Disclaimer – Sadly, I don’t own Lost or any of the characters.

Authors note –Somewhere between ep. 201 - 204 (Walt is still there. ) I'm sorry if I my english isn't so good, but I live in belguim and it's my first ff.

R & R – Enjoy!

If you feel like It's not a jate story anymore don't worry, it is.

Liesbeth

You're with me wherever I go

Kate was lying in the sand. Listening how the waves touched the beach and rolled back into the sea. Listening to the birds that weresinging, how they were making their own concert.

She slowly opened her eyes. Started at the sky at the sky above her. Trying to imagine what that cloud above her looked like.

“Definitely a dog" she said so soft that only she could hear what she was saying.

Another cloud passes before her eyes in the sky. She couldn't really say what that could look like. "It looks like a letter" she said. “It’s a ... A 'J' “she said smiling, happy she found what the cloud looked like.”A 'J' from... From Jack “she said, at the name Jack here voice softened and her smile faded a way, and a more serious look appeared on her face. "Jack" she said one more time out loud. It was good to hear his name. Shehadn't seen him the whole day. And she knew, even if she didn't want to admit it to herself, that she missed him. Just to hear his voice or see the sweat glittering in the sunlight on his body. It made her want to jump in his arms. She felt so comforted with him, like she knew him her whole life. He was the only one that could trust her, who not hadran away when she hadtold him about her past. Instead he shared her secret. Still yoking around with her, still trusting her, still talking to her, stillhegaveher that smile that she knew she was the only one who got that smile and still looking at her like she was the most important human being in his life. Kate knew that wasn'ttrue but she liked the idea, with that idea she felt safe and that was exactly how you must feel on a mysterious island like this. Jack made her feel safe.

“Lost in thoughts huh?” Jack said as he came up from behind Kate.

She smiled back at him, rolling her eyes in that funny Kate way.

That made Jack’s smile even bigger. She tried to watch him as he sat down just behind her head, she still lying in the sand,while he saton his knees.

“Hi, stranger” she said with a playful sound in her voice. Now she was rolling her back on her stomach trying to face him. “Thought you forgot me" she said still yoking around, but she knew deep down that this question meant more to her than she would ever admit.

He watched how she putted her hand under her chin to support her head and how her feets were in the air, the left playing with the right. “Never “he said, still smiling at her, now looking deeply in her eyes.

Kate blushed a little bit by his answer. How could he do that just looking at her like that, making her giggle and act like a teenager around him, looking in her soul. She knew Jack just had to look in her eyes to know something was wrong. She knew that because it was the same with her.

“So Mr. Shephard what brings you back to the 'Oh so dangerous beach'?" Kate asked still playing with her gaze felt onhow the wind was blowing his shirt a little bit upwards. And she noticed the wind was blowing more heavynow then before, at one time all her hair waved before her eyes. She tried to put it back behind her ears. But as she moved her hand from under her chin her head fell in the sand. She looked back up her noise full of sand. Jack stared at Kate and laughed loud.

“Ha-ha, Kate I know that you are hungry but please don’t start eating sand.” He said trying to breath normally under his laugh.

“Idon't mindeating sand as long as it’s not meat." She said. “And you can combinate it with a lot of different things like : grass, mud, seaweed…” she said as she just yoked with him. Jack just smiled at her. Missing this, yoking around with her, watching her, talking to her. He just doesn’t understand why she wouldn't come with him to the caves.

“Here let me do that.” He said as he gentlyputtedher hair back behind her ear. Still looking intently at her. Then he moved one finger towards her noise wiping away the sand from it.

“Hey, that tickles!” Kate shouted under her laugh, Jack just chuckled as he saw her laugh.

“Oh yeah, and what about this.” Now he startled to tickle her everywhere her neck, arms, stomach, legs, feet’s.

“Jack, stop it! Aahhh Jack! “Kate shouted as she laughed hysterically. Now she was on top of him, putting sand in his shirt.

“Oh no, I don’t want to wear more baggage just cause you put sand in my shirt.” He said, as he lifted her up with his hands on her thighs. Pulling her back underneath him.

“Aaahh” Kate shouted as Jack was lying above her. “You were right, without the sand you weight in of.” She said smiling wide at him.

He gave her a small smile back. Lying on top of her. Now their faces were only inches away from each other. Again her hair fell before her eyes, and again Jack putted the stroke of hair back behind her ears. But now his hand staid on her cheek, caressing it slightly.

Kate’s smile faded away as she looked in his eyes, seeing something she never had seen before with Jack and not only with Jack. With all the men she had met in her life, shehad never seen this look. So intensely, telling hersomething, telling her that his eyes needed someone to look at everyday. Searching with her eyes for his lips, she saw again something she hadnever seen before. His lips telling her that they needed someone to kiss. While his other hand was caressing her back. She putted her hand on top of his hand that was resting on her cheek. He watched how she bited her lower lip a little and she watched how he licks his lips. He gently moved his lips towards hers.

“Am I interrupting something?” Sawyer was right in front of them, looking at the two who lied in the sand, and he dam knew he was interrupting but he just had to do something are hewould looseKate forever.

“So Jackass you decided to study for gynaecology and practice with freckles here?” He gave them a small grin.

While Jack moved away from Kate andstood back on his feet.

“Go away Sawyer” Kate said embarrassed that Sawyer had seen the whole thing between her and Jack, and mad that he interrupted the one thing why she was still on the island, akiss from Jack.

“Okay, I just came down to tell Jackass here, that Charlie needs him to check on Aaron, he acts a little strange, not that I think it’s not normal with a mother like that.” Jack couldn’t believe what he was hearing,Claire never did anything wrong, shehad always been friendly and helpfull, evenafter the wholeEthan thing. She didn't disserve thisso he punched Sawyer on the face.

“Arg doc. I didn't deserve that.” He was about to walk towards Jack to pay him back but Kate jumped up in front of Sawyer, defending Jack.

“Yes you did, so go away from Jack.” She said almost with tears in her eyes. For finally knowing what she want, what she had want the moment she saw him sitting on the ground, asking for her help and now she needed his help. She needed him to kiss her, to talk to her, to smile at her, to put her hair back behind her ears every time it felt before her eyes. She just needed him, for no reason. She needed him… because. And that’s was the most powerful reason she could think about why she had to be with Jack.

“Ah the girl defending the boy, so sweet.” Sawyer said with a grin but deep down he was hurt by heractions. Now Kate gave him a punch inhis stomach.

“I mean it Sawyer.”

“Ok I’m leaving, because I know you will return to me, just like you always do.”

And with that he left. Jack stood behind Kate, not understanding what Sawyer meant by his last sentence. Kate turned around to face Jack. The tears were still in her eyes. Jack took a step closer towards Kate.

“ Eumm , you better go and check on Aaron, Jack” Kate said knowing Jack would ask about Sawyer's last words.

-Flash back-

Kate wascrying by the waterfalls. She just had a fight with Jack about her past and she lying to him about it. About that she didn’t trusted him. But all she does is trusting him. She trusted him more than she trusted herself. Why didn’t’ he believe that? She just didn’t want him to know what she had done. Not wanting him to run away from her. Because she knew that without him she couldn’t survive this. Not because he’s a doctor, but because the man who he was. Her friend, confidant, soul mate and so much more. The one person she felt save with. And the one person she didn’t run away from. She was hurtled, hurtled by his words.

“Hi freckles, what’s wrong. Did jackass do something wrong?” he said with a smirk.

“Shut up Sawyer” Kate said annoyed, Sawyer was the last person that she wants to see.

“Arg I found the emotional spot of freckles, Jack” Now Kate had to try even harder to fight her tears. “Maybe I can help” Sawyer putted is arm around her. He started to kiss her neck. Kate didn’t protest she just looked before her, the tears still in her eyes. Now Sawyer was kissing her mouth. She slowly opened her mouth and lets his toungue in. Her hands in his hair. They were now breathing heavily. Still kissing.

-End Flashback -

“Kate, are you okay?” Jack asked concerned. Kate hadn’t reacted when he said that he would go and check on Aaron when he knew she was okay. “Yeah, just leave me along will you?”

“Kate…” Jack startled, taking aback by her level of speaking.

“Don’t Jack.“ She pleaded him with tears in her eyes when he moved his hand towards her cheek. When she turned around and walked away. Jack ran after her.

"Come on Kate, do you really think that I’m just going to let you walk away like this ?’

“No, I don’t think that, but at least I can try.” She said with a small smile on her face as she turned around to find Jack right behind her.

“Just tell me Kate, just this once, tell me the truth. What did Sawyer meant when he said that you will return to him like you always do?” he asked Kate, andlooked her directly in the eyes, searching for an answer. “I can’t “She said and turned around again to walk away.

“Oh okay, fine run away like you always do! Why can’t you just tell me?” Jack asked raising his voice.

“Okay you want to know, Jack? “ Kateasked him just not shouting as she turned around, Jack just nodded his head.

“You remember the time that we’d fight again about me not telling youthe truth?”

“ I remember them all.” Jack said nodding sadly.

“ Now , one of them you really hurtled me deep, telling thinks I deep down knew you didn’t mean,that you just said them because you were I also knew deep down that part of them were true.” Kate said with tears behind her eyes.

“ When you said all these things I realised that I didn’t disserve you. That I didn’t disserve you’re friendship and certainly that I didn’t disserve your love. I don’t want to hurt you Jack” She said, now tears streaming down on her face.

“Kate, I ..” Jack began but Kate interrupted him.

"I was crying by the waterfalls for the words you just had said and for discovering that you andI would never Sawyer came. He just startled to kiss me and I didn’t push him away. After that moment I decided to avoid you , cause I really didn’t want to hurt you more then I already had. But you didn’t let me go. So I gave up, at that moment I’d gave myself to you.” Kate ended her story, looking how her tears fell down on her feet, she didn't want to look in his eyes. Sheknew she would only find a hurtled look.

“Kate..” Jack began as he lifted her chin gently with one finger.

“Look in my eyes.”

“I can’t Jack” Kate said.

“Please Kate.” She couldn’t fight that tone in his voice. So she looked him in the eyes. Finding not what she’d aspect to find. She finded a look of love and understanding in his eyes. A small smile pressedon his lips and tears in his eyes.

“ Kate, you do disserve me.” He said as he gently wiped away her tears.

“Every time I’m with you. You bring out that spot in me, nowone had done that before. You bring out the bestin me. I know you didn’t want to kiss Sawyer. Because you don’t look at him the way I look at you. And even if you’ll walk away from me, I know that on some unearthly way it’s always goanna be you and me. Kate, you had me the moment I saw you standing there. I knew from that moment we had this bond, this closeness that transcends even friendship. A connection so rare and precious that you almost feelthat putting it in words might take away it’s magic and you know what Kate. Nothing can take away the magic.” Kate was now speechless. And again she knew she didn’t deserve him.

"Jack you’re the best thing that happened to me. But I don’t want to hurt you, I can’t. I love you to much Jack. I love you with all my heart. Now, forever and everyday between. But I just can’t hurt you.” She said and for the last time she ran away.

“ Kate !” Jack shouted, now wiping away his tears. “I love you too’ he said so soft that only the birds around him could hear it and startled to ran after her.

When he reached her he grabbed her hand. Spinned her around and beforeshe knew ithe was kissing her, like shehad never beenkissed before. His hands caressedher back and slowly hemoved away fromher lips.

“Kate, we’re find away together, I know you’re scared to love but I know what you are feeling too. I need you Kate.”

“You do?" She said smilingas she putted her handbehind his neck, in his hair. And he wrapped his arms around her. One hand resting on her cheek, his fingers behind her ears. Sweeping her of her feet. Kissing her more pasiontly then before. Moving to the ground with Kate in his arms. When they were on the sand they had tobreak the kiss to breath. Her blouse was now just on her shoulders, she startled to unbutton his shirt. He placed little butterfly kissed on her bare shoulder. Kate giggled.

“ Kate, I…” He startled butwas interrupedwhenKate kissed him intensely on the lips.

“Shut up, Jack.” she said with her smile pressedon his mount. Jack just smiled and kissed her everywhere he could.

1 hour, 5 minutes and 46 seconds later. Jack and Kate were lying under the stars. Kate with her head on Jack’s chest, listening to the beat of his heart. With her hands on his stomach caressing it. Both with smiles on their faces. Jack’s noise was buried in Kate’s messy hair, kissing it. And his right hand was caressing her thigh, his other hand was stroking her cheek. They were lying therefor a while quite, just enjoying each others company when Jack spoke.

“ This is perfect." Kate smiled at him. It was weird hos words so simplecould make thismoment more perfect then it already was. She just gave him a sweet kiss on his noise and laid her head back on his chest;

"Look at the stars Jack."Kate said while she streched her arm, and pointed with a finger to the beautifull sky, drawed with stars.

"Do you see the big bear?” she asked while shegave him a small look,then staring back to the stars.

Jack chuckled “I was never really good at astronomy.” He said as he tried to find the star, but to him they all looked the same.

“Give me your hand Jack” she said while her hand was still in the air, pointing at the stars above him. He stretched his arm, until his hand was next to hers. She intertwined her fingers with his and with both their fingers in the air she started to make little circles with them.

“Close your eyes Jack.” She said with more softness in her voice then he had ever slowly closed his eyes, a small smile on his lips. Still his hand in hers, pointing at the stars. Kate stated to drawn, the lines of the big bear. He just tried to concentrate, and to imagine how the big bear looks like. But how could he concentrate with Kate lying next to him. Her hair softly tickling his neck, her sweet, personal smell was all he could sent, their finger interlacing so well, like they were made for each other. He believed that maybe they were made for one another. Maybe every Kate has her Jack and every Jack has his Kate. “Open your eyes.” She said and he was drowned out his thoughts by Kate’s voice. “Now draw the big bear by yourself Doctor Sheppard.” Kate said wonderingif the good doc had paid attention. “I still don’t see it, Miss Austin.” Jack said playfully, joining the game teacher/student. “Just try.” She said sweet, still their fingers intertwined in the air. He starts to drawn something into the stars. “That’s not the Big bear Jack” She said as she laughed at him still looking in the sky. “I know.” Jack said smiling at Kate who playfully frowned her eyebrows. “So what did you just draw in the sky, Jack?” She asked now looking deeply in his eyes. Jack started to make the same drawings all over again. “Look.” He said as she moved her hand to watch his fingers move into the sky. “I” she started. “Lo…v...e” “You” she said slowlyrealizing what she just had said. At the ‘you’ Jack lowered their fingers and he pointed them at Kate. Kate just gave him that half smile that made Jack’s heart skip a bit. He wished he could just look at that smile forever. “I love the stars. They are so peaceful what makes them so beautiful.” she said,Jack just looked at Kate, enjoying her smile and the way her eyes glitter in the light of the moon. Never giving a glance at the stars above them. “Don’t you like them, Jack?” she asked when he hadn’t said anything in the last 2 minutes. Jack just keptstarring at her. “They are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.” He said, still starring at her, he gave her a cute smile that meant more then the words he was saying. Kate knew what he meant and blushed.

“You know Jack” she began as she razed her head towards him. “ No , what that? “

“When Sawyer was kissing me at the waterfalls, I interrupted the kiss after a couple of minutes.”

“You did? “ Jack asked not believing his ears. “I thought you guys had made out or something.”

“No Doc. You’re the first one who got the chance to exam me.” She said with a chuckle.

“Is that so?” Jack asked smiling as well. “Now I see that you are not entirely healed, so I have to do more research.” He said and startled to kiss her temple.

“Calm down Doctor Love.” Kate saidandgavehim a quick kiss. “ I just need you to know, that you also had me the moment I saw you sitting there.” She said smiling at him, but still with small tears in her eyes.

“I know that.” He said andgaveher a kiss on her forehead before lying his head back in the sand.

“Thanks for everything, Jack.” She whispered in his ear. And laid her head back on his chest and buried her face in his neck. Closing her eyes, drifting of into sleep.

Jack gave her a last smile before he closed his eyes too.

“Goodnight, Kate.”

Liesbeth