"I don't look at time anymore. But when I'm with Shuichi my eyes were fixed on the watch. It makes me want to grasp each and every moment." Yuki said, in his living will.

"I read somewhere that the whales comes back exactly where they are harpooned. He reminds me of that. I know he will be back. I don't care of it's a day or an hour before he dies. After all...he's the one I want to bury in my heart." Shuichi said.

"To me, life means seeing you, and death means not seeing you, that what makes me afraid of dying." Yuki said, to him one night, as he lay beside Shuichi.

"Don't think like that. Use your heart if you can't see with your eyes." Shuichi said, holding him tight.

Shuichi remembered Yuki's last words to him before he went on his final journey, he was holding his hand, "I never knew why I was born. But I do now. You're the only proof that I ever existed." Yuki said. He touched the boy's face and a tear rolled down his eye, a smile playing on his lips, the smile Shuichi so loved with all of his heart.

"Thank you for being proof of my life." Yuki said, and with that, his life ebbed away.

They use to have a secret code between them, a blank piece of paper folded up like a letter, Yuki started that little habit of sending him blank notes whenever he wanted Shuichi to remember something they've done or what they wanted,

"You open it up, and close your eyes, and remember and listen to your heart to know what is really written there, what I really want to say." Yuki said.

Shuichi held that paper once more, the last one he sent, and he can't help but cry, "I'm sorry, darling, it's just too much, too sudden, too soon but, I'm ready to let you go now." Shuichi whispered to the picture of the older man on his desk.

This what Shuichi imagined him writing in his last letter, "I miss you so much, every second I spent with you was so beautiful, you made my life end happily."

Shuichi could also imagine him smiling down at me at his own place in heaven,

"Are you okay down there without me? " Yuki said, with his elusive smile.

OWARI