…FOR YOU I WILL…

Chapter 16: Game Over

She finally stopped walking and turned to him, “Can you tell me? Can I know?”

He looked up at her.

She came closer to him and grabbed his hand, “You should not just keep it all to yourself, I am here and I can listen to you.”

Deafening silence.

He let out a deep sigh, “I didn’t plan on doing that, I never wished for that to happen to her.”

“I know Keitaro… I know that you are not that kind of person.”

“I wanted to hurt her emotionally, let her feel pain because I hated her so much. So I said harsh words to her, again, I made her cry again… I hurt her again, and I know that that’s what I wanted in the first place. But never did I wish to hurt her physically; never did I hope to lose her forever. I could never bear that, I don’t wanna lose her, I don’t want her to die like this… all because of me.”

“Keitaro… do you still love her?”

He looked at her, with his eyes full of confusion and pain, but he remained unspoken. “I hate her.”

“Do you still love her?”

“I hate her so much.”

He bowed down and slowly, tears fell down from his eyes.

“Keitaro, you do still love her.” She concluded.

She came closer and hugged him, “I know you never wanted to hurt Narusegawa like that Keitaro, it’s not your fault and it was an accident.”

“It was my fault Mutsumi! That accident wouldn’t have happened if I just, I just listened to her explanation, if I didn’t say harsh words to her, if I didn’t----”

“Keitaro, no, it’s not your fault, don’t say that. No one wished for that accident to happen, it was unexpected so please don’t say that.”

“I don’t wanna lose her Mutsumi; I don’t wanna lose Narusegawa… I wanna see her smile again, I wanna hear her laugh again, I wanna listen to her voice again, I wanna see her angry again, I wanna feel her punches again, I wanna hear her scream at me again, I-I just don’t want her to d-die.”

“Keitaro…”

He continued to let his tears flow. He’s letting out all the emotions he once deprived himself to feel, the emotions he killed a long time ago for all he wanted was to make his revenge. He still loves her, the violent woman he wanted to hate so much. Even though he tried to forget the feelings he felt for her when he was still his old weak self, tried to show every one that he changed and that he no longer feels something for her, he can never deny now that he still cares so much about her. The feelings never vanished; it was just covered by his desire for vengeance. Now, all he’s wishing for is a chance to redo the scene before the accident happened, but reality is reality. And the reality that he is in right now is where Narusegawa is inside the emergency room, struggling between life and death because of his foolishness and there he was, hoping and praying she would be able to survive.

Mutsumi broke the silence and let go of Keitaro, “We should go back now, maybe they’re already looking for us.”

He stood up and uttered, “Thank you Mutsumi.”

Mutsumi smiled, “You don’t need to thank me, I’m always here for you.”

Meanwhile, the other girls are waiting anxiously for the doctor to come out.

“This is Urashima’s fault! That dim-witted guy did something again to Naru, she wouldn’t run and cry for nothing, I will kill that bastard if something happens to Naru!” Motoko exclaimed, anger evident in her voice.

Shinobu looked up and interrupted, “Motoko-chan… what happened was an accident, we shouldn’t blame it all on him.”

“He’s the one at fault! If he didn’t hurt Naru, then Naru wouldn’t have cried and ran away, and she wouldn’t have got struck by a car!”

Shinobu didn’t respond, she just bowed her head and kept quiet.

Kitsune, who’s been quiet for a while, said, “It’s true that Keitaro might have said something that hurt Naru’s feelings that’s why she ran and cried, but we all know that what happened was really an accident, I know Keitaro wouldn’t plan something like this. He may have changed and acted cold towards every one, but I know that deep down inside of him, is the same old Keitaro that would never plan on hurting Narusegawa physically.”

Motoko didn’t react, she just kept quiet and sat down.

“Will Naru live?” Su asked, worry written all over her face.

“She will Su, Naru will never leave us like this, she will live.” Kitsune said, sure of her words.

They heard foot steps coming and those were Keitaro’s and Mutsumi’s. They all kept quiet and glanced at them. Keitaro can’t bear to see their eyes so he looked down and stood still in one corner.

“Did the doctor come out already?” Mutsumi asked.

Kitsune shook hear head, “Not yet.”

Then they heard the door opening, everyone looked at the direction of the door and stood up when they saw the doctor going into their direction, “Are you the patient’s family?” the doctor asked.

Kitsune nodded, “Yes Doctor, we are, how is she doing?”

“She is saved, but we still shouldn’t feel relieved, she suffered serious damages which caused her brain to be affected, right now, the patient… is in comatose. And we are not yet certain, when she will regain consciousness or...”

“Or what? Or what Doctor?! Please answer us!” Motoko screamed, tears fell down from her eyes freely.

“Or if she will ever regain consciousness at all. I’m so sorry, we did everything and that is all we could do, let us just hope and pray that she will recover. You can now see her, she will be transferred to a private room.” The doctor said and then he slowly walked away.

There are only three words that can be used to somehow describe the situation at that very moment, and those words are:

Tears.

Shock.

Pain.

Stabbed by a knife, by a sharp knife directly into his heart, that’s how Keitaro felt when he heard what the doctor had said. It was like he just got stabbed by knife, he felt all kinds of pain, anguish and hatred and yet this time, it wasn’t hatred for another person, it was nothing but hatred for his own self.

FLASHBACKS!

“I hate you Keitaro you damn pervert!” Narusegawa shouted as she let out another one of her infamous ‘Naru punch’.

“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!” Keitaro shouted as he flew towards the clear blue sky.

******

“Damn you Keitaro, what do you think you’re doing you pervert! Get off of Shinobu!”

“No Naru, it wasn’t like tha------ !”

******

“What the, you perverted bastard! What are you doing here?! You!”

“Naru, I’m sor---- !”

******

“! What the hell are you trying to pull you pervert!”

“! Noooooooooooo!”

END OF FLASHBACKS.

KEITARO (POV)

Subconscious’ POV

Those kinds of situation were every day occurrences, if any of those didn’t happen, then surely something was wrong with that day, abnormal day, let’s put it that way. Keitaro getting into an ‘accident’, Naru punching Keitaro, Keitaro flying towards the sky---- NORMAL SCENARIO.

He was used to it, yes, it was like the spice of their relationship. He learned to love her because of that, he fell for the violent and sadistic Naru Narusegawa.

Unfortunately, he, being the punching bag and she, the boxer, weren’t meant to be together. The day the punching bag feared of, came, the boxer no longer wanted to be with the punching bag. She was finally through playing with it so she wanted to throw it away, just like an old overused toy, she threw away the overused punching bag.

That’s what he thought.

So he got angry, he turned into a vengeful monster without him being fully aware of it. He woke up one day and all he wanted was just to hurt her, the one who threw him away after getting tired of playing with him, he wanted her to suffer and be sorry for ever playing with him.

He planned his revenge, he went away and changed his old loser self, he changed his ways, he changed everything about the old Keitaro. He became the new and improved Urashima Keitaro—confident, powerful, strong and REVENGEFUL.

After a few years of being missing, he called his Aunt Haruka and told her he wanted to live in the inn and manage it again.

“Are you sure about that Keitaro?”

“Yes, I am, why, am I not wanted there anymore?” He let out a laugh, a sarcastic one, “Oh, sorry, they never wanted me in the first place, but, I guess they can’t do anything, it’s my Granny’s inn, they can’t do anything about that, right, Aunt Haruka?”

“Okay Keitaro, if that’s what you want. Sure.”

“Thank you, I’ll call you when I arrive.”

He felt happy, for every thing that he planned, fell exactly into place. He can finally come back and show them what he’s got, show them how Keitaro Urashima takes his revenge, especially on the girl he loved and hated the most, his brutal ex-girlfriend, Naru Narusegawa.

You may think it’s childish to take revenge just because your past love dumped you unexpectedly, but no, it wasn’t that simple for Keitaro. Narusegawa didn’t just break his heart, she broke him, his entire self. After their break-up, Keitaro felt like a sore loser, he felt like every one in the inn made fun of him, used him like a toy that can entertain them by hurting him not only physically, but also verbally, just like a punching bag indeed. No one in the inn respected him, except maybe for Shinobu who always takes his side and of course, his Aunt Haruka, there were only two of them. Su, she always made fun of him and used him as an instrument for her weird inventions; Motoko, always looking at him as a pervert and running after him with a sword when he only made a little mistake; Kitsune, used him whenever she needed money and whenever she’s drunk; and lastly, Narusegawa, who treated him like he’s some kind of an object to be thrown all the way up whenever he gets into petty accidents that lead to him appearing like a pervert, never showed him any love even when they were actually boyfriend and girlfriend and dumped him when she was done.

So he came back, with the plan of hurting all the people who stepped on his personality like it was some kind of a ragged doormat. Revenge, it has been a permanent word in his own vocabulary, it even became his favorite word in the dictionary, and he used it, every time he can. Hurting all the people who made him feel like a loser, he became happy, well, his egoistic self became happy, so happy that he didn’t realize that even the only girl who’s been good to him hated him, Shinobu, who always took his side before, turned her back on him because she thought that he was not the same old Keitaro.

But who wouldn’t hate him? Even me, the subconscious mind of Keitaro, hated the person he showed everyone he was, he was egoistic, full of angst and completely different from the old him. The loser yet unselfish, thoughtful and nice Keitaro was gone, the egoistic Keitaro killed the loser Keitaro. However, even the powerful has weaknesses, the only weakness of the egoistic Keitaro is no other than his old loser self, and though he tried to kill him and throw him away so many times, the loser still lives inside of him, surviving and still striving very hard to win, and in the end, he did.

The loser Keitaro won over the egoistic one, finally declaring that it’s already GAME OVER.

Why did the loser win? Simply because of one plain reason: Naru Narusegawa.

The egoistic one never planned on hurting Naru physically but then again, ACCIDENTS DO HAPPEN EVEN WHEN YOU NEVER EXPECT IT TO, THEY JUST HAPPEN because fate has its own ways, you know. Fate plays a lot on people in different situations, and it chose to play with Keitaro. Everything happened too fast---- Amusement park, horror house, Ferris wheel ride, only the two of them being left in one Ferris wheel, Naru asking for forgiveness, Keitaro not accepting and saying he will hate her forever, Naru crying and running, fast car approaching, Naru being hit, hospital, emergency room and lastly Naru being in a comatose state without any assurance of ever regaining consciousness again. Revenge game done, but the ending wasn’t part of the game plan. He wasn’t that impious, he still has a weak heart, a heart that still beats for Narusegawa. Now, what would he do? There was nothing he could do, this isn’t some kind of a movie shooting where you can retake a scene and redo it until the director thinks you’ve done well and finally says ‘cut’ and everyone can go home and prepare for another shoot the next day. No, this is the real life and we are living in a real world. And the reality is: Naru is in a comatose state all because of the self-centered Keitaro.

Now...

What will happen next?

What do you think should happen next?

Do you think he should be run over by a car too?

Do you think he should be in a comatose too?

End of Subconscious’ POV

A/N: I'm really very sorry for the super late update, summer ended, and I got too busy. I had to work for our yearbook because I am part of the staff, so my summer was all about that. But here, I have my chapter 16. Hope my readers, will like it, I appreciate all the hits and the reviews. Thank you~