Summary: How Erik and Christine felt after she left him. SONG FIC

Disclaimer: I do not own Phantom of the Opera or the song: If I Never Knew You.

AN: This kind of switches views. I home it is not confusing. This song works because in my opinion Christine really loved him. That’s what I gathered from reading the book. Anything in bold is the duet part of the song

If I never felt this love

I would have no inkling of

How precious life can be

And if I never held you

I would never have a clue

How at last I'd find in you

The missing part of me

Erik slowly made his way back to his home. He was tiered and hot. His normally fine clothes were shredded on his sweaty body. The heat made his already red disfigured face look even worse. His normal side was covered in tears.

In this world so full of fear

Full of rage and lies

He made it to his lair it was in shambles. It seemed the mob had left nothing untouched. He looked at the charred papers that had been his music scores and felt tears come to his eyes.

He went into one of the many secret rooms. This one the mob had not found. On the wall was one of his paintings of Christine. He removed it from the wall and stood looking at it. His eyes once again filled with tears.

I can see the truth so clear

In your eyes

So dry your eyes

And I'm so grateful to you

I'd have lived my whole life through

Lost forever

If I never knew you

Christine changed out of Erik’s wedding dress. She sat on her bed in the De Chagny mansion looking at the city lights.

If I never knew you

I'd be safe but half as real

Never knowing I could feel

A love so strong and true

I'm so grateful to you

I'd have lived my whole life through

Lost forever

If I never knew you

she sighed sadly

Somehow we made the whole world bright

Erik continued his fixing up his home, no house

I thought our love would be so beautiful

I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong

All they'd leave us where these whispers in the night

But still my heart is singing

We were right

Christine thought over her actions that night. True afraid but ripping of his mask on stage was cruel. As hard as she tried she could not hate him. She had loved Raoul as a child, but he had been her first love as an adult.

If I never knew you

If I never knew this love

I would have no inkling of

How precious life can be

Erik cleaned up the lair the best he could. He did not glance at his burned scores. His thoughts were on his actions of the night. He nearly killed the boy. He had stopped regretting it hours ago.

There's no moment I regret

Since the moment that we met

If our time has gone too fast

I've lived at last…

I thought our love would be so beautiful

Somehow we'd make the whole world bright

Christine finished getting ready for bed. She lay between the satin sheets her mind still whirling.

I thought our love would be so beautiful

We'd turn the darkness into light

And still my heart is singing

We were right

Erik lay down in the coffin bed, hoping he would go to sleep and not wake up. He was still looking at the portrait of his love.

We were right

And If I never knew you

I'd have lived my whole life through

Christine turned and faced the blank wall.

Empty as the sky

Erik lay he looked at the knife he held in his hand. It slipped easily through his ribs.

Never knowing why

Lost forever

If I never knew you

AN: SO what did you think? This is my first song fic. Yeah know I read over this and felt kinda sad/