Shit and fuck were both perfectly apt words to use to describe the scene currently in front of Sara. To see Grissom reduced to tears made her own eyes slightly wet. Sara knew Grissom well enough to know that the last thing he would want would be for someone to wander in the break room and see him crying.

Grissom was holding onto her hand like it was his lifeline between life and death. Keeping this in mind Sara was careful not to lose that contact and slowly encouraged Grissom to stand up. Still holding his hand they slowly walked down the hall to his office together.

Sara wouldn’t like to admit it but she was paranoid. Paranoid that Ecklie would take this opportunity to walk into the lab and bust them for their relationship. Trying to explain why she was holding her supervisor’s hand might not be the easiest thing in the world to do.

They reached Grissom office and Sara locked the door. As was customary in Grissom’s office the blinds were pulled and the only light was coming from a lone desk lamp. Emotional situations were never Sara’s strong point so she held Grissom while the silent sobs racked his body. As the tears streamed down his face, wetting his beard, Sara continued to hold Grissom it was her silent way of acknowledging that she would always be here for him.

When Grissom appeared to be out of tears and the sobs stopped Sara raised her head from his chest to look him in the eyes. His eyes glistened with tears but he seemed more functional than he was mere minutes before. Grissom broke the embrace that moments before was the only thing keeping him sane and walked over the chair behind the desk.

Not knowing whether to follow or stay where she was Sara stood awkwardly in the middle of Grissom office. Fortunately Grissom motioned for Sara to join him and she wasn’t standing alone for long. Sara sat down on Grissom lap and curled up, resting her head on his chest. It felt wrong for Sara to be in this position, it was almost as if he was the one comforting her, not the other way around as it should be.

“Grissom,” she began but she didn’t get to finish her sentence.

“Let me apologize Sara for my,” he paused as if considering his next words carefully. Not finding his last sentence satisfactory he began again. “Sara I want to apologize for my emotional outburst earlier. It was inappropriate and you should have to cover for your supervisor like that.”

“It’s not the first time.” Sara regretted the words as soon as she had said them.

“I deserved that for my choice of words,” was all Grissom said.

“You shouldn’t have to apologize for something like that Grissom. You cried, it’s as simple as that. You acted human, we all do it. Not even you are above all emotion.” Sara hated that Grissom felt the need to apologize and explain all his actions to her. She loved him and he should know that that was enough. She had seen many things from Grissom and to see him reduced to tears for no apparent reason just reinforced that love. She only now had to explain it to Grissom. Grissom may have been many things but he was still a man and men didn’t like to be caught crying by their girlfriends.

“I do. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. That scene before was completely out of line. I shouldn’t have cried like that, we caught the guy, I should have been happy. We all worked hard on that case and we got the result we wanted in the end. I won’t admit that I didn’t get personally involved in the case and no matter how hard I try I wanted to get justice.”

“Grissom I know that there is still so much that I have to learn about you. I think that what I saw today was one of those things. I’ve never pretended to understand some of the things that you and when you do shed some light on them I hope that it’s not in your office.” She paused to shift her weight in his lap and drape her arm more comfortably around his arm. “If you want to explain something to me let’s go home and have breakfast then we can talk.”

Grissom put on his bravest face. He had come close to telling Sara some of his darkest secrets but she had fortunately saved him from that embarrassment. “Sounds like a plan. I’ll meet you outside the lab in 10 minutes.”

Sara squeezed his hand reassuringly and slowly walked out of Grissom office. Embarrassment was still a possibility.