Dearest readers,

I'm afraid this isn't an update, and I suppose many of you will be disappointed by that. But I hate it when authors stop writing or vanish from sight, and so I thought I'd give you an explanation for the lack of updates in the past months and the lack of updates that is to come.

To make things short: My husband has cancer. His chances of recovery or even survival beyond this year are slim to nonexistent, and while medication helps with the pain and the other symptoms, there isn't much else that can be done for him at this point.

Those of you who've lost a relative or loved one will know how I feel at the moment, and those who haven't: I hope with all my heart that you never will. I'm doing my best to help him and care for him and do everything that can be done, but it is hard and doesn't leave me much strength or time. When I have time, I try to do things that relax me and take my mind off things.

While writing in general does both, "Had I Known" tackles topics and feelings that are far from good for me right now. I tried writing the next chapter a few times and had to stop because I couldn't see the screen through my tears. This means that I won't be working on it for the foreseeable future, even though I'd love to finally finish this story that's been so important to me and to you.

It doesn't mean that the story is abandoned, however. I have copious notes and know exactly where I want to go and WILLfinish one day. When it doesn't hurt so much anymore.

Perhaps I'll find the time to write something else in the next weeks, something light hearted or filled with action. But don't count on it, and don't worry. And please don't send me angry reviews telling me to update, for believe me, in a better world I would.

Thank you all for your kind words and your wishes and your prayers. You can't imagine what they mean to me.

All the best to you,

Kayly

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EDIT: My husband passed away two months ago. Everything is hard right now. But it turns out that writing, as always, helps a bit.

I don't exactly know when you can expect regular updates – the reasons given above are still making this of all stories difficult to write. But I'm working on it again, and I hope I can come back to it in the not too distant future.