I'm back with an one-shot! This is really angsty! Please review when you are done.

Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans...

Why haven’t I told her? Why haven’t I told her until it was too late?

I remember the first time I saw her. I knew that she would like me, that we would be good friends. What I thought was not true.

How I miss the days when we do things together, when we’re doing missions. Maybe that was just the time when we bonded. I still think about the days when she was happy, when her eyes would shine and her face brightened up. Of course, it wasn’t about me. It was about Red X.

But that’s exactly the problem! Him! Yes, him, Red X, the reason why I haven’t told her how I really felt, the reason why I didn’t dare return the affection she gave me and the reason why I am feeling so miserable, so alone and so…lost.

Why haven’t I told her? Why didn’t I return her affection anyways? Because I was afraid that she might not accept it, that she might reject me. And I couldn’t think of any other reason aside from him why she wouldn’t accept the fact that… I’m in love with her. I don’t mean love as in the sibling way. I mean love when… You feel different. Despite the fact that we’re step-siblings. I mean, we’re not connected in bloodline, so what’s wrong with that?

I knew it. I knew that being in love is the most painful feeling of all because you don’t know if she feels the same way. I just should have told her before she was gone. Gone forever.

Flashback

The five started crossing the busy road. The rest of the team were way ahead of Starfire who was thinking. Just as she was crossing the road, a big truck was in her path.

“Starfire! Run!” Robin shouted.

Starfire looked around her. When she saw the truck, it was too late. It hit her.

“Starfire!”

End of Flashback

I am sitting in the fields right now, thinking how dumb I am, how I hated myself. I was too dumb, too. I should have done more than warned her. I should have just pushed her out of the way and let myself die instead. I mean, if she was the one who died, my life would be meaningless. In fact, right this moment, it had no meaning anymore.

Flashback

“Starfire, I want to tell you something.” Robin told her.

“What is it?” Starfire asked in a weak tone.

“I---” He can’t say it. What if she won’t accept? What if she doesn’t believe? What if-

TOOOOT………

Robin looked at the life-something (The thingy where it’s zig-zaggy when the person’s still alive and a straight line when the person’s dead?). It was a straight line.

He looked at Starfire in disbelief. She was gone… tears started to roll down Robin's cheeks. She’s gone forever… “Starfire… don’t leave me… don’t do this to me…”

End of Flashback

I am dumb, right? I was too certain that I would be able to tell her someday. I was too certain that she could make it, that she will know that not only Red X cares for her that way. Now it’s too late, too late.

Now the rain starts to fall.

The pain of realization is terrible. Only that when she was gone had I realized that I should have treasured her.

I am sitting in a field under the pouring rain, still thinking what would have happened if I told her I how loved her everyday. Then maybe things would have been different.

Some tears slides down my face, but I don’t care. I don’t care anymore.

But I have to understand…

I have to believe…

That she was gone…

Forever…

That's it! I know sad. Please review! At least 10 reviews!