AN: again...sad... Cath's pov...about her and Gil

I'm not arguing
Not fighting
Not questioning
Not denying…

…Once I thought I could be with you
But I had to learn that we better be friends
Once I thought I could fall outta love with you
But I just can't

I'm not wishing
Not complaining
Not revealing
Not regaining…

…What I once thought I could have
But yet the closest I could get
Is being your best friend
And that's all I'll ever be in the end

I'm not crying
Not trying
Not believing
Not dying…

…Anymore