well this is my first one-shot, and i took this from my personal life, what ever happend before, the last paragraph which begins with ginny is fake...i dont give a shit if i mention names: Ginnysimone, DracoEddie, Harryme... i really did contemplate suicide a couple of times but was never successful... and yes i still love simone even tho i fucking hate her... and the pairing was the best way i could describe my hatered toward simone.

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"I wish I was fucking dead!' Harry was furious with only girl he has ever loved, Ginny Weasley. Ginny played with his heart, flirting with him, hanging out with him, kissing him on the cheek, but what bothered Harry the most was that Ginny played a trick on Harry. What happened was, one of Ginny's best friend Laura, has a brother, and her brother pretended to be a good looking girl who was in love with Harry. When Harry found out it was a joke, and found out Ginny was behind it, he stopped talking to her, while she kept saying she knew about it but tried to stop it. Harry stopped talking to Ginny, completing ignoring her. After about a month, Harry still didn't accept her apology but started to talking to her again. "You know Ginny, what your friends did really he hurt me, I came close to suicide, because of some fucked up joke." there was silence between them until Ginny started crying. "I'm so sorry Harry. You have to belive me, I really did try to stop it, I just couldn't." Harry eventually did accept the apology only due to the fact he was madly in love with Ginny, well that was until Draco came along. Harry and Ginny we at the three broom sticks drinking butterbeer and having a random chat. "So Harry, if you could ask out anyone, who would it be?" Harry blushed a little before answering, "Ginny will you go out with me?" taken-a-back, Ginny stared at Harry with wide sorry eyes, "I'm sorry Harry, but I'm seeing someone right now. As a matter of fact he standing right behind you." Harry turned around and saw Draco Malfoy. "I got it, good-bye." and Harry walked off.

Days turned into months, months turned into years, from the last time Harry saw Ginny. Harry never stopped loving her, he cried himself to sleep every night. 'Why me? How come I fall in love with Ginny, she has to go break my heart?' Harry knew he had to protect Ginny from Draco. Harry who was living in a flat just outside London, grabbed floo poweder and said The burrow. "HARRY! You scared me." Ginny turned around and saw Harry's head. "Look Ginny, we havent talked for so long, and all because you are dating Draco. He knew I was in love wit you, you knew it to and we showed our love for each other in playful ways, and he took that away. Do you remember anything?" Ginny just stared at him blankly, and shook her head, she has been brainwashed. Harry said is final goodbye.

About three-nine years has passed when Harry saw Ginny Weasley outside his flat. "What do you want Ginny?" startled, she turned around and saw Harry on the front patio. "Well, I just came to tell you that I remember, and I broke up with Draco." Harry was happy for once, "Well, then will you go out with me? All these has passed and I never stopped loving you." Ginny looked sad again and Harry got the hint. "Fine, go be with your new boyfriend who ever it is, and I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!" Harry yelled to Ginny who was nearly in tears. 'I love you too Harry' but it was too late…

Ginny was pregnant with her first child, and there was no father. The father was someone she had loved and made love with him the wrong way, she raped Harry. 'it was the only way' she thought to herself, before she knew it, she was having a tug-of-war in her mind,

There had to be an other way,

No, that was the only way.

But I didn't want to be like that

To bad.

Ginny was brought out her daydream from the rapping of Hedwig on her window, 'why would Harry write to me.' Ginny opened the window to let Hedwig, and untwined the letter:

Dear Ginny,

As soon as you get this letter, I would be dead. I couldn't stand being without, my life without was a piece of shit. You made feel like I deserve nothing in this world, and I really think that's fucked up. You were my everything, I fell in love with you when I first saw you before went through platform 9 and ¾. And I know what you did to me in my sleep, and I hope the kid grows up to fucking hate you, you fucking bitch…

I really am pissed, but just remember one thing…..

I DO LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT

Good-bye.

Harry.