Disclaimer: Nope, don’t own Naruto.

A/N: First, THANKS TO MY BETA FOR CHEKING THIS. Second, here’s another scene for Mantras. Third, thanks to everyone who has read and reviewed so far...it means a lot.

song-fic: Panic! At the Disco...But its better if you do

past/thoughts

lyrics

inner mind

regular/present

Panic!

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-butIdoLOVEyoU-

"Oh God, what will I do?! Oh man, aw man. Fuck, why did he have to find out now?! Shit and I have finals too. Aw man, aw man...but I can't stop going to school, I have finals. What will I do?!"

Sakura, who had been near insanity, flopped down onto her bed, her nerves, had been on edge for two days now. Not having answers to her questions were driving her crazy. She could have used her time to study for her finals, but she didn't need that. What she really needed where...

"I need answers, damit," after several seconds, "Okay Sakura stay calm, just relax. Now, let's think this through from the beginning."

'So, he pulls my mask down, looks at me intently and then kisses me. But he could have been drunk so maybe he didn't recognize me! That's it! Yay, I'm so smart.'

'Yeah, keep dreaming. You know that wasn't from the beginning.'

"Oh please not now! I don't need to seem crazier!"

'So sorry,' mocked her split personality, 'but you are insane.'

"LOOK I DON'T NEED YOUR SHIT RIGHT NOW! Huh, maybe a shower can help."

Standing up she walked over to her radio and put it on blast. Not bothering to close her bathroom door, she filled the tub with water and proceeded to remove her shorts and tank top. "Maybe Ino will be back soon." She muttered underneath her breath.

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Stepping into the apartment, the first thing to greet Ino were piles of books littered around the living room. "Sorry about the mess, Sakura's been paranoid." Clearing some space on the couch, she provided her guest with a set. "You want anything to drink?"

Receiving a 'no' and a 'thanks' she made her self comfortable on a chair across from her companion. "I guess whatever you want to talk to Sakura about will have to wait. She's taking a shower right now, which helps explain the loud radio," she said pointing to a closed door where all the noise was coming from, "but we can talk while you wait on her." Not giving her guest time to digest the given information she bombarded him with questions.

"So you must share classes with her, I mean she's such a loner that she barely knows anyone. She's always studying, doing some project or working, but other than that I have to force her to come outside. But now, you must be Sasuke...wait, of course you are. You match her descriptions: 'Tall, sexy, black hair, mysterious, black eyes, smart, oh did I mention sexy,' her exact words." Ino couldn't help but laugh. The young man wished desperately for her to quiet down, no, stay quiet and stop asking so many damn questions. 'God Sakura, hurry up!'

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Sakura hadn't heard the laughing coming from the living room. She had been waiting for the tub to fill up and for the radio to stop talking and play something good. Music always helped calm her down, especially right now. Turning the taps off, she settled into the warm water and closing her eyes she prayed for a good song, something to make her relax for a while. 'Stupid radio station, I should have just played one of my cds.'

Gradually all the talking had seized and a song started playing. "How ironic, I needed something to relax, not remind me," Shouted Sakura, water splashing around from her frustration, "Fuck; I guess there's nothing more to do." Settling back into the tub she let the lyrics play a scene all too familiar to her.

-Flash Back-

Now I'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a cabaret

Somewhere downtown where a burlesque queen may even ask my name

"Ino, I can't do it." Sakura was petrified; she couldn't go out wearing a red bra and matching panties. Every move she made the frills at the edge of her bra tickled her and so would the ones on her panties that acted as a skirt, but all that it was doing was reminding her of how little she was wearing.

"Look Sakura, stop being stupid, their just men."

"Animals you mean." She said peaking out of the back stage.

"Could you sit still, the make up will smear and this is the last time I'm doing it!" Not having the courage and voice to argue with Ino she sat still, her heart pounding in her ears while she played with the frills on her lap.

As she sheds her skin on stage

"There, all done. Now, go put on your shoes 'cause you're on in a little while."

"I can't do it. I can't. I can't. I can't."

"Sakura please..." looking onto the girl's face, Ino lowered her tone. "Look, if you knew you wouldn't be able to do it, why did you ask me to bring you here?"

Swallowing the lump in her throat and trying her best not to cry, she spoke. "I need the money. I-I'm low of funds and I have to pay my college fees."

"Exactly, that's why you must do it." Sitting on the chair next to her Ino tried to rationalize.

"This is the only job out of the others offered to you that won't interfere with school. Look, you're only working five hours and you'll get paid well, not to mention the extra tip. Not only that, but you won't be dancing all the time. Besides, it's your choice of how personal you get with the client. Rule number one says: No touching unless allowed."

"But that's the only rule." Sakura couldn't help but smile at the only rule that comforted her.

"So, will you do it and show everyone how much of a sexy dancer you are?"

"Fine, but only because I can't make you look bad and I need the money."

"Why else would you do it?"

"Cuz I'm an Ino."

"Hey, just because I have no problem flaunting what I have doesn't make me a whore!"

Sakura laughed, "I never said that, but now that you mention it..."

"Fine, I won't dance with you!" Pouted Ino.

"What?!

"I. WON'T. DANCE. WITH. YOU!" Ino said poking Sakura to get her point across.

"But, but...oh Ino I'm so sorry. You're not a whore. I was just joking; you're the best-est friend a girl can have."

"Okay, hurry and put your heels on, Gladis will be dancing with us, but it's so the next time you won't be scared."

"Yay! I love you so much Ino." Ino didn't have enough time to balance herself, so she ended on her bottom with Sakura hugging her. "I love you too." She said hugging her childhood friend.

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"Damn if it wasn't for Ino, I would have been a drop out by now, a starving drop-out."

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It had been a year since Sakura started working at Club Naivety. She had been so petrified, but the outcomes where good. She was in her third year of college and she was able to support herself financially. With her luck, she had only dance three additional times and each time someone was on stage with her.

I'm seated and sweating to a dance song on the club's P.A.

Working as a bartender gave her benefits. She didn't have to wear the skimpy outfits, sure she still wore a couple of flashy outfits but not like the dancers, being a bartender consisted of a couple of appealing things. Not only that, but the pay had been better than on stage. The gentlemen's crowded the bar more often than the tables. The owner had gone on to say that it was because she was there, but she didn't want the attention and said it was because of the drinks.

The strip joint veteran sits two away

Smirking between dignified sips of his dignified peach and lime daiquiri

She had to admit, the guys that entered the club where attractive, young and the majority must have been single. The old perverts were hardly seen which comforted her a lot. There was nothing else that she hated and disgusted her than old hermits hitting on girls less than half their age. The majority of girls that worked there worked because they needed financial support and it was an easy job. Others did it because they were easy, putting rental rather
than restricted on their resume.

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"Oh, the good times." Sakura couldn't help but laugh out loud.

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Oh, and isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

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After a year of work, Sakura was content. But all of that changed when she started hanging out with collage peers and the club was in everybody's talk. The fright of one of her friends knowing where she worked was immense, that on nights she danced she wore a mask. She didn't worry much about her hair because anyone could die it pink. There were girls walking around the club with orange, red and even purple hair, all that mattered was concealing her
face, well at least half of it.

Oh, but I'm afraid that I
Well, I may of faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

However, on nights she didn't have to dance, she was petrified because she wasn't allowed to conceal her face. That didn't bother her much, but what if they'd seen her dance, then they'll know who the masked woman was. Being raised with morals got in the way and it was times like those that made her guilty.

She justified her job. 'It's like dancing at a party. Guys still look at you the same and even if you're dressed modestly their eyes are x-raying everything underneath.' But now, it felt wrong. On her parent's memory she promised to quit working right before graduation. The job wouldn't affect her future career, but what if she where to work for any of the men whovisited the club? It'd be easy for them to reject her due to "reputation" or even worse they'd hire her thinking she'd continue to do whatever it was she did during working hours.

But, she was lucky that nobody had found out where she worked. One night, however, three of her friends had walked in, but lucky her that they were renting some girls and didn't care about the entertainment or drinks and ever since she's always paranoid during her shift which was three nights per week.

Well, I'm afraid that I
Well, that's right, that I may have faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

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Sakura had never gotten caught up with dancing on stage, but tonight she felt different. There was something out there, someone calling her attention that even if she didn't know who she wouldn't hesitate. She dance with all she was worth, running her hands down the length of her flat stomach, her slender legs and down an arm. She had made a great display of her back side and her chest, not minding all the cheers she would have considered disgusting. Never in all her time working at the club had she felt too energetic, sexy or wanted.

She found encouragement from the eyes that watched her every move, the vibes that emanated from them as she danced to a slow sensual song, it could have also been the hard liquor she downed before stepping on stage. For the first time she was suppose to dance solo and her nerves had pleaded for alcohol, something she gladly obliged to before doing her dance.

Her body tickled with the sensation of liquor, she had drunk enough to comfort her, but not enough to disorientate her. She had felt the attraction that when the dance was nearing an end, she stepped down the stage and looked for that one person she'd tease tonight. Finding a bunch of guys seated at the back lounge she made her way towards them, stopping in front of the one guy she'd always want attention from.

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

Not wasting time she straddled his lap, looking deep into his eyes. She let her hands roam from the side of his face and down on to his chest, around his neck, down his chest again and onto his belt's buckle, his eyes never leaving hers. Moving closer to him she made sure her chest was in perfect display for him, while her cheeks graced his and her lips kissed bits of his skin. She felt him pressing into her thigh, but knowing the type of guy he was she knew he wouldn't expose himself and melt into her.

Taking hold of one of his arms, Sakura lifted herself off of him, her breast right in front of his eyes, seconds later she settled onto what had been poking her. She heard his quick intake of breath at the sudden closeness and felt this hand grip at her hips. She couldn't help but moan and look at him, while his free hand glided up her thigh caressing her. Before things got out of control, she pecked him on his neck, deciding she had taken it a little too far. Right when she had gotten off his lap he had sat her down again, eliciting another moan from her.

Oh, and isn't this exactly where you'd like me

She had been too distracted by the hand that caressed her thigh and bottom that she didn't feel the hand that untied the knot of her mask. It had slid down her chest and the next thing she knew he was fully looking at her face. The flush rose to her cheeks as he smirked at her. She attempted to get off his lap, but the hand gripping her hip kept her in place; in fact it brought her closer. Before she knew it, he was kissing his way up her neck and to her lips. His lips were feathery soft, like an expert, but the kiss had captivated her so much that she hadn't realized that her song had ended and there was another girl on stage. He continued to kiss her, fervently yet delicately at the same time. She felt the passion he was pouring into the kiss, the want. He had grinded her onto his erection which granted him access to her mouth when she gasped.

They kissed for a while until she could barely breathe. She was sure her flush matched her hair and it had spread all over her body. Not wanting to stay much longer, until it gradually escalated into something more, in which she ended up fucking him in front of his friends she rose from his laps. Her eyes never leaving him, smiling down at him on last time she turned and rushed her way to the side exit near his lounge. She hadn't bothered to take a glance at his companions for fear of passing out due to light headiness and embarrassment.

Once back stage, she couldn't help but down the first thing being served, liquor. She had half an hour left of work in which she'd be able to use to get out of there. Once changed, she hadn't even waited for the five minutes left, instead asking Gladis to tell the boss she had left because she wasn't feeling well. 'Urgh, why did Ino have a client when I needed her most.'

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"Shit that must have been the cheapest lap dance ever; I hadn't even managed to dance on him."

Sakura promptly washed herself and stepped out of the tub. She was starting to feel like two nights ago and of course he wasn't there to finish what she had started. Never in her life had she felt like that. The tingling sensation everywhere he touched pressed or kissed. 'Aw man, I'm back to point one...'

"Stupid song!" Marching over to her radio she turned it off and as soon as she did she heard Ino laughing. "Yes, that's it."

Not bothering to change, she stepped out of her room and walked over to the living room. 'Shit.' Sasuke was there with Ino in her living room, eyeing her like the night before and her towel was close to slipping off.

"Good, you're out of the shower! Sasuke was waiting on you, but now that you're out I can leave."

"Wait," Sakura briskly made her way around the couch and to the door where Ino was heading. Giving her a sharp look, Sakura pleaded for the obvious. "It will be fine," mouthed Ino before leaving a stunned Sakura at the door, her laughs echoing behind the closed doors.

Sakura eyed Sasuke's back, 'Oh fuck, what am I gonna do. He probably wants to talk about the incident at the club.'

"Wait right here, I'll go change and we can talk." But before she made it to her door, she was turned around and pinned against a wall, her towel sliding down between their bodies. Sakura was shocked; she couldn't even process what had happened or what will happen. The way that Sasuke looked at her was only fueling the flush that spread over her cheeks. She couldn't help but bite her lip when Sasuke closed the distance between their bodies, his breath fanning the side of her neck as he spoke to her.

"I didn't come to talk, rather, finish what we started."

Sakura instantly closed her legs. She felt the warmth creeping down there, not to mention the excitement he created just by talking. 'Oh god, he's sexy.'

Sasuke looked to the side, noticing an open door to a room, guessing it was hers he pulled her into it. Walking her towards the bed he couldn't help, but kiss down her neck and stop his hands from roaming her front, he grasped her breast, kneading it softly and exciting her nipples.

Sakura couldn't help but moan, he was making her fell so good and those hands and lips of his, oh god. Closing her eyes, she threw her head back, resting it on his shoulder while he continued to caress both of her breasts and his tongue lavished her neck. Her breathing was turning into pants, one of his hands seizing the worship on her breast to take hold of her hip. He pulled her bottom towards him, hearing her gasp as she rubbed against his erection. "This is what you always do to me, Sakura."

The way he breathed out her name made the hair on her back stand and her wetness to increase, but what had caught her attention was the always.

"Always?"

"Always," he said turning her around and laying her on the bed. "I've wanted you for too long, shit I thought I'd go insane."

"B-but...but," Sakura didn't understand that always. He never paid much attention to her unless it was a class assignment, but he said always... "How?”

"I've refrained myself from jumping you countless times. But now, god Sakura, I just knew that she was you."

Sakura abruptly sat up, pushing Sasuke off of her a little, "What do you mean?"

"The dancer."

"But how?"

Sasuke stopped his ministration on Sakura's neck, taking hold of her chin; he made her look into his darkened pools. "That wasn't the only time I went to the club. I've been going for sometime. I was trying to get you out of my mind, but as soon as I get there you were behind the bar, not to mention the dancer who danced when you weren't around. I've always sat at that lounge, but you never noticed and the night before yesterday you confirmed it, you were her." He finished between kisses.

Sakura couldn't help but lie down and smile up at Sasuke. "Good, because I've wanted you too. I was so scared you'd say something to disgrace the little dignity I have, but...Oh Sasuke, I love you!"

Sasuke couldn't help but smile. With the little time he managed to spend with Sakura at school, he was able to gradually fall in love with her too. She was so different from the other girls, always had a positive attitude, smiling, and so caring. She's smart too and damn does she have a nice body. "Good, because I love you too."

Sakura couldn't help but stare up at him. She was clearly shocked, Sasuke could tell. "I never showed it because I thought you didn't like me."

"I didn't say it either because I knew it annoyed you when a girl would confess to you."

"But those were fan girls, not Sakura."

Sakura couldn't help but laugh, she was so happy. She would have never thought that Sasuke would like her. They had known each other since their second year at college and yet they never acknowledged the others feelings. However, all her laughing seized when Sasuke stood up and removed his shirt. Sakura couldn't help but admire his sculptured body. He looked like one of those Greek gods on her history book. Her hands itched to touch his tight muscular body.

Once freeing himself from his shirt Sasuke looked down at Sakura with a predatory grin. Sakura immediately covered her chest and tightened her legs. She had gained conscience of her state of undress and was embarrassed, that and she didn't want Sasuke to see how excited she was. Sasuke on the other hand smiled at her and straddled her hips, his hands taking hold of her wrist in the process. "What, poor Sakura is embarrassed?"

"Stop teasing me!" She pouted turning her face from Sasuke's direction. Sasuke found it exciting that he could barely contain himself. Removing her arms from her chest he raked a hand down her side and up again to cup a breast. He took great delight in the way Sakura would close her eyes and bite her lower lip, especially when his thumb would grace her hardened peek. He then lowered his head and licked her, his member hardening more than it was, if possible, while her hand came to thread into his hair.

She would occasionally moan when his teeth would gently bite into her. Eventually, he would switch breasts while his hands kneaded the other. He then moved his right hand down her body, stopping at her knee and bending it up. He would then continue to run his hand up and down her slender leg.

Sakura was in heaven. His mouth was doing things to her, things that not even her wildest dreams could conjure. He made her feel so good though, that she wished this never ended. His hands were all over her, mouth sucking and biting ever so softly that she couldn't help but moan and whisper his name. But what she found more amazing was the intrusion on her lower body. Sasuke's hand that had been running along her inner thigh had stopped at her center, his fingers invading her opening. She couldn't help but let out a loud moan.

Sasuke gave up on her breast to take in her features. As soon as he entered a finger into her she moaned out loud, her head sinking further back into the mattress. He took great delight in her features, her eyes were tightly shut while her teeth sunken deeper into her lip, nearly drawing blood. She seemed to be enjoying it; the pleasure was in scripted all over her face.

With his other hand he unbuckled his pants, pulling down his zipper and letting his pants fall down to his knees. Sakura was too distracted to hear Sasuke, the finger had clogged up all her senses the only one open was pleasure, but as soon as she felt his hand slide away she opened her eyes, looking down, but finding that Sasuke was in front of her. He was pulling down his boxers. Sakura couldn't help but marvel at the sight in front of her. Sasuke was nude, nothing on, on full display.

'Damn he's huge. God, we're lucky.'

'Oh yes,' was the only thing Sakura could reply to her inner mind, she was still in a trance from the sight of Sasuke.

Sasuke couldn't wait anymore; he had been waiting for this day since he first met Sakura. It was clear to her that he wanted her. Crawling back on top of her, he whispered to her how much he wanted her and loved her.

"Sakura, I've wanted you since day one and I can't wait another second. I really love you, everything about you. But..."

"What Sasuke?"

"This might hurt." He murmured into the juncture of her neck and shoulder, kissing his mark from earlier. With that said he looked down at Sakura, he received a nod as she spread herself for him. He hooked her legs around him, his tip at her opening. Not wanting to wait anymore he sunk himself into her, breaking through her hymn.

Sakura couldn't help the tears that prickled her eyes, the sensation of him in her had been so sharp that the tears were mere reaction, in fact, she wasn't in pain. Sasuke looked down at her, it was clear to him that she wanted to cry but she didn't let her tears fall. He remained still, his lips kissing her face and the side of her neck. She felt so warm and tight, that he was sure he would spill in her if they wouldn't continue, but he was lucky that Sakura started rocking against him.

Taking his cue he rocked against her, a hand holding her against him, while his other hand threaded with hers. The rhythm was slow, but he still moved deep into her. Sakura couldn't help the sharp intakes of breath. His shaft in her was enough, but the way he moved in her, so sensually, but demanding was driving her crazy. She kept her eyes closed; focusing on the pleasurable sensation he was creating, but she felt his gaze on her. Gradually he picked up speed, Sakura matching every one of his moves and asking for more.

The way she whispered his name every time he would move into her was erotic and mind blowing, Sasuke knew he wouldn't last long, but he kept giving her more, faster and harder. Sakura was so close; she could feel the tightening of her stomach and walls around him, her breath was erratic, same as his. She was so close that when he moved into her again she released, tightening her hold against his hand and arching into him while screaming his name. Sasuke lifted his head from her neck to watch Sakura release for him. The way she had clamped around him had caused him to reach his limits, a release following shortly after a couple of thrusts.

After a couple of minutes Sasuke withdrew from her, lying on his side to watch Sakura savor the aftermath. Her cheeks were flushed and her chest was still heaving. She still kept her eyes close while holding onto his hand. He couldn't help but turn her to him for a kiss. She complied, sighing with contentment after he'd freed her lips. "Damn that was good." she said after some time.

"You see, couldn't you be that blunt and tell me how you felt?"

"Well you could have done the same," she said, her green eyes looking at his obsidian ones, "besides, who's arrogant and so sure of himself?"

"Yeah, but that's why you like me, at least that's what Ino told me."

"What?!" Sasuke turned over on his back while Sakura sat up abruptly.

"That's what you told her."

"And she told you! She wasn't supposed to do that!"

"She was trying to help you."

"By telling the boy I like all of my stuff."

"She didn't tell me everything."

"Oh sure, cover up for her. What did she pay you to keep your mouth shut? You know she's just like your friend Naruto, big mouth and loud." She said crossing her arms under her chest.

"Stop that." Said Sasuke handing Sakura the sheets and pointing down at his lap, Sakura couldn't help and blush.

"So, what did she say?" She asked after raping her self into the sheets.

"Not much."

"Oh trust me; she did 'cause there was a lot to say."

"I know."

"You're so conceited."

"Just how you like me." He said smirking at her.

"Shut up." She said burrowing her head into his chest while lying on him.

"Sasuke?" Sakura broke the silence after sometime. "Yeah?"

"What do you think about my job?"

Sasuke stopped his messing with Sakura's hair and looked down at her. "Sit." He said after managing to sit against the headboard. Sakura sat against him, expecting a lecture from him of how immodest that job was.

"Look, you've been working there for a while now so it's up to you if you stay there. I'm sure your doing it for financial reasons rather than a hobby, unlike your friend Ino."

"Hey, why do you say that?"

"What we just did proves that you've never slept with someone, but Ino, well let's just say she does."

"How would you know?"

"Oh, you don't have to sound suspicious, but you'd be amazed with the person she got laid with the other night."

"Who!?" Asked an eager Sakura.

"Can't tell."

"No fair! She probably told you my whole life."

"No, she only managed to tell me half until you interrupted her."

"See, she did tell you everything."

"Look that's not the point. You work Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursday and I'm free those nights so I'll be there with you."

"Stalker."

"Nah uh, I was trying to get some dancer into my bed, but I ended up in hers."

Sakura couldn't help but laugh, "You were seriously trying to know who the 'dancer' was?"

"Yeah, which helps explain why I've been going there way too much, especially since the dancer rarely danced."

"Ha, you're just funny. So if I wouldn't have come onto you the other night you would have gone tonight?"

"And next Tuesday."

"Why didn't you say anything yesterday or today?"

"If I'd gone up to you, you'd end up like this in the middle of class or in the hallway."

"You serious?"

"Hn."

"Oh no, you can't go back now!"

"What?"

"Your monotone self, you were just talking to me and it's the longest conversation I've ever held with you."

"Ah."

"I'm serious Sasuke." She said elbowing him on his stomach.

"Fine."

"So what should we do know?"

"Well the way you say it and what you're looking at gives it away."

"Aw man and here I was trying to be discreet about it."

"Discreet? With the way you called out my name?"

Sakura couldn't help but blush. 'Just wait until I tell Ino.'

"I'm sure Ino heard you by now."

"Nah uh, she went out."

"No, she said she'd be outside the apartment, something about staying close incase I tried raping you."

"Stupid Ino, but how did she know we were gonna do this?" Sakura turned looking suspiciously at Sasuke.

"Did I tell you how pretty you are?" Sakura couldn't help but blush. He had obviously changed the subject, but the tone of his voice and his intense eyes told her he wasn't joking.

"Great, now she's gonna publicize that I got laid by Uchiha Sasuke. You know she does go to school with us."

"Yeah she told me. I found it strange, but figured she must have spent the day in some closet with some guy."

"Come on Sasuke, she's not a whore! She's really nice. I've known her since elementary school and...again?"

Sakura couldn't help but voice her question. It seemed Sasuke wanted another round that he hadn't even waited until she finished talking. Instead, he started kissing her neck and his hands started to knead her breast.

Sasuke simply answered her by pushing her onto his lap. "I'll let you be on top." He said with a sly smile, adoring the blush on Sakura's face.

I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know

I finished! Yay! Wow, I was gonna keep going, but I had to end it some time. I didn’t want to end it with the lemon, but I guess I ended it at the start of one. Oh well!

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