Secrets Don't Make Friends
by: neo-chan

How can you miss someone when they're standing right in front of you?

I never would've thought it could be possible. But now I know how it feels. Here you are, no more than a few feet away from me. I could so easily reach out and touch you, caress you, tell you how much you mean to me. Tell you that I love you, so much, and all I want for the rest of my life is you in my arms. Stroke your soft golden hair, gaze into your blazing blue eyes, feel your smooth creamy skin against mine. Hear your sweet voice speak to me in soft tones as I fall deeper in love every moment.

But at the same time, you're so far away. You're in your own little world now, one I won't dare to enter. Because what right do I have to intrude on your happiness? You gave me that right, once, and took it back rightfully when I didn't deserve it. I still don't deserve it. I don't deserve you.

But that doesn't stop the yearning. I can't take my eyes off of you. Every time you smile at me, despite how forced it may be, I can't help the ache for something we tried so hard to achieve; something that was never really there. Maybe it was the lack of communication, the lack of understanding. Or maybe it was just that we never had it in us in the first place.

I can't respond when you say hello, because that would only make it harder. Instead I mumble an excuse about leaving and turn away, fleeing as fast as possible. I can feel your eyes burning into my back, giving that hurt look I know all too well. But I won't turn back. I know I'm doing the right thing. It's not healthy for us to be so close, when in reality we can't be.

It's not right for me to stand there and talk to you like everything is alright when you're holding her hand.

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I don't know where this came from. Really. That first line just popped into my head and I thought "Well, I'm not getting anywhere working on my other fics, let's try just writing up a quick little something." So... tell me what you think. If you didn't guess, it's written in Tai's POV. As for the title... well, it's a good song and it sporadically decided to make itself the title. And it works. So... yeah.