A/N: Well this is my first ever Lost fic and its very Sawyer based because I love him! Well there is just something about the people that everyone mistrusts and hates, that intrigues me. Cause the way he acts usually means he has a lot to hide and it seems true. Anyway Sawyer centric and probably a Sawyer and Kate pairing. This is mostly set after Confidence man but I’ll be using a few ideas from outlaws as well as some of my own ideas. Oh and I know my grammar and selling stucks feel free to offer to be a beta reader.

He hid under the bed with the overwhelming feeling of fear as he heard his parents fight. His dad scared him sometimes he let his anger over come him. He sometimes hurt his mom and sometimes his father even hurt him. He covered his ears as he heard the loud sound of a gunshot. He saw his mother body hit the ground and before he had time to react he heard a second gunshot as his fathers body hit the ground. He was too scared to come out from under the bed as he heard the sound of sirens.

After a few minutes they came as he still hid under the bed he could hear them talking but he didn’t understand a word. He almost jumped out of his skin when he saw a mans face.

“Its safe to come out” The man told him but he didn’t budge “I know your scared, what’s your name”

“James” He said his voice shaky.

“James can you come out please I won’t hurt you” The man told him. He was very scared but he slowly crawled out that’s when he saw it. The two bodies, they were covered but he knew his parents were under there.

“NOOOOOOO” Sawyer screamed as his shot up in a cold sweat. It took him a few moments before he realized he was still at the island. He got up as he grabbed a cigarette and lighter as he began to walk away from the camp. His entire body shook as he tried to light the cigarette with his shaking hand.

“Need some help?” He heard Kate’s voice ask. He hadn’t spoken to her since she worked out who he was, or at least who he wasn’t.

“I’m fine freckles” He said as he finally succeeded. He knew he was going to be running low on his cigarettes soon and didn’t know what he was going to do then.

“That why you were screaming?” Kate asked him.

“Actually there are a few things you can help me with” He said suggestively as he looked her over.

“Trying to change the subject?” Kate asked him.

“Never was a subject” He said.

“You have trouble admitting to being human, that was the subject” Kate said. Sawyer had began to make sense to her. In a lot of ways they were both very a like, not that she would admit that. She also wouldn’t admit that she enjoyed the kiss.

“You going all therapist on me now?” Sawyer asked him. “Save it” He said as he began to walk away.

“What’s your name” Kate asked she knew it was a random question.

“You know my name is Sawyer genius” He told her.

“Your real name” She asked him.

“My real name is Sawyer” He said and heard her sigh heavily “James” He said “My real name was James”

“Was?” She asked confused.

“James died a long time ago” He said simply as he walked in the other direction.