This is just a little thing I wrote because I was bored and have no life;) its just about what Arkarian thinks about Isabel after she dies and comes back from the middle world and then her prospective on the whole thing. I’m sorry for all the mush I just can’t help myself I am a huge Isabel/Arkarian fan. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don’t own “the guardians of time” trilogy and I have nothing to do with Marianne Curley who is the owner of these characters!

Arkarian

I love her, I always knew I did. Even before I knew for sure she was my soul mate I loved her.

I know I shouldn’t, it would never work out, I will never age and I will always be cursed to live alone watching those I love die. I don’t want to think about that right now. Isabel almost died, I was so scared, I had never been so afraid in my whole life.

I remember when I first saw met her, she walked into my chambers with Ethan and couldn’t control the impulse to hug her. I had never seen anyone blush such a deep color before, and that’s saying a lot when you’ve been alive for over 600 years. Even now I can’t suppress a smile at the memory of our first meeting. I remember seeing her for the first time. I am glad she isn’t a truthseer because my thoughts betrayed me at that moment.

I thought that she looked like an angel, she was so beautiful. Her brown eyes were windows to her soul, looking into her eyes seemed like intimate contact. I almost had to look away from the intensity of her eyes, they were just so … I don’t even know what to say to describe them. Her hair also added to her angel effect, her blond hair fell over her shoulder in slight waves and ended just beneath her chest. It was beautiful.

It was then I knew something was different about her, I just didn’t recognize it at first. She stirred something deep inside me that I couldn’t name, but I could feel its power.

It hurts me, it is wrong but I can’t help be jealous of Ethan. The way Isabel looks at him with such love in her eyes, I wish that she would look at me like that. Then again it wouldn’t be fair to take her for myself. If anyone else should have her I am glad that it is Ethan. He is a good man and they will be good together.

Ethan knows it isn’t right for him to be with her. I know he loves her but only as a friend, he believes Isabel feels this type of love for him too.

It will be torture to see her only when she has to go on missions. It will be even harder to send her on one because I know that I will always be so worried about her after this incident with Marduke.

I will never forget how she look lying on the table covered in blood. I will never forget the terror that went through my heart when I realized that I couldn’t feel her heart beat. I know, however, despite my fears that she is named and I cannot cut her off from the guard as much as it is my first impulse to protect her.

She will always be in danger and though I can accept that it will never sit well with me. I am an empty shell without her. Before she came to me my life was so bland. I woke up everyday with nothing to look forward to I just did it out of necessity. Now when I wake up I do it because I want to see her face and speak to her and feel those feelings that I always get around her.

I can never have her but a man can dream. My dreams of her are all I have, all that I will ever have of her.

At least when I sleep I can see her and she can be mine, my angel, my Isabel.

Isabel

Arkarian is sitting in a field staring at the sky. His white t-shirt has grass stains all over it but he doesn’t seem to care. I can’t help but notice how handsome he looks sitting there, with his blue hair swaying in the wind and his deep violet eyes full of happiness.

I go over to him and sit next to him, he turns to face me and smiles. Then I feel his arms wrap around me and hold me close to him. Just as I wrap my arms around him and return his hug I feel myself wake up.

‘What was that?’ I whisper aloud. I know the answer to that question though, I keep trying to tell myself that it is Ethan who I like, but its not his face that I see any longer when I day dream. ‘Arkarian’ I love the sound of his name. I’m like a stupid little girl with a crush. I know that he will never like me back.

I mean Arkarian has been alive for what? 600 years? I’m sure he has had more love interests than I can count. He’d never want some stupid little girl like me. After all why would he? I mean he’s …. He’s Arkarian and he probably just sees me as some young little sister or something.

I tell myself this again and again but I can’t seem to bring myself to abandon hope all together. I am just way to determined for that kind of thing. Besides I am not the kind of person who gets all down on themselves and starts pitying myself. I know a lot better than that.

I’ve grown so much over the years and I’ve learned that looking down on yourself only gets other to look down on you, unfortunately I realized that far to late for a couple of choice incidences. I’d rather not think of those right now though.

I lay back down on my soft bed and pull my hair out from under my neck. The hot weather makes my neck get itchy and hair covering it doesn’t help.

I remember the first time I met Arkarian. I looked like such a moron, I just gaped at him with an open mouth. Even just thinking back on my action makes me mentally smack myself, I mean what was I thinking staring at him like that!

Then again you can’t really blame my too much, the guy has blue hair and violet eyes for heaven’s sake! I remember thinking that he was handsome, which he probably heard me think. I just barely manage to resist the urge to crawl under a rock with that memory.

Arkarian, I could just talk for hours about him. He is such a good person he is so kind and gentle. He is loving and trusting and with 600 years under his belt you better believe that he is patient. My thoughts of Arkarian cheer me up a bit, he always makes me feel better, I feel safe and strangely . . . whole when I am around him.

I have to stop thinking about him like this, it would probably upset him if he knew. I can’t stop the sigh that works its way out of my throat. Well tomorrow is a new day and I can’t wait to see him, even if I can never be with him as more than friends.

Arkarian. At least my dreams of him are my own.

Yeah I know totally pointless right? It was just something I did on a whim. Please review because I am new at this and I want to know what works and what doesn’t. but please be nice! REVIEW! The little button wants to be clicked!