Entry 63

February 20th

How could this happen? We were supposed to be safe! What’s the point of all the security if it doesn’t protect us? She never should have gotten in! He never should’ve been able to let her in! To think that Bellatrix Lestrange was in our dorm room—that she stole Ron’s wand and cast spells on all of us…that she took Orion…

What’s worse was that I had another strange dream thing happen again. It felt like it was happening to me—like I was in Orion’s body. It was like she was talking to me, touching my face and picking me up. I wanted to fight it—fight her but I couldn’t move. I could only listen when Professor McGonagall tried to stop her until help arrived. Things started to get muffled but I did hear Professor McGonagall scream. I don’t think I’ll ever forget that. I didn’t think they would ever end but Remus came and stopped it.

Professor Dumbledore and Mum were there too. They tried to stop Lestrange but she was ready to kill Orion. It was then it got ugly. It was like everything happened at once. Spells were shouted, something rammed into us—them—whatever and then pain. I felt arms wrap around me—it almost felt like when Mum used to hold me when I had nightmares. I can’t imagine how it must’ve looked for Mum to be like that.

I was quickly pushed back into my own body—if that makes any sense—with nothing to do but wait. It was the longest night of my life. I couldn’t sleep and couldn’t ‘wake up’. I don’t know how many hours it was before Mum and Remus ‘woke us up’. They were both surprised when I wanted to know about Orion.

It took Professor Dumbledore a long time to take the spell off Orion but Mum insists that he’s all right. I’m glad. I never want to go through a night like that again. I know it wasn’t normal but there really isn’t anyone I can talk to about it. No one else felt like they were in Orion’s head. Why was it only me?

Entry 64

February 21st

We just got back from a study session in Remus’ quarters. Orion’s fine. He’s restricted to Remus’ quarters until the security changes are finished so we have to bring him his assignments. Everyone keeps asking how he is and it’s getting annoying. I know they’re worried but honestly! Remus would never let anything happen to Orion.

There’s been no sign of Pettigrew which I don’t know if that’s a good thing. I saw the Marauder’s Map out so I know they’re using it but if they’re not on the map then where did he go? Where could he go without alerting the Aurors? Is he trying to find Voldemort?

So much of this doesn’t make sense. I think I’m getting a headache trying to figure it out. Why would Lestrage and Pettigrew go through the effort of breaking out of Azkaban to come to Hogwarts in the first place?

Entry 65

April 9th

I hate this! I can’t do it anymore! I have so much schoolwork and Wood insists on having practices every day! I know he wants to win the Cup but what chance do we have if I’m kicked off the team because I’m failing? I probably would be failing if I didn’t have Orion helping me. I wish I could stand up to Wood like he did. Honestly, I think everyone was shocked—even Fred and George were speechless. Orion told Wood that since he was only my replacement, he ‘couldn’t justify the commitment’ Wood was demanding. I think Wood was confused that anyone would consider schoolwork more important than Quidditch.

I think he’s trying to figure out if something’s wrong with Orion. Fred and George just joke about it and say that Orion’s cracked…but they’d say that about anyone who picks schoolwork over Quidditch. Their mission in life is to make people laugh, not pass classes.

Entry 66

April 16th

We won the Cup! I can’t believe it! What’s even better is that Malfoy got in a lot of trouble for ‘purposely endangering the life of a classmate’. He tried to kill be just because I caught the Snitch! I don’t know why Malfoy is such a git but I’m getting sick of it! It’s not my fault that his family’s insane! It’s not my fault my team is better than his! It’d be best if Dumbledore just expelled him. No one would miss him…except for Crabbe and Goyle. They would have to actually think if he wasn’t here to tell them what to do all the time.

I know I’m being mean and Mum would probably yell at me but I’m just so angry. I try so hard to do well in school and be a good Seeker but know one sees it. All they see is me being ‘the-boy-who-lived’ and think that I get treated special. It’s the other way around! I have to be special and I’m not! I never was.

I’m afraid I never will be.

Entry 67

June 10th

It’s hard to believe so much could happen in one day. Twenty-four hours ago, I just was glad final exams were finally done. Twenty-four hours ago, I didn’t know what I do now. I didn’t know that Peter Pettigrew only betrayed us because he didn’t want to die, I didn’t know that Remus was a werewolf, and I didn’t know that Orion was an Animagus.

I’m not really sure which is the biggest surprise. I guess I knew something was wrong with Remus to the point that he needed to be hidden from everyone for a few days. Deep down, I knew what it had to be. I just didn’t want to admit it. It didn’t want to admit that the Remus could turn into…that. He could have killed us—would have killed us if Orion hadn’t turned into a black wolf.

I really didn’t see that one coming and I don’t think anyone else did either. I mean, who’s an Animagus at thirteen?

Rose and I spent most of the day today with Mum and Dad and they tried to explain everything. Dad said that last night was Remus at his worst. It makes me wonder what it was like for Orion growing up. Maybe that’s the real reason why all of the older students know him so well—he spent the full moons here.

Another thing, Orion saved my life again as well as Dad and Rose’s. He held off the Dementors that attacked us until help came. I honestly think the entire family is going to be in debt to Orion for the rest of our lives. Orion insists that I would do the same but I don’t know if I could. It’s hard to describe. It’s like Orion takes on another personality when someone’s in danger. He’s not a kid anymore. He’s a trained Auror—like his dad. He didn’t panic when Rose was taken. He thought everything out. He knew we couldn’t take Pettigrew on alone. He knew I was the weaker dueler and sent me in first so he could disarm Pettigrew. How does anyone think of this stuff in a matter of minutes?

I’m going to work hard this summer. I know I have to. Dumbledore thinks Trelawney gave an actual prophecy during my Divination final. If that’s true, that means Pettigrew’s gone to find Voldemort. I have to be ready for when Voldemort comes back. I can’t afford to be a ‘little boy’ anymore.

I have to be more like Orion.