I do not own GetBackers or its characters. And I am sorry if this is confusing, because I have trouble writing things in an understandable way...

All the he in this refers to Kazuki, just so you know... and thread spool also refers to Kazuki.
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It was raining heavily all day, ever since he woke up.
It was also raining inside his heart. All the time, for as long as he could remember.

How absurd was it that he didn't even understand what was going on inside himself?
But eventually, all the emotions disappear.

He was standing in the rain, just to make sure he remembered what cold felt like.

"Thread spool!"
A familiar voice called to him from the Subaru 369 that was passing by. Ban. Ginji didn't seem to be with him.
"What the hell are you doing?"
"…As you can see, standing in the rain."
He added in his mind, to remember my senses.
"You…you're gonna get sick, you idiot!"
"Maybe."
"Maybe? If you know it, why the hell are you still standing out here?"
Ban said angrily.
"Get on. I'll send you…"
"No, thank you."
Ban opened his eyes wide in surprise.

"I don't want cheap sympathy."
"Cheap sympathy?"
"I don't care whatever happens to me."

"Is my life worth anything at all?"

That was something that had been in his mind for quite a time.
His house and mother disappeared into flames, and he escaped to the Infinite Castle taking Sakura and Jubei with him.
Dragging Toshiki into this mess, and flattering the Thunder Emperor…
Using so much things as stepping stones, and trampling many lives.

But, how much was his life worth anyway? What significance did it have?

"It's worth nothing."
Ban said, as if he was frustrated by Kazuki's thoughts.
"Your life, or my life."
"It's worth nothing, and it means nothing."

Yes.
Cold
Those eyes, that voice. Everything.
Painful
That piercing gaze.

Look, remembered two.

There was a sound of the car door opening and closing. He looked up, and saw Ban get off his car.
"What's up with you today?"
"Like you understand any…"
"No I don't."
"…"

"I don't know anything about you, and I don't plan to know."
Cold, painful. Tormenting.
Don't look at me like that…

"Stop looking so pathetic."
Ban held his chin and made him look up.
"Don't cry."
He looked up in surprise. So he was crying…

Suddenly, something was pressed to his lips. When he looked up, he saw Ban's face right in front of him.
"Mido-kun?"
"Stop acting so weird."

"Kazuki."
He opened his eyes wide. It was the first time Ban ever called him by his name.

Another piece fit in his heart.
The emotion that burns your heart, and tears your soul.

Ban pushed him to the wall.
Tempting
Freezing
Burning
Distressing
Rapturous
Look, four more.

A blank, white puzzle that lacks only a few more pieces.

Who will be the one to color it?