Absence of Color, Absence of You

I will never forget.

There are things my memory won’t hold in, but you aren’t one of those things.

Because…I loved you. And I still do.

I don’t even know if you can hear me…but I must try…

Our wedding day…do you remember it as well as I do? So many smiling faces and joyful cheers…No wonder people call it the happiest day of your life. It was most definitely mine. The way you grinned and took my hand…Heaven never seemed closer.

The way you held me at night, and whispered softly in my ear chased all my nightmares away. It was as though all the shadows simply disappeared when we were together.

You were both my shield and my sword.

The days that followed were pure bliss. There was no darkness in our hearts, just love and happiness. You seemed to know exactly what I was thinking all the time, and never thought twice about telling me how much you loved me. All I could do was return the favor.

Every time the sun rose, we’d sit together and look at all the beautiful shades and colors that were painted in the clouds. The same thing happened when the sun decided to set. No artist in the entire world would find the color used to describe our feelings towards one another.

It was all so perfect…

But there is no such thing as perfection…is there?

That realization hit me as painfully as that arrow that struck your heart.

Suddenly, everything changes.

There are no smiles or cheers today. There is only tears and a miserable silence. Happiness has drowned in the sorrowful grief that has spread like a disease. Heaven has closed its gates to me. I pray with all I’ve got that the same hasn’t happened to you.

The nights are now so lonely… There is no voice to comfort me, and the nightmares never stop. It seems the shadows intend to swallow me up, lost forever in the darkness. For there is no shield or sword in my bed any longer. They both have shattered, and been put to rest in their coffin of a case.

The days are bleak, with nothing to look forward to. I feel like my heart has disappeared, along with all my emotions and feelings. There is no one to read my thoughts, or to remind me how they love me with all of their being. There is no one for me to remind either…

The sun seems lost to me. Dawn and Sunset…they mean nothing. The colors have faded. First to grey, now to nothing. There is no color in my life anymore.

Black…the absence of color…

It is all I see now.

But on some nights…some rare nights…I might catch a glimpse of a rainbow somewhere in the distance. Perhaps if I keep moving toward it…I might see you again. If only once more…

Please hear me when I say this…

Rasler…My Rasler…

I love you.

This is my first FF12 ficcie, and the sixth one in the FF12 section :) I seen the opening already, and felt so sad for Ashe when Rasler died…I decided I had to make a One-shot out of it. I’m gonna make some more too, since I love this game XD Anyways, please leave a comment or two. Thank you.