Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been
Would you have been a little angel or an angel of sin?

Would you have been an angel like your mom Lily always doing your homework or an angel of sin playing pranks like me?

Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys
or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes?

Your Mom was a beautiful Tom-boy that hung out with me and my other friends Sirius, Remus, and Peter. I was the tough boy with brown eyes that was always picking fights with anyone who was in Slytherin. Would you have been like us?

I paid for the murder before they had determined the sex
choosing our life over your life meant your death

Lily was to embarrassed and ashamed to tell her parents that she was pregnant, so she asked me for the 300 galleons it cost for an abortion. We had both agreed that it was much better this way. We could live life like normal 17 year-olds, and then go on to have the career's we’ve both always wanted.

And you never got a chance to even open your eyes
sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you fought for your life?

Do you want to know what hurts the most? I was your father and I was supposed to protect you! Instead I killed you before you even opened your eyes!

Would you have been a little genius, in love with math?
Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad?
Would you have been a little rapper like your poppa the piper?

What would your personality have been like?

Would you have made me quit smoking by finding one of my lighters?

Not a lot of people know this but I’m a heavy smoker. Everyone around me has tried to quite. Your Mother, my parents, my teachers, my friends all tried and failed. Would you have been the one who finally got me to stop?

I wonder about your skin tone and shape of your nose
and the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow

Would your skin have been tan like mine or fair like your mother’s? Would your nose have been small and cute or as big Snivellus’s? Would you have been a fast talker like your Uncle Sirius or a slow talker like your Uncle Peter?

I think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, I love you whoever you would have been

I think about you all the time and that is why I’m writing to you. By now you would be 5 years old! So Happy Birthday, I love you whoever you would have been.

Happy Birthday
What I thought was a dream
make a wish
was as real as it seemed

Happy Birthday

What I thought was a dream
make a wish
was as real as it seemed

I made a mistake

I got a million excuses, as to why you died
and other people got their own reasons for homicide

I feel that I’m not any better than those Death Eaters who go out are and kill innocent muggles are. They killed those innocent people because they weren’t pureblooded witches and wizards. Lily and I killed innocent you because we weren’t ready.

Who's to say it would have worked
and who's to say it wouldn't have
I was young and struggling, but old enough to be a dad

No one will ever know if it would have worked, but I wish we had given it a try! When I was 17 I was struggling to become a Professional Quidditch player and Lily was having a hard time becoming a healer, so money was very tight. We may not of had a lot of money but together we could have gave you the kind of love some kids only dream of. Kids like your Uncle Sirius and Uncle Remus.

The fear of being my father has never disappeared
I ponder it frequently while I'm sipping on my beer

At the age of 22 I’m still scared to be a bad father! When I do things like go out and have a drink with my friends I think of horrible I could turn out to be.

My vision of a family was artificial and fake
so when it came time to create I made a mistake

Families to me at the age of 17 were two people that never fight get married and then have children. Now at 22 I know every couple fighting is normal and family is simple the people that you love and care about

Now you got a little brother, maybe it's really you
maybe you really forgave us knowing we was confused

You have a little brother now! His name is Harry James Potter and he was born

July 31,1982. But maybe it’s you and you really forgave your mother and me!

Maybe, every time that he smiles
It's you proudly knowing that your father is doing the right thing now

I’m more muture than when I was 17 and when Harry smiles maybe it’s you proud that I’m doing the right thing now.

I never tell a woman what to do with her body
but if she don't love children then we can't party

I love and respect Lily to much to tell her what to do with her own body but if she doesn’t want children then that’s that.

I think about it every year so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, I love you whoever you would have been

Happy Birthday my sweet little boy or girl, I love you whoever you would have been.

Happy birthday
What I thought was a dream
make a wish
was as real as it seemed

Happy Birthday

What I thought was a dream
make a wish
was as real as it seemed

I made a mistake

from the heavens to the womb
to the heavens again
from the ending to the ending
never got to begin
maybe one day we can meet face to face
in a place without time and space
happy birthday

from the heavens to the womb
to the heavens again
from the ending to the ending
never got to begin
maybe one day we can meet face to face
in a place without time and space
happy birthday

I’m sorry you weren’t given the chance to live, but hopefully I’ll get to see you one day.

Happy birthday
What I thought was a dream
make a wish
was as real as it seemed

Happy Birthday

What I thought was a dream
make a wish
was as real as it seemed

I made a mistake