Title: Introspection

Author: EternalPheonixtears or Brittonie

Summary: Fox Mulder’s thoughts while he was interrogating, Ascension Tag On

Genre: Angst, romance

Pairing: Fox Mulder / Dana Scully

Season: Season Two during Ascension

Rating: PG13, some course language

Disclaimer: I don't care what you do with this story. You can print it out & make paper airplanes with it for all I care. BUT, If you decide to SELL said paper airplanes, don't blame ME if you get sued by 20th Century Fox and their friends ... and their lawyers! I don't own the characters of Fox Mulder and Dana Scully or any other character in The X-Files. Although, if the Powers that Be want to steal this story from me, they could have it, we won't mind, will we?

Author's notes: Da Da Dada hey! Dada Dada Da Da Dada hey! Dada... I bought my first X-Files box set! Yay! This is my first try at an X-Files fanfic so be nice.

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Did you hurt her? Did you hurt her? Blood! Blood on your cuff! And hair! Her hair, god, Scully, oh god I should of got that message sooner, I should have protected you, we should have worked late like we always do, and fall asleep at our desks like we always do. Faces down on our notebooks with binder ring marks down the sides of our sleep-deprived expressions.

Why her! Why her and not me! She was beautiful, she was kind, she was caring, she may have been skeptical, she may have not believed… she may have been afraid to believe but she believed in me, she made me believe in myself again.

I reach into my pocket and find your cross, a beautiful gold… beautiful… gorgeous… just like you. You were always guarded by your beliefs Dana; I never expected this from you, so skeptical but such a believer. I long to see you wear it, to just catch a glimpse of it around your neck, resting against your flawless, soft skin.

If you hurt her… I swear to god, if you hurt her, I’d blow your arse to hell and make sure you suffer son of a bitch! Nobody hurts my partner! My Scully! My Dana! … My Dana… God I wish I told you how I felt, you were more than my accomplice, my co-worker. You were much, much more to me Dana, you were- Oh god where are you! I wanna yell, I want to break down and cry till my eyes can’t stand it no more, I want to scream until my throat is sore, so loud that even the pernicious bastards who cruelly took you away from me will hear.

I just miss you so much that I don’t… think I can… just… Bloody hell Dana, I love you! Please don’t go away, please. I just want to find you, alive and well, I want to hug you and comfort you and tell you everything is ok, I want to feel you in my arms, I want to protect you, please.

I want the chance back, the chance that someday you will be in my arms for good, in my arms, in my heart, in my bed. For someday I want to slide a ring onto your finger and be able to tell you how much I love you. That chance has been taken away from me.

I may seem so strong all the time but truly, I’m not, I’m not strong enough, I can’t loose you! I’m just not strong enough. I was so scared when I got that message, you crying out for me, shouting for me to help you. I’m sorry, I didn’t hear you, I didn’t hear your cry’s for help, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.

I’m crying now, I can’t hold it in anymore, crouched in the corner of my apartment, in my bedroom, the place I long you to be, crying, weeping, sobbing, shaking like a leaf, my tears are for you, they hurt my already sore eyes, the salt burning my skin. I want you back; I want you in my arms. I’m praying, please God, please keep her safe and bring her back to me, bring back my Dana, my Scully, my love, my partner.

Amen.

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