Walk away

Author: Nepeace aka Angelique

Email: Yes, for Season 4 - 4x22 For love or money (ep. #96)

Summary: The holidays are coming and this year it will change everything …

Rating: PG

Words:

Warning: none

AN: I am Dutch and we are currently watching the fourth season. The lyrics are from the song 'Walk away' by Kelly Clarkson.

Walk away

I'm looking for attention

Not another question

Should you stay or should you go

Well if you don't have the answer

Why you're still standing here

Just walk away

Sitting under the tree; the breeze slowly blowing through my hair I sit there and murmur. A cold tear streaks down my face. I got myself in a really crappy situation again; what a surprise! I go from one crappy situation to another. But this time it is different, for the first time in a long time I felt home somewhere. It's not that I can't make it alone; but it was easier when there was no one around who cared about me, no one who counted on me! Now there are people who care for me and who where counting on me and I turned my back on them.

I have no place to go; and all of my belongings fit in the back of a ute. All of my money was in that bag; my future. I have no idea what to do; why did he leave me like that! And take my money with him, he knows how important that money is and what I wanted to do with it. All I wanted was to find a place to live for Rose and me; and if Kane wanted to be part of that he could. I really wanted him to be a part of my future; I really love him. Now he's gone and my future is once again blown to pieces.

Why was I so stupid to leave the money with him; it didn't feel right when I left it with him but I wanted to trust him so badly. I wanted to know if I could trust him; well now I know he treats me just like he treats the people that he steals from. "Dammit Hall, how stupid can you be! You gotta get your act together!" I grumble to myself as I look out over the paddocks that belong to Drovers Run; one of the few places that I actually call home. Tess and I weren't always good friends but we got to know each other and I know that I can count on her. But is that enough to go back to her once again and ask if I can have my job back or should I just move on? Until now I have always taken the easy way out; I leave when a situation gets to hard to deal with. But now that doesn't really feel like an option. So what should I do? Leave this place behind and find some new place to try and build up my life once again or stay?

At that moment I hear a horse approach me from behind; one quick glance over my shoulder tells me that it is Alex. Even though he tried to stop me and told me that Kane was no good he has still been here for me. He's a real mate looking out for me. Is this my sign; does this mean that I should stay?

We talk for a little while before he says goodbye and leaves me alone again. I've made up my mind; I'm going back to the one place that I can call home, Drovers run. Well I could at least stay for the night and leave tomorrow if they want me to leave; but somehow I doubt that 'that' is what they want.