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OK heres Chapter 2. I dont have alot of time to ramble and talk and stuff so very quickly my declarations of Love !
Violet loves. ...
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Yeah thats it ! 10 like i wanted ..: checks her math : yeah 10 please excuse this chapter because I can almost promise you that its not greatly edited.. but If I didnt post it tonight. I'd have to do it like next week .
Ok please tell me what you think !
Chapter 1 : Heartfelt Rejection
Raven sat on the end of her desk , glaring at the nearly empty bottle of alcohol that stood only a few feet away on the dark cherry wood table. Her mind was a little fuzzy and her vision was blurred around the edges , but she was well aware of she had just done. Why ? she had done that , was a complete mystery. proping both elbows on the desk ,Raven burried her pale, tear stained face into her hands and asked herself when had it come to this. When exactly had she resorted to this. Raven ? , drunk ? .. no way . Raven was far too sensible to become an alchol dependant while being a savior of thier beloved city .' Drunk ' sounded far to primitive. She liked to refer to the drink, that had almost completely exited her system, as a ' point of view changer ' for example. One minute she was sitting .. and the next she was on the floor.
Sighing into the dark onyx carpet , Raven realised why exactly they called it rock bottom. She didnt physically injure herself, those never hurt her quite as much as the maladies of the heart. Oh yes , now she remembered. The ' Why? ' , was solved and played in her mind clearly as high defenition televsion. She closed her eyes as her body shook. Raven never understood why something purely emotional was causing her chest to heave in pain . Pain so bad she felt her composure completely leave her knew the earthly expression. ' love hurts ' but never was that statement more true than at this very moment. Sure, the alcohol did help with some of the pain , but contrary to the popular beliefe spread by films and the media. Vodka was not an advil for the heart and mind.
How incredibly foolish of her. Raven knew she should have paid careful attention to Wisdom as she and Love went about their battle in nevermore. Although she had not been paying her any attention the emotion with an owl engraved broach , her words were fresh in Raven's mind.
' Just because you can express your emotions now ... It doesnt mean you should .. nor does it mean that you - ' her words were ceased by the soft magenta cloaked emotion , as she pinned the other , giving Raven a toothy grin.
Absurd , she was as silly as the pink emotion that lingered in her mirror. She scolded her self incessantly. She always listened to common sense of the mind. Why ? .. why on earth had she changed her mind and ignored the words of her most trusted emotion and favored the one who had only recently stuck her flag in land that was Raven's mind. Just thinking about Love made her immediately think of him . Although the vodka was doing a good job at drowning out the picture of his face. His words ,... his words however , were as clear as crystal .
Raven took a deep breath.. maybe , just maybe ,he would feel the same . She raked a hand through her hair and exhaled.
" yeah , I meant every word. " She blurtted out , willing the blood not fill her pale cheeks. Raven wanted him to know just how serious she opened her mouth to continue and she saw that face . She could not even see his eyes , but she could see his face change from Jovial . to confused. to worried . in approximately 2 seconds flat.
' Im Glad you told me Rav- " His words became slow and unintelligible as time around her had come to a slow pace. She could still see his mouth moving but the sounds were drowned by the painfully familiar sound of her blood pumping vessel trying once again to escape her chest. featured word. painfully .Her violet eyes that were once fixiated on the boy wonder's mouth were now dazed , the room seemed to fade around her as the image was swirled and the only colors that she could identify were the , red , green, and yellow. that of Robin's costume .
It all had gone as she predicted. nearly verbatim the version she imagined. The heartfelt rejection she expected on recieving. she cursed herself for being so fatuous . so silly .
Unable to take anymore of his ' wholesome appolgy , she calmly. or a calmly as possible , turned on her heel and ventured towards the door. Not before hearing .
' I dont think I can give you what you deserve '
- end Flashback-
The Boy wonder sat alone in the kitchen , reading the newspaper at the breakfast bar ,well , trying to read the newspaper. This is how things usually went nowadays. He would read books. read the newspaper . watch television , anything to drown out the sound of his battling concious' . One side scolding him for being so completely preposterous . and the otherside stubbornly reassuring him that he had done the right thing.
He was going to get up and go to the evidence room and do something productive with his restlessness..until she walked in. He could tell just by looking at her , Raven was not feeling like herself today , although he would be the last person she would ever admitt it to . He watched as she hugged her black sweatshirt around her body as she stood waiting for her kettle to boil. He observed her posture. He often sketched her when she wasnt aware and her pressence till this very day , baffeled him . It was nearly 5 in the morning , on a saturday no less, and she stood just there , her back straight and her legs locked stiff beneath the shield of her long black, night stretch pants.
Her face seemed calm and serene as she poured her chamomile tea into her cup. Raven looked up at him for the first time since she had entered the room and he felt his body immediately tense. She was about to speak and quite a few scenarios raced into his head of what exactly she would say . She had probably come to tell him that this was her last day as a titan or something completely life altering. However to his complete suprise she simply gestured towards her cup. " would you like some ? " He sighed and mentally smacked himself for overeacting and nodded.
" Yeah thanks " he smiled but she only nodded before filling another cup. She was distant again . only this time he could not point fingers at her father. or the curse. or her power. This time , the boy wonder had only himself to blame. They sat silently , some what awkward , but it was nothing he could cease nor change. He looked over to the window and wondered if she wanted him dead just as much as he himself did. In his line of work . keeping things to oneself was sometimes a vital tool . In this case , he wondered if concealing his true feelings from Raven was ' vital ' , part of him screamed that it was important for the sake of the team that he kept the relationship between him and Raven , purely platonic. While another part screamed that none of this fears were worth the pain he was causing himself and Raven by hiding his feelings.
His feelings ? what percisely were his feelings for his shy commerade. He knew whenever they were in the same room he felt his mind spin . Talking to her when she wasnt upset with him was one the things he looked foward to the laugh , rarely heard but when it was. it was his favorite sound. She made him feel different. a very good different. He Knew all the titans had their suspiscions about him , because they were right. somethings didnt really add up about it him. Not once did she ever push him . With the others , he always had to be the concerned , and friendly leader , but with Raven , he could let out his anger. He could vent about things. He could express his darker nature and it was ok .
" Robin , " He snapped out of trance realising he had been staring at her cup the entire time. "- is there something you want to tell me ? " She asked almost hesitantly , her eyes were hopeful and he could tell she was testing him . He could answer yes and confess what he wanted to nearly a month ago and risk endangering the teams strong connection. He could answer No and probably live the rest of his life wondering what wouldve happened had he said yes. But the world would be safe. It would eat him inside out . but the world be safe, and Raven would be safe. Yes, Raven . The only down side of his dark side , was the fact that love wasnt something he was accostumed to. This was his last chance to follow his heart . or his mind . and for someone who was always in control . He didnt have the first idea of how to handle this.
" No , Raven " He felt his chest tremble. " Im fine , but Ive been meaning to ask you the same . " smooth topic change. He could see as her hopeful expression changed to that of a disapointment. A disapointment she was trying hard to hide. He understood. He was doing the right thing for everyone. Raven would move on and be happy and he would keep on protecting those who needed it .
" umm No Im great. thanks for asking though " She answered in an obviously fake tone . He didnt know whether to be worried or insulted , but he couldnt help but feel a little bit of both . He watched as she stood from her stool , picking up her cup before draining it into the sink. She wiped the mess around it while he found the courage to speak.
" No your not . and as your friend I want to help you because I care. " He finally managed , she didnt turn to face him . She just threw out her paper an put the cup away.
" you didnt before . " she answered. Robin hung his head unable to find an answer. She was right . Friends who care . tell the truth , and he betrayed her twice in a single month . He could hear footsteps leaving and before she completely disapeared into the hallway he heard her mumble.
" besides, Im beyond repair.."
