This is really depressing.

Oh, Shishou,

This is really beginning to scare me. My cheek keeps bleeding, every night, whenever I've been on assignment. I've actually gotten used to sleeping against the wall because of it.

It doesn't matter that it's never getting hit or torn open, it starts bleeding without fail. I try not to talk too much, but it isn't healing, and I don't know what to do to make it stop.

Iizuka keeps mentioning a superstition - it's silly of me to listen, I know, but I do anyway - he says that a wound made by someone with a strong hatred, won't heal until revenge has been exacted.

He also says it may never go away, and that I'm beginning to believe.

I try to wash my hands, but it never works, my cheek bleeds and drips into the water and I can't ever get my hands clean.

I have to carry a cloth for when it starts bleeding, so I don't stain all my clothes.

I don't know what to do to make it stop.

Kenshin