Part 5

"Can you ever trust me again?" Catherine asked silently part of her dreading the answer but the other part of her wanted to know if there was a chance, even if it was the smallest chance. She still wasn't looking at Sara, still avoiding her eyes. Those piercing brown eyes that where probably sending her one of those famous 'dead glares' and even though she couldn't look into those eyes she knew that it was there.

"I hope so …" was the silent reply that came from Sara, so silent that Catherine wondered if she had actually heard it or that she just heard what she wanted to hear.

Catherine was still sitting on the floor in front of Sara, she looked up at her, her own eyes filled with tears. Sara wiped her tears away with the sleeve of her shirt, she didn't look at Catherine. She was still staring out of the window, to the grey city behind it.

"Will you give me that chance?" Catherine asked silently while she grabbed a hold of Sara's hand, this time she didn't pull away. She looked down at their hands entangled in each other placed on her lap. She contemplated her answer, but in her heart she knew what it would be. She looked into Catherine's eyes setting her pain and anger aside; she smiled though it was just a weak reflection of a smile. And even though she didn't want it, tears where still streaking her face.

She was unable to speak the words that where on the tip of her tongue. The words that she wanted to say so badly even though she knew that those same words could hurt her in the future.

"Promise me …" She swallowed hard trying to make the lump in her throat disappear but it wouldn't go away. The pain was still too fresh and even though she wanted to give up on it and tell Catherine that she still loved her, that she had always loved her no matter how far she ran. She wasn't ready yet!

"Promise me that you will never leave me again?" Catherine's hand trembled as Sara's hands enclosed hers, even the slightest contact send a shiver through her spine.

"I won't leave you, you are the one that left, babe." Catherine bends down and kissed Sara's hand.

"I know that, what I meant was if we have a fight. Don't ever leave me again, talk to me, please! That is all I am asking, I am asking you to be honest to me. I can handle honesty!"

"I promise you that I will never do this again. Will you come home?"

"I don't know, I don't have a job if I go back."

"You do, you'll still have your job. Grissom said that we would have enough manpower now that we have Greg as a CSI 1. He said that he would give you some time to come back. I asked him if he could wait till I came back. If we came back together that would mean that we would both be back at work or if I came back alone that would mean that things wouldn't work out between us and that he could find someone else to replace you. At this moment Sophia from days is working for me so that I could take a couple of days off." Catherine waited a few seconds before she continued; "I had to try, I couldn't let you go I made a terrible mistake."

"I'm not sure if I can do this right now but I want you. I love you with all my heart and even more, I want to be part of a family again, you and Lindsey! I know that if I don't trust you know I'll never be able to trust anyone ever again. I can't stand the emptiness in my heart, it feels like I can't breath." Sara adjusted her eyes from my hands to my own eyes. "Take me home with you …"

AN: That's it, I hope that you guys like it! R&R please, that is after all what keeps me writing. Thank you so much for readiing and reviewing my stories! Angelique