|I Wish Part 1
Author: Canadian Phil PM
VIVA LA BAM. Ryan's Note. SLASH. SONG FIC.Rated: Fiction T - English - Angst/Drama - Words: 320 - Favs: 1 - Published: 01-14-07 - Status: Complete - id: 3342384
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To my Dear Friend,
No words can describe my pain right now as I'm writing you this letter. I don't expect you to feel my pain or understand it, but I want to explain it to you.
You knew I loved you, and I knew I loved you, and it hurt me so much to realize you would never love me back. I didn't give up hope though. It was fucking stupid. I realize that you can't convert or change someone overnight, but I just thought…maybe…I don't know. I know we could never be together, and it hurt me so deeply, that I had to do this. PLEASE don't feel guilty, this was my problem. I know I'm being selfish and stupid, but there's no way in hell I could live my life loving you, knowing you would never feel the same.
I want you to know that I love you, and care about you SO much. I want you to forget me, forget how selfish and immature I am. I want you to know that no matter how much of this poison I drink, the taste of your lips will forever linger on my own. I'm sorry I kissed you. I know how badly you wanted to punch me…maybe you should have, I don't know. I'm feeling sicker now, the whole room is spinning and I'm scared. I don't think it will be too much longer now. I heard this song on that country music station when I was driving home this morning. I want you to please listen to it for me. It was called 'I Wish' and it was by a chick named Jo Dee Messina, and this song is exactly how I feel about you. God Tim, I feel so dizzy and sick. I love you Tim.