shugo: just something i came up with. blame the roleplay with my friends. and yes. this is mature content.

v.e.r.t.i.g.o

Axel fucks Sora, all traces of guilt gone with their first kiss.

He loves the way the smaller body writhes underneath him and moans with passion. Loves the way the younger boy's skin becomes sleek with sweat. Loves how hair clings to his flushed face. Love, love, love.

By why does the word sounds so empty? Hollow? As though it wasn't meant for Sora, some other being that's grazing the edges of Axel's memories. He feels guilt suddenly rising up inside him but pushes it away. Why feel guilt for someone he couldn't remember. His eyes traveled down Sora's face as he leaned down to crash his lips against the others. Fleeting images of lighter blue eyes, blonde messy hair, and pale skin fill his head. But they're pushed away once more as Sora lets loose a loud, lustful moan.

Axel knows he shouldn't be doing this. Shouldn't be taking advantage of the younger boy this way. But he asked for it. And now he was getting it.

But those vague memories kept coming back, nagging at the corners of Axel's mind. They kept getting clearer, clearer, crystal clear.

sora

s.o.r.a

s.o.r.a.x

roxas

I never wanted you. But you found me and here we are as I remember a former you. My light. He's gone now. You're the only light I can find. You look like him, kiss like him... hell you practically are him. But I was never looking for you.

Sora blinks large sapphire orbs at Axel, wondering why he stopped, why he was looking at him like that.

Axel's eyes never left the younger's face. Roxas. That was him. But he wasn't here now. And Axel was left with a weaker light. A fake light.

A fake love.

Axel shakes his head, chuckling. Roxas isn't here anymore. He isn't coming back no matter how much his heart yearns for him. He fucks Sora again.