vixon: this is very depressing. Fanfiction took my story off because they said there was a chapter violation when I know for a FACT that there wasn’t. I wasn’t sure if it was my school computer that messed up or if it was them so I wrote them an e-mail, stupidly on my part, through chapter violation to ask what was going on and ultimately they removed the story.

I am so mad over that and have to go back and re do the spell check. It won’t take me too long to all the chapters back up, that is, if they haven’t put me on some sort of probation for a while.

I am so sorry. The saddest part for me is that the reviews are gone too, so please send me more so I feel better. Thank you. For this, I will post a brand new chapter.

Summery: he just disappeared, never to be seen again. At least...not as ken anymore. They had forced his hand, making him sacrifice his own humanity to survive. Many years pass, and Yolie has lost the spark ever since that dreadful day. Life without ken felt so...empty, until she received a strange call from her D-tectore. It sounded almost like ken... in trouble, calling for her. Then hawkmon is taken prisoner by some new threat in the digital world, all thanks to a certain fallen angel digimon named... senmon. A beauty and the beast sort of story, of finding one's lost soul, and discovering what true love can accomplish in the bleakest of moments.

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prologue

They had stormed his base, disrupting the shield to practically bust through his front door, a tactic the digimon emperor had not considered his enemies to make so quickly. His violet eyes traveled over the screens in his control room, observing the invasion-taking place within his own territory, his own BASE! 'How did they break the shield, I made it impenetrable!' He inwardly hissed, clenching a fist at the many screens that showed the attack. "Damn them."

Wormmon wearily came up beside his master, shivering from the enraged position the emperor held. This wasn't good, nor was the fact that they were utterly screwed if they just kept standing there idly, doing nothing. "Ken...?" the green caterpillar began meekly, cowering at the iciness laced within the boys stare. "I mean...emperor. They’ve broken through to the lower sectors. Its only a matter of time before..." the emperor spun on his heels, thoroughly pissed from his servants sniveling. The digimon emperor griped the long leather wipe tightly, snarling deeply in his throat, " IM NOT BLIND! Send reinforcements NOW!"

He needn't say it again, the green caterpillar twirled on all six of his appendages, taking off down the halls to carry out his masters demand. As soon as the digimon had left, ken leaned over the control panels, typing many commands out into the main frame of the computer. 'I’ll crush them before they even reach the engine rooms. Hehe. No one overthrows the emperor! NO ONE!' chuckling to himself, the digimon emperors pupils narrowed on the digidestined group running across his camera's. They had no idea who they were dealing with. They were like bugs drawing closer to their deaths, and soon, would be begging for mercy when he was done.

But plans did not go as expected. It seemed with those medaling brats around, nothing ever did. His dark spiral army had quickly been overpowered, and ultimately defeated in no time at all. 'What! How did they...!' wormmon stormed into the control room, winded from his run. Perspiration fell down the digimons neck, his exspression saying it all. "Master, we have to run... Two of the children are on this very floor." ken's face fell, his mouth agape in clear astonishment. "That’s impossible!" glancing at the screens' told him it WAS, and they were just around the corner, moving faster than ever. Pretty soon, he would be pinned down to the control room if he remained; wormmon tugged the pant leg of his master. The yanks thus brought the blank shock out of kens features. Snapping from the disbelief, ken side kicked the creature attached to his leg, sprinting to the opened doors. He wasn't one to lose, not without taking his enemies down with him. Kimeramon...it was his only chance of victory. "I have to activate the data. WORMMON! Hold them off."

The caterpillars eyes bulged, his stride halted, stuttering out, "what! M-m-me? Ken I..." "DO IT!" the servant regretfully ceased his pursuit behind his master, shaking from head to toe at the order given. "But I don’t stand a chance." he whispered, watching as ken sped to a chained set of iron doors. It was a direct order, and if sacrificing was to happen, then so be it. It was wormmon's duty, to his partner... to his friend. Nodding forlornly, wormmon obeyed, praying to live to see the next day after this. "Yes master." the worm changed his course, sadly running headlong into battle with the superior destined and their partners. 'Go easy on me.'

Wormmon took a beating of the worst kind, his attacks holding no affect on the superior others. The insects fragile body became slammed into the wall, pushed aside the by ex-veemon. "You deserved it." Davis spat; side stepping past the battle to the shut iron doors. "Dang it. How do we get in?" he inquired, slamming a clenched fist into its thick hardness. T.K. only broke out in smiles when Davis brain finally told him that that means of entering wasn't going to work...and need I mention, hurt like hell. The blond waved over angelmon, pointing to the onset of doors, "could you break it down?" T.K. asked his friend, holding his breath to watch eagerly as the angelic digimon gave a reasuring nod, motioning for the humans to step aside so he could work his magic. his attack only knocked some wires loss from the locking mecanisme, but produced no further results. "perhapes exveemon can destroy it." the angel insisted, rubbing the back of his head to hide the sweat droplet away.

The chains fell to the ground in a clunk, automatically unlocking the door with his yelled voice command. Ken made his way to the controllers, punching in his orders with unsteady hands, he taking up more time from the rush. "Come on. Come on." he growled to the infernal machine, every part of his body growing stiff from the heated impatience. "Activated." the computer responded, displaying its results to the emperor. "Computer, combine the digi data." with several clicks, the collected strands of DNA converged on screen, swirling in a black hue before his eager eyes. 'Excellent.'

Ken smiled at the strand of perfection set before his awing eyes, beaming over his success. Smashing down further key commands, the emperor sternly spoke, "computer, create kimeramon." the explosion to the outside doors glitched the computers main frame, a fuzzy jolt ran threw its system. "C-c-ant... p-p-p-p-process..." it responded, the strand growing dimmer by each feeble attempt to create the said digimon, all the information being deleted gradually. "No." the digimon emperor spoke, taking hold of the panels. "NO!" his work, his creation of mass destruction... he was losing it. "Not now," ken let his fingers fly over the keyboard, his efforts failing in each reboot, every restore of memory he attempted. If he lost the data now, he was virtually screwed. They would win, he would fall. 'Not gonna happen. That is NOT gonna happen!'

"I wont lose. Not to those pathetic BRATS! I wont allow that." all his common sense was corroding away, fleeing to hysterics. The computer couldn't process correctly. It was unable to form the strands of DNA to create his ultimate weapon. This would not do. 'What! What can I do! I'm losing to those...those humans!' the screen flickered again with another jar from the door. Davis and the others were practically breathing down his neck and he had no means of escaping in this room, nor would he without his hard worked for creation. Leaving it to their hands or risk its permanent destruction didn't settle well in his stomach, making ken run his fingers roughly through his indigo hair. "What to do? WHAT!"

That’s when it came to him, in the last futile resort. The computer may not be able to form the body, but what if the body was already formed... and just needed the strand to perfect it? The darkness...he could become one with it. 'No. That’s insane. I cant...' the DNA leapt off the screen for a split second, sending the digimon emperor to nearly faint from its disappearance. When it came back into view, his heart eased back down to his chest, it felt like it had leapt strait into his throat there for a second. Bowing his head, he knew what he had to do. If this failed, he not only risked defeat, but destroying himself in the process. 'Its my purpose, my destiny.'

And in that thought, he typed the last order, verbally informing the crashing machine, "transport data into subject." many beeps escaped the computer, it answering in its echoing voice, "confirmed." seven tubes revealed themselves from the upper level of the room. Each was long, extending the sharp needles to the only living creature scanned. For a fleeting moment, kens courage drained, paling his face sheet white by the act he was about to commit. Was this right? Could he handle the transformation? What would he lose in the process of winning? Shuddering slightly in place, the boy began to rethink this decision. There had to be another way than this. the syringes drew closer, ken hesitantly turned his back to them. "No. I can do this. I have to do this." he reassured himself, clenching both lids tightly shut. The digimon emperor grounded his teeth for the expectant stabs, this was going to hurt, and he knew it.

The computer plunged each pencil length needle into various parts of his body, forcing ken to gag at the expectant agony he felt wash over his frame. His eyes had shot open once each point was buried in him, they screwing in bolts to keep the data from spilling once initiated. Chomping down on is bottom lip; ken tasted his own blood ooze onto his tongue, he placing all his effort into holding down the agonizing screams. 'No...Turning back...now.' if he did happen to have a change of heart, these blows would surely kill him once withdrawn. One needle had pierced his upper neck, two others on the top of his hands. Two on his feet, and two on both shoulder blades. It was almost unbearable; he couldn't find the air to confirm transmission.

The doors burst open, revealing the entire group of digi destines, each holding an uncanny look of dread over their expressions. "Oh my god...KEN!" Yolie shouted, tears forming on the crevices of her eyes. Davis pointed at the enemy, snarling out to the barely standing emperor, "its over ken, surrender or face one heck of a butt stomping." nothing they said could change the emperors facial expression of shear wickedness, ken gave a feeble smirk to them all, they thinking the battle over, yet the war still raged. "I... d-don’t think gasp so." ken some how, through his best efforts, gave a diabolical cackle to the onlookers, turning his head to the awaiting computer. "CONFIRM!" he shouted, nearly toppling over from the burst of breath he had released to yell this. The pain grounded deeper, but this was nothing compared to what was to come. The black data strand ran quickly into each tube, taking on the appearance of ink as it entered the host's body.

Yolie made a mad dash towards the hunched over emperor, but Kari and Cody held her fast, not allowing for her to get anywhere near the gagging boy. Ken was choking on the intake, his veins burned from the substance; flesh felt like someone was shredding him from the inside. 'Damn it damn it DAMN IT!' his knee's buckled, all his body cracked under stress. The pain... it wasn’t worth it. This wasn’t worth it! Doubling over, ken fell to his knees, clasping both hands over his mid-section desperately to keep from vomiting his innards.

"Ken..." Yolie yelped, her voice being the only thing the digimon emperor could hear over his rapidly pounding heart and heavy pants. His body throbbed, but the pain began to lesson once each adjustment was made. The data was almost completely absorbed into his system, flicking a minuet speckle of strength into his legs. Enough so he found the footing to stand. Bringing his head up gradually, kens heaving became under control, the needles withdrew after the last of the black data had been successfully transported.

The children stood back, keeping a safe distance from what ever tricks the emperor had in stored for them. Their digi partner’s stiff in fighting positions, awaiting any sign of battle. Ken flexed his fingers to get the feel back into the nerves, his mind taking in every detail littered around him. From the size of the room to the presence of the warrior digimon standing firm. After scanning his body, ken felt the course of power flow through his veins. He felt...great. Powerful, invincible even. And in the realization, the emperor sneered menacingly towards the speechless rivals, "now its time to finish you off." ken mocked, his glasses showing pure evil behind them, burning more fiercely than ever. The others stood back; even their digimon took a few unsteady steps backward from this...things energy. He wasn't ken anymore, nor the digimon emperor. He was...something else, something unholy.

"Don’t think you can beat our digimon bear handed." T.K. managed to throw out, yet his fear brightly shone crisp across his features, as did in the eyes of them all. Ken merely tutted them in a fashion, waving a finger as he neared the first digimon. "And why cant I? Do you think I just shot myself up with vitamins? You really are stupid." armadillomon was tapped on the head by kens little finger, flinging the digimon into angelwomon, and rendering both unconscious. That effortless attack had knocked a good-sized hole in the metal wall, kens grime widened, 'such power...all mine. Its all mine.' the air in the room was taken in by each tamers lungs, they had no way to defend themselves from him. Nothing within them could stop the creature, forcing each warrior to ultimately fall, exerting ken in the least. They were like helpless flies to him, taking up none of his energy to bring each to their knees... or worse. Though their tamers tried to end the fight and have the odds on their side, it only leads to a quicker demise for their digimon. The foolish ex-veemon and angelmon tried to shield his attacks from reaching the meeker humans.

With no more than the pre-evolved forms standing in his way, the emperor's sights fell upon hawkmon, a black flame danced upon the digimon emperors fingertips. "Now, to destroy you all." drawing back his hand to throw, kens attack halted once Yolie wedged herself between them. She defiantly spread her arms to block kens attack, if he had the nerve to throw it. "Don’t do this ken. You don’t have to hurt anyone else." Yolie held a firmeness in each word, though the courage was failing. You would too if you starred death in the face. Ken’s smirk grew at her pathetic attempts, he held the attack out to give a sinister shimmer in her glasses. "If you want to die with him, I'm more than honored to be rid of two birds with one stone." the black flame rotated in his clutch, its intimidating threat sizzling the girls bangs.

Yolie only straitened her back, jutting out her chest and held her chin defiantly stiff. "Than take your best shot, I'm not movin." well, he hadn't expected THAT. His smile faltered, those hateful eyes scanned the human before him. "You surely don’t want to die a horrible death. So I’ll be lenient. You have a ten second head start, I’ll even count really slowly for you Yolie." she still didn't budge, just allowed tears to hang off the edges of her lashes. Hawkmon tried to push the girl aside, willing to take the blast, " Yolie...please run." the bird digimon whispered pathetically, his strength wavering due to his over exertion. But the attempt to push the reluctant human aside only knocked her head long into the emperor’s arms. She had been propped up by nothing but her rooted feet, now she crashed into the chest of her enemy, her secret love. The sudden touch rendered ken speechless, his attack slipping to explode behind the bird digimon. She was touching him, HIM.

Yolie was trusted up a little ways onto kens upper body, pressing him into the cold ground. Her tears fell freely on the digimon emperors cheeks, Yolie grasped his jump suit in a dire attempt to reach the one she had given her heart too. The expression on his face held nothing less than shock for the unexpected event; he eventually allowed his glazed eyes to stare directly into hers, into the drowning pools of the girl lying gently on top of him. "Please ken, don’t do this to yourself. Please..." Yolie gasped, her misty orbs fell onto his mouth, she placing a hand over her lips to hide the utter terror cracking her face. Fangs. He had... Fangs. And his lips were turning black. the digimon emperor gazed into her face, distinguishing the fear stirring within the bulging brown eyes. He pushed the sniveling girl aside, sitting up only to be met with another lurch in his nerves. "Shit." he growled under his breath, hunching over from further pain. 'I thought...the transformation was finished.'

Yolie crawled over to the suffering boy, placing an unsteady hand on his shoulder. Leaning to see his tightly shut lids, Yolie went to take his ashy face into her other hand. "Ken...what’s wrong? Ken!" nothing but his screams answered, the other destines scrambled to their feet, collecting their partners into weary arms. Ken ripped the goggles from his face, dark rings formed over each closed eye. "AHHHHGGGGGG!" his skin was shredding in the back, he felt the slits stretch horizontally as bulges tore the stitches of his clothes. Yolie couldn't tare her focus from his changing form, his skin growing grey, his hair roots blackening by each convulsion. "Ken, hang on. I’ll get help, I’ll get the others to..." before she could stand and finish, the entire base took a violent turn. Ken forcefully shoved her across the room, the alarms of melt down ringing in the sirens. Explosions burst under foot, lifting up to vibrate the shock waves and cause the very computer that ken had recently used to explode in the background. The floating base had lost too much energy from the transfusion of data into his body and relentless attacks; it was now crashing into the solid ground. And he knew this.

Ken looked up for a split second in-between the horrific agony at the girl, his eyes glowing crimson from behind his sorrowful regret. "Just...choke go!" Yolie stood; ready to brave another time to help him escape. "I won’t leave you." the floor fell out in front of her, separating the two by the spreading gap. Even if she wanted to stay, she could never make it over to him now. Ken gazed deeply to see the hurt in her face, why did she have to care so much? This was his punishment, his to endure...if he survived. "GET OUT OF HERE YOLIE!" she shook her head, searching the room for a means to reach him. "I'm gonna jump. Hold on." Yolie took a few steps back, having a desperate hawkmon take up her hand in attempts to keep her from committing suicide. "You wont make it! Leave him." the girl fought with the others, he could hear her shrill cries between the throb in his ears.

'She wont go. She won’t go. She’ll die if I don’t...' shakily raising a hand up to the girls direction, a blinding black light burst forth into his open palm. The other digidestined took the struggling Yolie by the arms and thrashing legs, pulling her out of harms way as debris plummeted from the ceiling. "NO! KEN, I wont leave you!" if Yolie had been able to see through her own clouded vision, she would've saw the glimmering streams of tears that fell down kens face, he releasing the attack to destroy the door leading to him. The only way to him was blocked, and no other path was built. Dipping his chin to almost grace his chest, ken shut his eyes to hold down the repulsion for himself. The floor gave out, the fire spread. And as the world around him collapsed, the human side gave one last farewell to the only one who cared, the only person that ever wished him to live. "Good-bye...Yolie."