I wrote this awhile ago, but forgot to upload it! I tried not to use names at all, so hopefully it's not too confusing. Don't forget to review and tell me what you think!

Disclaimer: Nope, don't own it.

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Sometimes

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Sometimes she wondered what he thought about her.

What am I to him?

Was she a friend? She was always there to comfort him, and him for her. She knew that they would stand by each other no matter what. She considered him her best friend, the one person she felt the most comfortable around. She loved to be with him, and would prefer his company over just about anyone else's. She trusted him.

Was she a partner? They worked together constantly. They made a great team. Maybe it was ironic that a demon was an exorcist, but they always got the job done anyways. And maybe she was a little destructive occasionally, but he always stuck with her no matter what.

Was she a tool? She knew that she was the only reason he was still alive and able to fight Aion. She was the one who had brought him out of Magdalene's tomb. She was the one who fought with him against the demons. It was because of her that he was able to live at the convent, which was unthinkable of a demon. But most importantly, she was his contractor. Without her life energy, he probably wouldn't be alive. So was he simply using her for her life energy, nothing more? Was he pretending to like her so she would be more willing to give him her soul? Was she a tool of survival?

Was she his redemption? Was he helping her simply because he felt bad? It was his own horns that had been given to her brother, after all. Was he trying to make up for it? Was he staying with her simply out of pity and guilt?

Was she family? He was the only family she had, except for Joshua, but she hadn't seen him in four years. Was Joshua even still alive? But her and Chrno, they were inseparable. Some would say they were like brother and sister, the way they got along and loved each other. She would freely admit that she loved him as a brother. But was there more to it?

Was she his love? Did she love him? She was afraid to answer this question to herself. She knew that a relationship like this would only cause problems. Besides, she didn't know the first thing about love. He'd been in love with Mary Magdalena, and they deserved each other. He was still in love with her, that was the problem. How could she compete with a saint? She was nothing compared to her, nothing. And she knew it. So she would keep her one-sided feelings to herself, no matter how much suffering it caused her. Because she knew, deep down, that she did love him.

What am I to him?

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Sometimes he wondered if she could ever love him as much as she loved her brother.

How does she feel about me?

Did she like him? He could honestly say that she was the best friend he'd ever, even counting Magdalena. She was always there for him, and stood up for him even to Sister Kate, the most terrifying woman he'd ever met. She could always make him smile when he was in the worst of moods. She was his unconditional, the one thing he could count on in his life.

Did she hate him? It was his own fault that Joshua had been taken, and he knew it. If the two orphaned siblings hadn't found him, then Aion wouldn't have given the boy his horns. If it wasn't for him, she wouldn't have had to leave her home, the Seventh Bell Orphanage, and all the children there wouldn't be frozen in time. If it weren't for him, she would still have a long life ahead of her to look forward to. And that was the worst part for him, to know that he was the one killing her, just like he'd killed Magdalena.

Did she use him tool? Was he just a device to get back her beloved younger brother? Did she care about him at all? Surely she cared about him at least a little bit, right? He wanted to believe that she really did like him, that she thought of him as her friend, not a means to get back Joshua. He didn't know if he could stand it if she thought that.

Did she love him? There were certainly times when he thought so, or at least, he wanted to. He knew he loved her. It had probably been inevitable, his falling for her. But did he deserve her? He was a Sinner, a demon. He had killed hundreds of his own kind, and done things that he would rather die than tell her about. He had been unable to stop a rebellion gone bad. And then he'd killed the love of his life. How could he possibly ask to have someone like her, who was wholesome and charming and beautiful and intelligent and kind and an absolutely amazing person? He could never have her; she was just too good for him.

How does she really feel about me?

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Sometimes it drove her crazy, not knowing how he felt about her. But she didn't dare ask.

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Sometimes it drove him crazy, not knowing what she really thought about him. But he wasn't sure he really wanted to know the answer.

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They gripped each other's hands tightly as they watched the sunset. Suddenly, none of those questions mattered anymore. They were together, and that was all that really mattered.

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Love and peace,
Ashuton-chan