Love and despise (RoyXEd)

Well, this is my first Shounen Ai story so don’t complain!

After Ed gets rid of his sickness he starts to look for the Philosopher’s Stone again. While Ed’s away Roy starts to get strange feelings about Ed. Feelings he never had before. The same goes for Ed when he’s away from Central. Ed’s life later turns upside down when… Well, that’s up to you to find out now! ; D

Information:

1. This is a Shounen Ai(Yaoi) story, it means that it contents love between boys. (This case Royand Ed... Wont happen directly.) If ya don’t like, don't read!

2. It may look like Ed x Al in some places but it’s just brotherly love. I don’t write Elricest.

3. I don’t own any of the characters or the story Fullmetal Alchemist, Hiromu Arakawa owns them. (The only thing I own is plot in this story.)

4. I’m from Sweden so excuse me if I don’t spell right or writes the grammar right --

5. Rated for Ed’s (and some others…) mouth and some kissing ; )

6. Er… If you wonder something else mail me at fullmetal.

Edward Elric was walking through the Central HQ with hanging head, bags under his eyes and his feet dragging after him. He had been so for a couple of days and Al was worrying about him.

“Nii-san, maybe you should ask the Colonel about a short vacation…” Al carefully said.

“I’ve already told you, I’m fine, I don’t need a vacation.” Ed said and sighed, “You need to stop worrying about me, Al.”

Ed knocked on the Roy Mustang’s office and waited.

“Come in.” Roy said and looked up from his papers, “Ah, Fullmetal. I’ve a new mission for you.” He said and picked up some papers from a drawer.

Al looked at Ed and sighed, the Colonel noticed this and looked at Ed to, he looked worn out.

“Fullmetal… Have you thought about getting a vacation?” Roy asked.

“Don’t you start to Colonel!” Ed said, “Just give me the damn mission.”

Roy gave him the papers and threw a look at Alphonse like he was trying to say ‘I tried.’ Ed muttered thanks and left with Al.

“Bye, Colonel.” Al said before he closed the door.

“Alphonse, could you make it yourself for awhile, I must do a thing.” Ed said and looked at his armor brother.

“Sure, Nii-san.” Al said, “I’ll be in our room.”

Ed nodded and parted from Alphonse. When he had got away from Al and didn’t see anyone he dropped the papers about his mission and started cough violently, he had been dragging with this for a while now, not letting anyone see him in his current state but it was getting harder to hide. He clung to the wall with his right arm as he covered his mouth with his left, when he took away his hand from his mouth he noticed blood.

“It can’t be…” He said to himself and locked away the tears that wanted to come out.

Once again he started to cough and he started to see black spots in front of his eyes, slowly his breath was taken away and everything got black.

“Yeah, I heard about that.” Maria Ross answered Bloch as they took their daily walk through HQ.

They walked in silence when Maria saw something in the end of the corridor.

“Oh God… Edward!” She yelled and ran up to him with Bloch behind.

He was pale and she felt on his forehead, he was burning. Not only that he had a fever, his breathing sounded ragged and weak.

“Bloch, help me carry him to the hospital wing!” Ross said and Bloch immediately did as she said. Fast they lifted Ed up and carried him to the hospital wing.

“Doctor… How’s his condition?” Ross asked, she had sent away Bloch to report about Ed to everybody at the office department.

“Well… I can’t say this is some sickness he contracted yesterday.” The doctor said and sighed, “I think he has been dealing for this in weeks… Or months. I can’t tell what it is but we’ll try everything to get the young man better.” He explained but a look in his eyes made Ross get a feeling that Ed was serious ill.

“Thanks.” She said and entered the room where Ed was in.

He had hard time breathing, she could hear that, and the fever made him mumble in his sleep.

“I’m sorry… Mother… Al, sorry…” He mumbled.

Not many minutes later there was a knock on the door and in came Hughes and Alphonse, Bloch escorted them.

“Nii-san!” Al said and ran in, “What’s the matter with him?” He asked Ross.

“I don’t know, and neither does the doctors. All he said was that this isn’t a sickness he contracted yesterday, he has probably been hiding it for weeks or months.” She said with a sad look on his face.

“But… They have a cure, right?” Hughes asked.

“They can’t say what it’s.” Ross answered.

“I know what it is…” A weak voice was heard from Ed, his eyes were half opened.

“Nii-san!” Al said.

“What is it Ed?” Hughes asked.

“It can only be it… Right?” Ed mumbled.

“What!” Al almost shouted.

“I mean… What could it else be? It was just like this back then…” Ed said weakly and started to cough up blood again. When he stopped coughing he took deep ragged breaths.

“Why didn’t you tell me you felt sick!” Al asked.

Ed smiled weakly.

“I didn’t wanna’ worry you…” He whispered and then his eyes closed.

“Nii-san…” Al said and hopelessly looked at Ed who seemed to fight for his life.

“Alphonse, do you know what he was talking about?” Ross asked.

“No… I didn’t get anything out of it.” He said.

Then the doctor entered.

“Excuse me but I don’t think it’s the right time to visit now.” He said, “We’re going to run some tests.”

The little group walked out from the room with lowered heads.

The next day Roy Mustang had heard about what had happened to Ed and he was soon up in the hospital wing to check him up, he hadn’t gotten much better from the day before.

“Fullmetal… I heard you know why you’re sick.” Roy said to Ed, he was sitting on a chair beside Ed’s bed.

“Promise to not tell this to Alphonse…” Ed mumbled.

“What?” Roy asked.

“I think I’m dying, Mustang.” He whispered.

Roy starred at him in shook.

“This is exactly… How my mother died…” He mumbled and his eyes got filled with tears, he was trying to hold them back but he broke down in tears.

“I don’t want Al to see me like this…” He said between sobs and whimpers, “And I don’t wanna die.”

Roy was still looking at Ed in shook, he had never even imagined the strong, short-tempered Fullmetal Alchemist, Edward Elric break down like this, then he let his instincts take over.

“It’s okay… Hush…” Roy said who had embraced Ed in a hug.

Ed didn’t protest, he just cried on the Colonel’s uniform until he was empty and he started to cough a bit. He was still snivelling and shaking but slowly he began to fall asleep, Roy put Ed’s head back on the pillow and covered him with the blanket. He sighed as he stood up and left the room.

Back down at the office Roy met Hawkeye.

“Colonel, what have you done?” She asked and pointed at Roy’s chest, there was a big wet spot.

“Oh… It was a little accident in the bathroom.” The Colonel said.

He could only guess that Edward didn’t want everybody to know about his mental break down.

‘Can he really be dying?’ The Colonel thought.

“How was Edo?” Havoc asked.

“Sleeping.” Roy simply answered.

At the same time in the hospital wing Ed opened his eyes.

“I must get up…” He mumbled, “I don’t have the time…”

Edward slipped of the bed and slowly got dressed. When he opened the door to get out the doctor stopped him in the doorway.

“Mr Elric you’re not supposed to be out of your bed in days!” He said trying to push Ed inside again.

“I’m sorry but I have no time.” Ed mumbled and used the little strength he had to push him aside and after that he walked out of the building with only one thing in his mind: Getting Al’s body back before it was to late.

When he had made it to the gates of HQ he was forced to take a pause since his lungs couldn’t handle so much pressure.

Roy Mustang sat in his office and threw a look out of his window. His eyes immediately caught something red in sight and it didn’t take long time for him to notice that the red spot actually was Ed.

”Damn you Edward.” He said and rushed up from his chair, “What if he gets worse now!” He said to himself and rushed out from his office.

“Is something wrong Roy?” Hughes asked when he saw Roy’s concerned expression.

“Fullmetal is outside doing I don’t know what.” Roy said without stopping his movements.

“What? Oh man… I’ll come with you.” Hughes said and was fast up on his feet following Roy.

When they were outside Roy saw a little pool of blood in front of the gate.

“Damn that stubborn kid.” Roy said, “Hughes let’s split up, I’ll go to the right, you take the left.”

Hughes saluted and walked to the left as Roy walked to the right only one thought in his head: To find Ed before it was to late. At the same time Ed had reached a lake, he stopped moving and looked out over the lake with an empty expression.

“Al used to go to the river when he was upset…” He whispered to himself and smiled, “He still does…”

Ed smiled weakly as he saw an old memory flash by.

Flash Back

“Edward, do you where Alphonse are hiding? I’ve looked everywhere.” A beautiful woman known as Trisha Elric asked her older son. “I don’t care where he is.” A seven-year-old Edward said grumpily. “Did you fight again?” She asked and sighed, “What happened?” “Nothing.” Ed said and turned his head away. Trisha sighed. “I guess we only can wait for him.” She said, looking a bit worried. Ed felt a sting of guilt when he saw his mother’s expression as she walked into the house to look one more time. He sighed and started walk against the river, as he had guessed Alphonse was sitting there with a sad expression on his face. “Al…” Ed said from behind, Alphonse turned around ready to argue again but Ed just turned around. “Let’s go, mother is worried.” He said and Alphonse looked at him with a confused look but ran after him, looking happy again, Ed couldn’t keep himself from smiling when he saw his brother.

End of Flash Back

Ed sat down for a while at the lake thinking about old days. In many memories he saw Alphonse about 8 years old with that bright smile that could make anyone smile with him.

“I want to see that smile again…” Ed mumbled with a weak voice, “Before…”

Then he started coughing again. He stood up grabbing a tree to keep his balance as he took deep ragged breaths.

“Focus Ed… Focus…” He told himself and started walk away so straight he could but he didn’t really succeed in that since his head started playing him tricks.

His sight became blurry and he was forced to sit down on the street and close his eyes. It wasn’t until he opened his eyes he saw a bright light coming closer very fast...

End of chapter 1!

Well, I guess I’ll update soon, I’ve written a lot more!

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