I AM

Rating: PG

Genre: Romance/Poetry

A/N: I am smitten with a lovely girl named Maggie. She is rapidly becoming a big Phantom Phan (Thanks to me), she wanted to go to the movies the other day and, of course, wanted to see ALW’s: POTO. I couldn’t help but slip into my alternate persona (one of many) Erik. SO, with out further ado, I give you: I AM

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I am so happy, I never believed that such minimal human contact could make a man feel so alive!

I am a monster, in many respects, but a Gentleman as well.

She is a Lady, one who deserves the utmost respect and care.

I am alive! For the first time in years!

I am joyful, to find that there may well be a God.

That this God may, in fact, care what happens to me.

I am filled with electricity, her soft hair in my hands, her head upon my shoulder.

She is shy, as am I.

Two shy friends, crossing that threshold where friendly embraces become intimate.

I am reliving my life, over and over again.

Perhaps this time it will turn out differently?

Perhaps this time, instead of dying in the arms of the one I love,

I might live, enfolded in those same slender limbs?

I am breathless,

Her hand upon my arm, holding me close as she leans against me,

I am no longer the second string,

The runner up in the absence of a better player.

I am dying of happiness,

Her head upon my chest,

My senses filled with her scent, her voice, her satin skin.

To die now, would not be such a bad thing.

I am tearful,

She lets out one sad moan as Erik, the Phantom, is once more denied his happiness,

I squeeze her gently,

I am here.

The lights are coming up,

People file out noisily,

Unaware that history has been repeated.

The Phantom and his love sit quietly in the front row,

Thoughts, like a stream, racing through his mind.

Shall he be denied contentment once more,

Or perhaps, maybe this time, in this century,

Christine might find it in her to accept her dark Angel?

He smiles, the memory of the past two hours fresh in his mind,

They walk out, the Christine and Erik, Jack and Sally, Nick and Maggie.

I am happy now,

I am sad now,

I am Ambivalent.

I am in love,
I am unable to express myself in any spoken words.

The spell has been broken,

Christine leaves, leaving Erik alone to his thoughts,

Christine and Erik are no more, at least for now.

I am only human,

But I now know that there is someone there in the world for me.

I am smiling now.

I am here!

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Awright. I know tis’ crap. I wrote it for my Maggie. My Christine. Please review. That is if you have anything worth saying. If your review is anything along the lines of “yer fic wuz crap. I tnhink i’m gonna go and qwipe my btt with this.” You can go and shove a pineapple up your bahootie. Go, Attack Nigel!