|If You're Gone
Author: The Lady Arianrod PM
This is my FIRST FIC on this site, a Taiora romance. It is about how Tai and Sora really end up. Uses the song If You're Gone by Matchbox 20. Please R&R.Rated: Fiction K - English - Romance - Taichi Y./Tai K. & Sora T. - Words: 2,444 - Reviews: 14 - Published: 06-04-01 - Status: Complete - id: 306125
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Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Song lyrics belong to Matchbox
20, and they are in
Enjoy the story! It is my first one, and it should become obvious that one of my favorite couples of all time is Taiora. Yes, even though the days when Taiora ruled the romance section are over, I haven't lost hope. I wouldn't say that Sorato won, rather, it provided the strong fans with a way to hope for the future of Taiora, whether it is a part of the TV show or not. Plus, it makes a great story topic--- Tai's sadness at the loss of his true love!
So... Here is my first fic... I hope you like it....
Tai walked down the street in Odaiba he always took, to the park. The muddy snow on the sides of the street were characteristic of that season, winter, in Tokyo, Japan. The fifteen-year-old, brown-haired boy thought to himself carefully as he walked, reflecting on his life so far.
"I hope Sora is at the concert," was the first thing that crossed his mind. "We've known each other for so long, I've just grown accustomed to seeing her everyday, but I don't take her for granted. She's the greatest thing to ever happen to me. If only I could tell her how I feel..." he said out loud this time.
"Tai, if you really love her, then why not say something ? Ask her to the concert or something," a voice suddenly said. It was Agumon, who had been walking with Tai this whole time.
"Whoa, sorry, Agumon. I didn't see you there this whole time. I've just been really worried lately about what Sora thinks of me. I mean, she and I are best friends, but I feel this bond with her... Like I need to protect her and love her, and be loved by her in return," Tai stated to the small orange Digimon.
"Ya see, Tai? You just told all that stuff to me, so why not say it to Sora? You never know what she'll say, and sometimes the saddest thing in life is loving someone with all of your heart but never having the courage to tell them. Go for it, buddy. She might turn you down as a boyfriend but she'll always think of you as her best friend," Agumon said reassuringly.
Tai grinned a little. "Thanks, old pal. You really know when to cheer me up," he said, as he bent down to tousle Agumon's fur. The Digimon smiled at him, then pointed ahead. Down the road a little, next to the building which housed the concert hall, was Sora and Biyomon.
Sora was holding a neatly wrapped gift, and silently chatting with Biyomon. "I hope Matt likes these cookies, Bi," she was saying. When Tai walked up she straightened up, then looked at the gift and Tai again, hiding the present under her arm.
"Hey, Sora," Tai said casually. Agumon stood next to him, watching the entire scene. Sora responded with a quick, "Hey, Tai." Tai looked at the ground, nervously. This was his big moment... "Sora, are you going to the concert with anyone? Not like it matters to me or anything," was what he managed to blurt out.
Sora waited for a minute to respond with some of the most shocking words she'd ever say to Tai, ones which would ruin his very existence... "Actually, I was going to wait after the concert to see if Matt was available." She blushed a little, not knowing how Tai would respond. Her friend of twelve years placed a hand on her shoulder, looking straight into her scarlet eyes. His chocolate eyes met hers, and they stayed there for a second.
I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
"Oh. Matt, huh?" he said calmly. Sora was surprised at this answer. "You're not mad?" she asked Tai, somewhat relieved and somewhat saddened. "No. Now go in there and have fun. Say hi to Matt for me," he said, wishing the love of his life their final farewell. Sora walked towards the door, and Agumon called after her,"Hey! Don't we get some cookies too?" Sora smiled and looked at the two, more importantly Tai, the man she had grown to tolerate, like, befriend, and even love over the years. "Sure. I'll make a special batch... Just for you." With that, she walked into the concert hall.
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak- But I think you're wrong
Tai, realizing that Sora's heart belonged to someone else, said to her, or rather the wind,"Thanks. I'll be waiting." Agumon commented,"Wow, Tai. You've really grown up." "Sure, Agumon, but inside I really didn't want to let her go. Did I really grow up simply by giving in to her and Matt? Wouldn't that go against the crest of Courage?" Tai mused out loud.
"No, Tai! By letting Sora go, you proved that you are mature enough to let her love someone else if she does. And by understanding that she loves Matt, you prove that you truly care about her being happy! How can that be uncourageous?"Agumon shouted back at his best friend. The dinosaur was doing all he could to keep Tai from going down the destructive path of self-hate and worthless feelings from a rejection.
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed- I can't be sure
"Agumon, Sora has left my life. From the second she left my side and began to hang out with Matt, our love and even friendship began to deteriorate, all due to him. What once was my greatest treasure in life is now being polished next to Matt's many other trophies..." Tai continued, hands in pockets, looking at the ground as he trudged along. He felt lost, alone.
I think you're so mean- I think we should try
I think I could need- This in my life
I think I'm just scared- I think too much
I know this is wrong, its a problem I'm dealing
Tai frowned to himself. Suddenly an idea dawned on him. He had to talk to Sora, to set a few things straight and to tell her his true feelings, even though they probably had no effect now. He picked up the telephone and dialed the number which had brought him so much joy to dial as a child.
When the phone was picked up on the other line, Tai said calmly,"Sora, we need to talk. I know that today I said I wasn't mad about you hanging around Matt, but I lied. The only reason I'm telling you this is because I want to be honest with my closest friend in the world, and I care about you." There was a pause.
If you're gone, Maybe its time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home
Cus there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
"Sora, I know we never dated, but I... have these feelings towards you I can't describe. We've always been so open, so carefree, so close. But now, we have become distanced. I know that even we, as best friends, need time away from each other, but you seem to have turned away from me completely. I know that it has something to do with Matt. Sora, please don't forget me so easily. I know that everything you see reminds you of the childhood adventures we'd have together, or the times when we'd sit and try to count the stars. I never won that contest, but that is not the important part. The most important thing to me right now is losing you, Sora, the greatest treasure I have..." Tai said breathlessly.
I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need- more than you mind
ON the other line, Sora was speechless. Tai had just poured out his heart to her, and now she had nothing to say! "Uh... listen, Tai," she began, "I'm sorry if we haven't been together for some while now. I value our friendship more than anything in the world, but I think we'd uhhh... be better off.. if we dated other people." she said, now on the verge of tears. Why was saying good-bye to him so hard? Because she loved him beyond the realms of friendship? Definitely.
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling
If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
"Sora, we need to talk about... well, our entire lives. I- I need to make a confession. I was jealous when I saw you going into Matt's concert and making a big deal about those cookies. I had known this feeling ever since I was five years old, when we first met. From that moment on, I've loved you with all of my heart, Sora Takenouchi. The way you live life, look at everyone full of love, and just act simply amazes me. I know that you may not feel the same way, and we may have to go our separate ways, but I'll always wait for you. Please think about what I've said, not as my girlfriend, but simply as my best friend," he stated, looking unsure about what she would say.
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you