All That He Wants

Chapter 2 – Won’t Believe

Author’s Notes – Thanks to everyone who reviewed the last chapter. I appreciate all the kind comments. Jacks back on Earth in the infirmary. Hope you enjoy this chapter and review lots and lots.

She’s all that he wants, she’s all that he needs,

She’s everything he just won’t believe.

Take away his doubt, turn him inside out,

Then she can see what he’s been dying to say.

But things don’t always turn out that way.

Lying in a hospital bed, barely awake and all I can think of is her. I only just made it back alive. I haven’t opened my eyes. I haven’t seen her. I’ve been awake for an hour but I can’t open my eyes. I won’t. Not until I know that the first thing I see when I open them is her. I still can’t see her face. I can’t really hear her voice any more, but I’m not worried. I’m back. I’m home. She’ll be here. Then I can open my eyes and burn her face into my mind forever. Listen to her speak just to hear her voice. That’s why I made it back. That’s why I survived. So I could see her face clearly before I let go. But now I’m back I don’t want to let go. I want to see her forever. I need to see her.

I keep hearing a woman’s voice, but I know it’s not her. I know I recognise the voice but it’s not her so it doesn’t matter. I hear a man’s voice, talking quietly to the woman. But he doesn’t matter either. The woman’s voice gets closer. She says something that doesn’t register immediately. But I hear the last word loudly, clearly.

“Sam.”

The woman sounded excited. She was speaking about her. What did she say? She says it again.

“Get Sam!”

They’re bringing her down to the infirmary. She’s coming down here. I’m gonna see her again! I want desperately to open my eyes. To see her standing there but I can’t take the risk. I can’t risk seeing someone stood there and it not being her. So I wait.

A few moments later I hear footsteps and the woman’s voice calling someone closer to me. She says her name again.

“Sam.”

What did she say?

“He’s conscious, Sam. He’s just being a stubborn son of a bitch and not opening his eyes. Aren’t you Colonel?”

She’s wrong. I’m not being stubborn. Not this time. I’m just waiting for her. I need to know it’s her before I open my eyes. It has to be her. Just her. Then I hear her voice.

“Give us a few minutes Janet.”

She’s been crying. I can hear it immediately. I know it’s her. I didn’t remember her voice, but I know! The other woman speaks and I hear footsteps fading away. There’s silence for a moment, then one word. Just one. Quiet. I almost didn’t hear it. I might even have imagined it, but I know I didn’t.

“Jack.”

I open my eyes. At last. My eyes are out of focus, but I can see her clearly. There are tears running down her cheeks. I want to tell her. I want her to know how I feel. How when Daniel left me it was the thought of her that kept me alive. Kept me going. But I daren’t. I try. She just keeps looking at me. I open my mouth. I try to talk, but the tears I didn’t realise I was crying are stopping me from talking. Choking what I want to say. She gives me a look. Longing? Then she speaks.

“God, sir….I….I….we missed you so much!”

And the moments gone. I guess things don’t always turn out the way we plan.

Author’s Note – Don’t worry. That’s not the end. There are two more verses of the song yet. review if you want more.