I Love You, but I Want You Dead

Rinny Leonheart

Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wing. Wait a sec, yes I do! I own the series, but that's as far as I can go on the owning issue. I used some quotes from Party Night (Episode: 6), so I don't own those either.

Summary: Just Heero's thoughts into a small song before he kills Relena.

I Love You, but I Want You Dead

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Your eyes captivated me the fist time we met

Your voice spoke to me and made me regret what I did with my life

Times became tough and I had to leave you

I tried to protect you, and I got scared

Why did I save you?

I'd have been better off if you died

I didn't know how I felt til now

You asked why I couldn't do it, I said I was gonna when we were dancing

What's wrong with me?

I love you, but I want you dead.

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Death is my calling, so why do I care?

You helped save my life, made me feel again

I tried to kill you numerous times

I tried to die, but your voice called to me, and I couldn't depart this life

I saved your life when I went back to space

I saved you from death a few years ago

But I can't save you from myself

Which is why now, I have to do what I should have done when we met

I love you, but I want you dead.

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My feelings are strong

But my missions are tough

I don't want to do this

But I have no choice

I cannot go on

Living like this

I have to do this to become what I am

I love you, but I want you dead.

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These times we have shared together

Have become too much for me

I don't want tomorrow

You'll be gone by then

Let me have now

So I can prepare

To have you ridden from my life

I'm sorry

I love you, but I want you dead.

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I can't change who I am

Not even for you

We both have our missions

But I'm not a pacifist like you

You were out for revenge

Because of your father

My mission was revenge I knew nothing about

I followed my missions, without care of myself

I've avoided death so often, and my card hasn't come up yet

I will survive

But you can't

I won't let you

I love you, but I want you dead.

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Relena believe me, I didn't want this

This is my mission

I have orders to follow

You keep getting in my way

I have to stop you doing it again

Which is why, I have to

Let you go

Farewell, Relena

I'll never forget you

I love you, but I want you dead.

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Goodbye…

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Author's Note: Crappy, eh? Figures. It only took me ten minutes to write, so it has to be rubbish. Let me know if you liked it, or hated it. Use the little box below and let me know.

Rinny Leonheart