Confusion

She was a traitor, but she was also his friend. Even when the others hated her, or seemed to at least.

Beastboy just couldn't bring himself to hate her. She had betrayed the team. She had betrayed him. He had loved her, from the moment he'd first seen her. She was just so much fun to be around. She was the greatest.

But she'd gone. She'd up and left, accused him of breaking his promise to her. That had hurt. But still he loved her. He hoped and he wished that she'd return, and for a few nights he had sat up waiting for her.

He was right though. She did return to them, to him. He was the happiest he'd been since he discovered that Raven trully did think of him as a friend. And he was confused that this friend didn't trust her, but still he laughed and he joked. He was happy with her, with Terra.

He'd actually gone on a date with her. He remembered the confusion, the hurt and the betrayel she'd made him feel. Discovering that Terra, the girl he loved, was nothing but a traitor...he should have hated her.

But he couldn't. His heart and his mind still believed in her. If he gave her a second chance, to come back and be with the team, with him, then he'd forget it all. But she didn't take that chance. She betrayed them, him, once again. She had tried to kill them, to kill him.

And still he loved her. Her loved her and he hated her, and he wanted her back. He went after her again. Nothing could have hurt as much as seeing her with such tears in her eyes. He took on Slade by himself, for her. For her, for himself, and for the team.

He couldn't defeat Slade. But she could. And for a long time, they all thought that she really had. Her sacrifice wasn't in vain though. She'd saved the city, she saved the team. He couldn't hate her, he just couldn't. All he could do was love her, remember her- and he did.

Beastboy loved and remembered Terra, and he cried for her and laughed for her. He lived for her. Most of all, he missed her.

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Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans, never have and never will. I do own this particular drabble, which was written fora communityat Live Journal.

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