loved him before?
With that one final thought, she nestled in closer to his cool touch, and she finally let sleep take her away.
Spike gazed at her for a moment, thinking over Buffy's actions earlier. The uneasiness in her body, the uncertainty in her voice. How her eyes looked vulnerable and worried. He knew exactly what was bothering her. And it wasn't just quitting that stupid restaurant job.
Even though she had declared her love for him, there was still a part of her that hadn't been revealed. He didn't blame her for feeling uneasy. After all he was a vampire who was soulless and evil if given the chance. But she didn't know how much he loved her, and the lengths he would go for her.
He could fix that.
All he needed to do was prove it.
Spike kissed her soft hair and then settled down to sleep himself. All he wanted was Buffy. To hold her, to love her, to have her love him back. And he wasn't ever going to let go of what he had now. Buffy finally loved him. That was more he could ever ask for in his entire undead life. His pride didn't matter anymore, or his reputation. He didn't care about any of that.
Still sleeping, Buffy moved in even closer to him. Spike smiled.
He had never loved anything more.
Okay, tell me what you think. And funkydevil206 - no there will be no pregnant Buffy. I definitely promise that. No offense to anyone but I really don't like pregnant stories where Buffy gets pregnant. Lols. :) Anyway... review please!