A/N: I am still in the process of working on the next part of "Moments", but when I sat down to write today this poem came out. I like how it came, though, and wanted to get some feedback.

- Just so you know, this is from Ennis's point of view after the end of the movie.

I will finally have the freedoms

That I am now denied.

I kept putting that time off,

Saying,

When I grow old…

It is time to admit

That that time is now.

I can look back at my life

Honestly

Without fear

Or repercussions

For once.

My mistakes,

My failures

Stand out more

Than my successes,

Which seem to grow more paltry

As time floats by.

Now,

Only now,

Can I see

That this was the chance of a lifetime

And I let it go past

Because,

After all,

What would they think?

I sat

Lonely

Miserable

So that they'd think

I was perfectly content.

It made sense at the time.

I assure you.

But now,

Looking back,

Remembering the lonely winters,

And icy springs,

And blistering summers,

And death-bearing falls,

I see that my life

Was truly lived

Only on the mountain.

With you.

If my life were a motion picture,

I know,

Days, weeks, months would fly by

In a matter of minutes,

But the time we spent together

Would take up hours.

I was only ever truly living,

Truly real,

With you.

It strikes me now

That this is my fault

For not seeing

Until it was too late.

I am finally brave enough

To face them

And say that I don't care.

I finally have enough courage

To face you

And say that I love you.

I fianllyhave enough sense

To face myself

And say that it is too late.

I look at the worn shirt

I forgot

Or you stole

I don't remember anymore.

I look at the postcards you sent

Worn and faded now

But never forgotten.

These are all I have left.

I would cry,

But tears and regrets are useless.

They won't change anything.

I know now

That dreams are like birds

With clipped wings.

They look beautiful,

Free,

But they don't go anywhere.

I understand this

All too well.

And yet,

I dream.

I dream that I

Could do it all again.

If I could have one more chance

At even half a life,

Jack, I swear…

Also, for anyone interested, the forum that I had mentioned is now fully up and running, look for it under Forums, Movies, "Brokeback Mountain" on this site.