Title: Mutant
Pairings: None
Genre: Angst
Warnings: Angst, portrayal of a characters dark side
Rating: PG

Summary: What lies behind the jokes?

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I hate myself. I'm pathetic; I hide behind jokes, and I don't care what I have to do to get attention.

As long as people are looking at me I'm happy. I don't care about respect anymore, I just want some one to notice me.

Rae's mocking, Cy's encouragement, I'll take it all. It doesn't matter. I don't really deserve anything; I'm just a green freak. I'll take whatever they're willing to give me.

And none of them will ever know how much the words mean to me.