Never ever

Author: Nepeace aka Angelique
Email: Do you think they are mine, believe me you would be watching a more L word like show if they where … elevators in hotels on there way to a crime scene, barely lit labs, locker rooms I see potential of some hot scenes …
Summary: Just read you'll see! You could say that it is a CSI/CSI:NY crossover, kinda! But not really.
Rating: PG
Warning: F/F love (femmeslash)
AN: Okay, it's was 3 at night, last night and I still couldn't sleep. So I was frustrated and this is what you get when I am frustrated not too happy. But hey I blame it on the lack of sleep and feeling frustrated. And yes it is a shameless songfic, the song is Never ever by All Saints.

Never ever

A few questions that I need to know
How you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
And how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention
Or did I not give enough affection
Not only will your answers keep me sane
But I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face
Or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter
Either way I've have to know
Did I never treat you right
Did I always start the fight
Either way I'm going out of my mind
All the answers to my questions I have to find

Working in this new environment made it all a lot easier, she knew that a lot of people would call it fleeing, or running away from her problems without even trying to solve them, but the past hurt too much she would be unable to breathe if she would stay. To her it didn't feel like fleeing, it felt like moving on. And at this moment moving on meant that she would leave the warm and brightly lit city of Las Vegas to move to the cold and grey streets of New York. It seemed to be like the right thing to do, the city fitted her mood.

Working in a new environment surrounded by new people that didn't remind her of the better days in the past was one step in the right direction. Everything was different here including the women, from the independent Stella with her exceptional sense of humour to the street-smart Aiden who seemed to be a different person each day.

But no matter how different her environment was or how different the people around her where she still expected her former lover and colleague to round a corner and walk towards her with that exceptional smile on her face. And no matter if she would move to the other side of the world, she would still be the one with the unanswered questions.

She wrote down the words on the empty sheet of paper in front of her until it was filled with the unanswered questions. She wrote down the address on the blank envelope the address that she knew by heart, the address that used to be hers back when the days where still filled with sunshine and laughter and with love.

She got up and put her coat on, she wrapped a scarf around her neck before she picked up her letter and keys and left the apartment building. She walked down the streets; her hands buried in her pockets as the rounded a corner on the way to the mailbox. She posted the letter and quickly walked back through the rain to the warm and secure apartment.