Author: InuOtaku PM
Basically a oneshot that might lead into a longer story. This is Sakura, Sasuke, and Naruto: their own perspectives, a brief glimpse of their internal thoughts about various things...their lives, their goals, each other, etc. They're all 'waiting'...Rated: Fiction T - English - Words: 2,018 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10-28-05 - Status: Complete - id: 2636936
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My name is Haruno
Sakura. I am a daughter of an average Konoha family with no
no famous contributions, no mention in the thick, leather-bound village history volumes in Hokage-sama's
office. My parents are good-hearted, strong-spirited people, and they come from people just like them.
An endless line of Harunos, dating back farther than I know, all of them good, loyal people. That has
always seemed to be enough for them. I want to stand out, but I am waiting…
I am a friend, but
really not a very good one. My best friend for so long, my only
friend, really, was
Yamanaka Ino. Her family runs the village flower shop, and she used to teach me the art of floral
arrangement on boring, rainy Saturday afternoons when there was no school to distract us. She was
my great defender and now she is my rival. I love her the same, but I cannot back down. I will not
lose to her. Shannaro! Sasuke-kun came between us, and I put him there. She was the one who said I
would bloom into a beautiful flower. I believe her, and I am waiting….
I am also a teammate.
There are three of us, grouped together because of our strengths and
and led by Kakashi-sensei. Uchiha Sasuke and Uzumaki Naruto. They are my friends, my extended family;
a constant source of irritation and friendship and rivalry and grief and inspiration. Naruto is loud and annoying
and oddly likeable. Sasuke-kun is quiet and intent and the most talented. Naruto likes me, and I love
Sasuke-kun, but Sasuke-kun loves no one, at least not in that way. They each have their techniques, and
they are growing strong so quickly. Sometimes I feel that I am being left behind. I watch their backs, but
my moment is coming, I am certain, and I'm waiting for it….
Most of all, I am a
ninja of Konoha. I had the highest grades, but book smarts are not
enough in the real world, and
I am learning that quickly. I used to secretly laugh at Naruto for his weak academics, his poor test scores, but laughter
dies when an orange-clad shadow replication is summoned in time to absorb a kunai meant for me. It's a humbling
experience, to be the weak link, but Kakashi-sensei says I will find my niche, and I believe him. I will wait for it.
I was a son, but not
anymore. There is a giant wall around me, a void where there were once
people who were the
center of my life. Or maybe I was the center of theirs'. They are shadows as well, distant forms that follow me everywhere.
To school. To training. On missions. At meals. Into sleep. They make no demands, strange since they made so many of
them when they actually existed as flesh and blood people. My mother was kind and gentle and indulgent. My father was
stern and insistent and unimpressed. I was well-behaved, and I worked hard. I did well in school, had the highest marks in
everything. I was praised as another genius of the Uchiha clan, but I was the spare. My effort and abilities, which brilliantly
shone in Iruka-sensei's classroom, appeared dingy when compared to the true genius of my family. The one I am waiting to kill….
I am an avenger.
My older brother Itachi is clever, unmatched, emotionless. A blank space. A murderer. I wonder if
father would ever have anticipated that the hand he had taught to bull's-eye a shuriken would one day use that well-honed
precision to…. If mother could ever have imagined that the hand she had carefully wrapped after some mission-induced
injury would one day be used to…. I wonder if my brother anticipates that the boy he spared, the one he taught to throw
a shuriken, the one he carried home piggy-back style after a training-induced injury…will be the one to place him, with a
relieving finality, into those pages of history with the rest of our clan. I think maybe that is the way Itachi wants it, for his
death to wear my face. It is how I want it, and I will not wait any longer…..
I am a ninja of Konoha.
I have teammates and, because of them, have been forced to learn
teamwork. Sakura likes me
more than I can understand. I am not overly kind to her. Her priorities are wrong. She worries about me more than about
herself. It will get her killed, and that is why I watch for her. Naruto is my most annoying rival. He wants me to acknowledge
him, but that is difficult for a rival to do. He is also my best friend. Usuratonkachi. I am the number one rookie, the most
talented, the most capable, the most adept. Shishi Rendan!Goukakyuu no Jutsu! Housenka no Jutsu! Sharingan! I am
stagnating. I can feel it, that quiet desperation, the one that always surfaces along with his face, with those eyes, crimson and
pin-wheeled into a sort of vacant malice. I have the same eyes, but they are not capable of the same things. I am not capable
of the same things as he. I will have to find another way, and I cannot wait…
I was a dropout. I
liked to play pranks. Oiroke no Jutsu! I liked to watch
Iruka-sensei's face when he discovered that I
carved my name into the desk while listening to one of his boring chakra lessons. I hated it when he stood overhead,
glaring at me, radiating disapproval for the three hours it took me to sand the desk down and refinish it. I love it when he
tells me that it's late, and that I must be hungry, and that he has enough on him to treat me to ramen. I was the worst in
his class. I failed the graduation exam three times. My worst skill was replication. Kage Bunshin no Jutsu! I work hard,
I train all the time. I'm not a genius like Sasuke and Neji and Kakashi. I'm going to be greater than all of them. Dattebayo!
I am a monster. There
are times when I am exhausted, when my chakra is gone, and I can feel
something clawing at me
the inside. It is faint, and I don't know what to do about it, if I should do something with it. Sometimes it does something
with me. Everything goes from blue to orange, everything fades, and I am certain at that moment that I am more powerful
than anyone. Mizuki said Yondaime sealed the Nine-tails inside me. Sometimes I want to yell at people that the monster lives
inside me, but I am not him. He is sealed away, safely away, and I can ignore him most of the time. Sometimes I want to yell
at Yondaime Hokage for making me the container. Most of the time, especially when Sasuke's taking all the good parts, I
want to yell at the Kyuubi to help me out a little! I am waiting for everyone to realize that I am what is keeping the fox away
from them. He is waiting to escape me. I won't let him.
Best of all, I am a
ninja of Konoha. I will be the greatest of them all. I won't take
back my words. Somehow I always end
up finishing second to that jerk, Sasuke. My best friend, Sasuke. I cheer when he does something amazing in that annoyingly
cool way of his. I also cheer when he screws up and looks like an idiot. For some reason, Sakura always watches him when
I'd really rather she watch me. She's pretty and she's good-hearted and she's also really scary. They are my teammates.
They are important. To them, I am visible, and I think the best feeling in the world is when someone looks at you, really looks
at you. I have a forehead protector, and it means a lot to me. It stands for more than it is, just a nicked, flattened piece of metal
with the swirling Konoha leaf design in the center. It represents my life, my purpose, my way of the ninja. I waited a long time for it,
and now I will earn it.
Oh, for those that have only seen the English version:
Shannaro means "Hell yeah!"/"Damn it!" (depending on the situation) It's Sakura's all-purpose celebratory/irritated exclamation.
Shishi Rendan, Goukakyuu no Jutsu, Housenka no Jutsu are some of Sasuke's attacks, basically.
Usuratonkachi means 'idiot'. This is Sasuke's word for stupid people. He uses it the most for Naruto. xD
Oiroke no Jutsu is the 'sexy' jutsu. It's a prank-style technique that Naruto does. I'm not sure what they call this in English. I don't even know if they changed it.
Dattebayo is a phrase Naruto uses constantly. xD I think it's some sort of sentence suffix, meant for emphasis. It was translated into English as 'Believe it!'. It's possible it should be spelled out as 'Datte ba yo', but I'm not sure. I've seen it both ways. If it's wrong, then I'll just look at it as writer's discretion...lol. He runs it together like that when he speaks anyway. ;)
Kage Bunshin no Jutsu is Shadow Replication Technique. Again, not sure if they changed this in the English version or not.