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Tsubasa had held Mikan's hand for about a minute or so by now, but he was lost, and didn't realize that he was still holding Mikan's hand until she spoke, " Umm, Tsubasa? Can you let go now? "
Tsubasa blinked, " Huh? Oh, I- I'm sorry. "
Mikan let go of his hand, as Tsubasa did.
" I- Since I'm giving you a chance, can you promise me something? " Mikan asked, fidgeting.
" Sure, what is it? " Tsubasa asked.
" Can you promise me, that you won't rush me? I know that you might get a little impatatient with me, but, can you promise? " Mikan asked.
Tsubasa nodded, smiling.
Mikan and Tsubasa had both gotten out of the hospital, and though Mikan said that she would give Tsubasa a chance they never really talked after being released from the infirmary. They were in different divisions, and so they rarely saw each other, but, when they saw each other, they just waved and smiled.
" I guess he's trying his best to keep the promise... " Mikan muttered, sitting on her bed.
It was morning, and the sunlight filtered into her room. Mikan had just woken up, still in her pajamas.
Mikan looked at her clock, it read 7: 00.
Mikan closed her eyes again, trying to fall asleep again, since they didn't have class that day.
' Knock, knock, knock! '
" Hrrhmm... " Mikan mumbled, opening her eyes again.
" Who is it? " Mikan asked, awaiting an answer.
" Someone named Tsubasa has come to see you! " Shouted the dorm mother. ( If she/it has a name, I'm sorry, but I forgot it... )
" Tsubasa? " Mikan said, abruptly sitting up and getting out of bed.
Mikan quickly headed for her small closet, and pulled out her uniform. She dressed and went into the bathroom to wash up before heading out the door.
Tsubasa waited outside patiently, looking at the clouds in the sky.
" Tsubasa! " Mikan shouted, coming out of the door.
Tsubasa turned around, smiling.
" Are you busy today? " Tsubasa asked.
" Umm, no, I guess not... " Mikan said.
" Why don't we go for a walk or something then? " Tsubasa asked, putting his hands into his pockets.
" Okay... " Mikan said, walking towards Tsubasa.
Mikan ans Tsubasa walked around the campus for a half hour before Tsubasa finally spoke up.
" Mikan, do you still love Natsume? " Tsubasa asked, taking his hands out of his pockets.
" I don't know. I keep thinking about him and what happened, but, I just want to forget about what happened between us before that. " Mikan said, turning her face toward the ground.
" Forget what happened before the incident? What kind of things do you want to forget? The happy, or the sad times? " Tsubasa asked, leading them over to a bench.
" I want to forget everything. The happy, the sad, anything about Natsume! " Mikan shouted, as she burst into tears.
Tsubasa sat Mikan onto the bench, then took a seat next to her.
" Forgetting things, doesnt mean that they aren't there... It just means that you don't remember about them... So, if you forget, or don't forget, they'll always be there... " Tsubasa said, his voice soothing and warm.
" If I forget then I won't have to live my life with that memory! I don't want to keep that memory with me! Somewhere, in my mind, I'll always remember... It doesn't matter if I forget though... Everything, will just disappear... I can be happy, and - "
" Just forgetting isn't going to solve things! Sure, they won't bother you, but think about it... Think about what'll happen if you did forget, think that if everything you went through just disappeared from your mind! What would be there for the rest of your life? It would all just be blank! You would live your life wondering what was there, thinking about all the possibilities. You wouldn't be able to live with a large blank in your memory would you? " Tsubasa asked, a tear falling down his cheek, as he clutched at his clothes.
" Tsubasa, you don't know what it's like to have that memory... You don't know what it's like to wake up every morning, thinking about something like that as soon as you wake up! " Mikan shouted.
" I have things like that too... You're not the only one with those kind of memories, I have them, and I also wake up every morning thinking about them! Though, it doesn't seem like that, it's because of you... " Tsubasa said.
" Because of me? " Mikan asked.
" Before I met you, I acted like how I am now, but, I felt unsure of myself... I wasn't sure that I could trust myself to try an froget the memories, but I just continued on as if nothing was wrong, but there was always something telling me that something was wrong. I ignored it. " Tsubasa said.
Mikan watched Tsubasa, her eyes filling woth new tears, not of pity, but of the connection she now felt towards Tsubasa.
" I ignored it because I felt if I payed it too much attention it would consume me. Consume me into hatred, and darkness like before... I didn't want that, is what I told myself. I didn't want to return to the way I was, so instead I lived my life as a fake person... Always following other people, never leading. Though when I met you, I saw that no matter how bad things got, you never gave up, and you always tryed to conqer the things in front of you, and you became happy. I tried to follow your example, and I became happy, and I also felt more real... " Tsubasa said.
" Just because I seem that way to you, on the inside, I'm just like you, fake... " Mikan said.
" Well, it looks like we both have similar problems, so, let's stay like this, together... We can't controll what happens by ourselves, nor can we controll it together, but we can always try to confront it, and see the outcome... Starting with Natsume. " Tsubasa said.
" Natsume? Why? " Mikan asked.
" He-, I think he may interfere with us, I'm not sure, it's just a feeling. But we should try to resolve the problem first. " Tsubasa said.
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