What Do I Have To Do?

By NocturneD (WINGZ)

Note: Songfic one shot ahead!

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Sasuke Uchiha, sole survivor of the Uchiha slaughter finally completed his goals, but he felt incomplete. He killed his brother, Orochimaru, what now? He said he would revive his clan but no girl looked at him the same way again as before he left the village after Naruto dragged him back. Sakura didn’t look at him the same way, Ino didn’t look at him the same way, no girl did. Except for one girl, she never judges anyone and could a smile on anyone’s face after they feel like they lost everything in the world.

So there he was sitting in his old room alone looking up at the ceiling thinking about her. They met before he left but it really wasn’t anything big but she sure did change not only in looks but the way she sees the world and everyone. He never really bothered with her since she never bothered with him when they were at the academy. But somehow, he liked that. He liked girls that kept to themselves like he would do. But her image just couldn’t leave his mind... What also shocked him about her is that she still in love with the blonde fool, but in a way the blond fool was a bridge for him to her. His heart ached, it was bothering more than ever. Why her? Why the one that he never talked to? She was a mystery...

He sighed as he couldn’t stand it any longer, he knew love... or whatever he was feeling was hard but he felt like trying anyway as he pulled out a clean sheet of paper and words came into his head. He wrote down the following...

You make it hard to breathe

It's as if I'm suffocating

And when you're next to me

I can feel your heartbeat through my skin

It makes me sad to think

This could all be for nothing

I wish there was a way

A way for you to see inside me

I've never felt this way

About anyone or anything … tell me

Eventually he continued to write, the words kept pouring out through his pen as he felt whatever this feeling was... it helped him along... She deserved to hear these words from him, maybe not from his voice but from reading them through his writing... She never judges anyone, maybe that will be the upper hand? She never really tried to talk to Sasuke unless it was important, but she always said hello politely. For some reason, this made Sasuke feel warm inside.

What do I have to do to make you happy?

What do I have to do to make you understand?

What do I have to do to make you want me?

But, if I can't make you want me

What do I have to do?

It was all coming out too easily, he finished writing everything that poured out through his pencil. He had second thoughts though, what if she read the note he gave her and she ignores it? What if she laughs... He took a deep breath and muttered it was better trying then not do anything at all, at least he would tell her how he felt. He folded the paper into an envelop and sighed her name on it then put it into his pant pocket for safe keeping. She deserves better, he deserves better too. He went outside to look for her... He remembered everything he wrote down for her as he walked around the village to find her... Until he did, she was sitting underneath a tree like she was waiting for someone. There she was with her heavy jacket still around her gorgeous body, Sasuke know she has one. Her pale skin just screams out, her pale eyes are like diamonds, her hair was like the night sky. How could the blonde idiot not pay attention to her. But I hid once the blonde idiot said hello to her, she said a lot of stuff with some confidence now. Sasuke was crushed inside as he looked at the letter with her name on it as he pulled it out, but peaking he saw that she was happy but... for some reason the smile on her face turned upside down when the blonde idiot told her that he doesn’t have the same feelings for her. She took it hard, the blonde fool just excused himself and went to look for the girl of his dreams that kept punting him away. Sasuke growled as the letter in his hand crumpled slightly, he hated seeing her like that as she turned away to cry somewhere... but she didn’t go far, just underneath the tall tree she hugged herself and took rejection for the worse. Sasuke wanted to get out there but it looked like she needed space. But it tore him apart seeing her with herself trying to muffle her own cries. Sasuke took a deep breath and walked over to her.

I know exactly what you're thinking

But I swear this time I will not let you down

I'm not as selfish as I used to be

That was a part of me that never made me proud

Right now I think I would try anything

Anything at all to keep you satisfied

God I hope you see what losing you would do to me

All I want is one more chance… tell me

He bent down to her level and asked her why she was crying... She tried to but she was too into the rejection, he couldn’t get a word out of her. He could just tell her three things, either shape up, say that there are people in the world that you admire but get up close to them and find out they aren’t what you expect, or... he could just give her the letter and leave. He tried to the last two, by telling her just that. She was silent, for once she actually acknowledged him without the blonde idiot around. He took a deep sigh and gave her the letter telling her to open it when she felt better. Sasuke took another deep breath, told her that he’ll be at the ramen stand waiting. He left... but still kept close by... He watched her dry her tears and stared at the letter with her name on it for about a couple of minutes, she sit it down between her feet deciding weather to open it or not. Was she ready? And why did Sasuke give it to her? She didn’t care anymore, she opened it carefully and unfolded the letter. She started reading, Sasuke couldn’t take it he felt like a fool but he did leave to go to the ramen stand and wait for her answer.

What do I have to do to make you happy?

What do I have to do to make you understand?

What do I have to do to make you want me?

But, if I can't make you want me

Just tell me, tell me.

The girl Sasuke was feeling for read from the top, the middle, and to the end. The words were strong, caring, wanting to lend out a hand, but yet it seemed like he was the one needing the hand as he sounded desperate. But none the less, it was powerful as it hit her, she had an admirer this entire time Sasuke came back. She didn’t know how to feel, she felt confused yet she felt her confidence build back up. Those were strong words yet living in a way, she never felt more flushed and surprised that the one that admired her, was the one she admired brought back. She folded the letter and put in her pocket. She really had nothing else to lose, she might as well go talk to him. Instead of walking, she ran... she ran... and she ran...

Can I, how can I, how can we?

Sasuke felt like a fool himself, he spilt his guts to her in the letter after she was rejected. It sounded like he was waiting for that moment to happen, but really? If the blonde fool actually returned her feelings, the letter would of been ripped apart and he would of the one that faced rejection.

What do I have to do to make you want me?

What do I have to do to make you understand?

What do I have to do to make you love me?

But, if I can't make you love me

Just tell me what do I have to do?

He looked down at his bowl of ramen, looking at his own reflection. He felt nervous inside, what if she was laughing at him back at the training grounds? What if she just tore the letter up? He was already shaking... until he heard someone walking slowly up to him then sit down next to him...

To forget about you...

“Um... Sas... Sasuke?” He turned his head to see her standing there with the letter in her hand, she was shaking but she was blushing this time and had a little smile on her face.

“Hin... Hinata?” He looked at her, wondering what her answer would be.

“I... I... never knew... I feel like such a fool...” Hinata wanted to tear up again, “Thank you... for that note... it...was moving and... beautiful...” She arched forward to look down sadly at the counter, she was the one that felt like the fool to go after a blonde that would never return her feelings and hoping it would change. But really the one who felt for her was his best friend, the heart throb of the village. “I... I don’t want you to forget about... me...”

“I... uh... ordered for you if you don’t mind...” Sasuke stuttered at first, the ramen girl served Hinata a plain bowel of ramen with some extra spices and some crackers. She looked down at the bowl looking at her reflection. Her hand was resting on the table top, he reached for it and to her surprise he didn’t pull anything. He just put his hand on top of hers then used his other hand to support it as he pulled it closer towards in between their faces. “I... won’t forget about you... but please... tell me what do I have to do... to make you happy? To make you understand? To... make you love me?”

She stuttered, her eyes were still a little watery until she came up with to his surprise, “Just... love me... understand me... love me...”

That was enough for him, that was all he wanted and what he could fulfill. He didn’t let go of her hand, he wanted to kiss her but was she ready to kiss a stranger? Was she that desperate? Did she even know him? She spoke, “I... I always... admired you too... I thought... I never stood a chance to get...you to notice me... I... actually... want to kiss you...”

“I... always admired you when I first saw you when we were little... but... we never talked... I always... wanted to kiss you...” Sasuke said as he looked into her pearls, she did the same with his onyx as they moved closer until... they kissed... and it felt... actually right... they wanted each other this entire time... and now... because of his letter to her, it all changed. What did they have to do? Just to be happy, to understand, and love each other...

The end...

Note: Words of that supposed note are the lyrics from “What do I have to do?” by Stabbing Westward. Hope you enjoyed it!