A Mother's Pain

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Disclaimer: I don't own Konjiki no Gash Bell, and zatch Bell readers are basically safe reading this.

Note: Drable-ish

Spoilers: Only the flashback in the movie, and only vaguely. But you can figure it out just by reading this, and I tweaked it a bit.

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I told him to never look back. He looked at me with those big sweet eyes of his and tilted his head. I could hear the breaking inside me, but I had to get him to leave. I could tell in his eyes, I could see it. He didn't want to go.

I told him I wouldn't think of him until he returned. I told him he shouldn't think of me until he returned. He didn't like that, and I shook my head and engraved it into the wall by the lake. He asked me what it was. I explained he would come here and wait for me when he came back. He smiled and hugged me, but I didn't hug back. If I did, I knew I'd never let go.

I told him he didn't exist until he came home. He pulled away and his eyes were wide in shock. Tears fell and I wanted so badly to wipe them, but I couldn't bring myself to do so.

I told him that I shouldn't exist to him either. He stared through tears that wouldn't stop, as if they were coming from both our hearts. He looked as if I had betrayed him. I think I did. He turned and ran, and a sad smile came to my lips.

He never looked back once. I turned and headed back to my village, and finally I could cry. I collapsed and sobbed.

My baby was going into the battle, he might come back completely different. I never even said goodbye, not really¼

So much happens in the war. So much pain, loss, violence¼ He's only six¼

I told him never to look back. I told him I wouldn't think of him until he returned. I told him he didn't exist until he came home.

I am a liar.

THE END