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Just a weird idea I had in the middle of writing an essay... it turned out a little random but I still like the original ideas behind it. Plus I think it managed to get inside the characters' heads, even just a little bit.
Blue.
Rei's colour is blue. Not just her hair, which is a light blue all on its own, but everything about her. Like her heart. If she had one. People think she does. She knows they think she does, because she's seen them trying to get close to it. They wave and smile and act friendly, because they want to be her friend by getting to know her, meaning her heart, better.
But they can't, because she doesn't have one. Only three people in the world know that, and one of them is already dead. So she hates red, sometimes, because it only symbolises the colour of the human heart – something she doesn't have, and something she knows she will never have no matter how much she might look like it or want it.
Rei thinks about this some more as she lies down in bed. Not to sleep, because she rarely sleeps. But to rest her body, at least, which is just like any other in that respect. Later on, just before she does close her eyes to enter into a place which may, for a few moments, provide some momentary respite, she adjusts the thought. Because along with her eyes, her cheeks get a spot of colour in them sometimes, if she's around certain people. They don't show up when she looks in the mirror, but she knows they appear on occasion nonetheless because they burn like fire upon cool marble.
Red.
Asuka's colour is red. Her hair is really orange, but people want to call her a red-head all the same. Like her temper. Its not really so bad if people would just give her some space, but no, they always want to crowd around her at just the wrong moments, and then they get upset if she snaps at them, which she has a perfect right to do. So she does, because she's the type of girl who believes in the rights of the individual.
Sometimes she thinks she might drown in a sea of red. Red suit, red clips in her hair, red EVA... but red is just her, so she doesn't mind it. Besides, the only person in the world who ever knew her when she wasn't red is dead.
Asuka thinks about this some more as she likes down in bed. Not to sleep, obviously, because her mind works too fast to really sleep these days. But at least her body will get some rest, even if she won't admit that it actually needs it. That's why she hates the colour blue – blue is the colour of someone who has given up. That's human, and she hates being human with human needs and human weaknesses and a human heart that's too fragile to even deal with. But in the end she has to sleep anyway, so just before she does give up for a little while and let her eyes close, she realises that, along with her eyes, her heart itself is blue. Not physically, of course, but nonetheless... she's never actually seen her heart, but she knows it must be blue because sometimes, when she's around certain people, it feels like it could almost freeze amidst the surrounding fire.