One of my first stories I uploaded -sigh- used to be 'Death is not painful'...

I reread it and decided to add more!! Since now I do know what it is to lose a loved one.

Slight SasuSaku (when...um..he gives her a 'suprise') (HAHAHAHAHA)

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Hope you like!!

xo Misunderstood Kunoichi ox

However there is a part from Falling up- Falling in Love

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To Guide me, To be with you, That is the meaning of life.

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He is there to guide me

Not cause I cannot see

But for I am lost in the darkness

For I am consumed by sorrow-ness

I love him, my demonangel

I will see him as I close my eyes

For to earth these are my goodbyes

By: xo Misunderstood Kunoichi ox.

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“It's okay Sakura, try again.”

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Sakura's P.O.V.

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His death was nothing. I think I was in a daze, not feeling any pain. I smiled. I laughed. I blushed. Naruto always looked at me worriedly, but everything was normal. Kakashi Hatake. My teacher. My father figure. His funeral came. The same day where his name will be carved in the K.I.A. Stone. I stood there, next to Kurenai. Asuma left her, now Kakashi did to.

“Strong, thoughtful, calm, collected.”

“Father figure to his team.”

“Solo S-Class Mission took his life, but he fought with will, power, and the thoughts of his beloved ones.”

It hit me like bricks. My heart clenched painfully, I couldn't breathe. Dry sobs wracked my body, I trembled. Realization. My tears. They felt like acid running down my cheeks. He was gone. I tried to hold them back, but it didn't work. I felt dizzy, I swayed, my legs felt like they would not hold me any longer. Then I was brought into a warm embrace. Into black. I looked up. Naruto. His soft hyper blue eyes, filled with sadness. Tears drove down the sides of his whisker marked cheeks. I laid my head on his chest. Thump. Thump. Thump. His heart raced. I wrapped my arms around him. And said something I thought I would never say to him.

“Don't cry...please.”

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Blood. My first thought was sadness. Someone might lose a loved one. But the determination, to help this person surive for his family. I ran with speed. Confidence. Power. I stopped at the bloody field, quickly scanning the area for survivors. Stood frozen on my spot. Two young men. One wearing a black coat with red clouds, unmoving. The other with a black outfit, and purple bow, barely moving.

Finally my instincts kicked me in the ass. I ran towards him, carefully putting him on his back. His eyes looked at me, but I ignored him. Concentrating my chakra to my hands, they glowed a bright green. I started on the stomach, where the knife wound was.

“Sakura”

“S-Sakura”

“Sak-Sakura”

He was coughing out blood. I wanted to say stop talking, but once my emerald eyes met his onyx, I couldn't form any words.

“T-Team 7 c-cherry bl-blossom”

I didn't understand what that meant. His cold pale hand slid up to my cheek, and pressed against it.

“I miss you every night, when I close my eyes
You put your feelings down
You stopped your tears you brought me love
You held to my heart
You held with hope to have me near”

Just like that. He let go. His pale hand. So cold. Yet warm. Falling. Thud. I lift my hand. Taking out his hair from his eyes. Closing them. Ne, Sasuke-kun. You got your goal done. I'm proud of you...my love.

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“Sakura-chan, I'll be back soon.”

“Really? You better be safe!”

“Of course, after this misson, Baa-chan will train me to be hokage, DATTEBAYO!!”

“DATTEBAYO!”

“DATTEBAYO!”

“dattebayo!”

“dattebayo...”

You promised. You promised. Now what am I to do? I tried calling you. Screaming out. Everything. Why won't you answer? Did I do something wrong? I'm sorry. Just come back...please.

Why are you laying down there? Small brown bedding, carved wood. Why are you so cold? I don't remember you catching one. So pale...have you gotten you're daily sun yet? Not moving, not

breathing...you didn't choke on your ramen again right? You gave me a scare back then.

One.

Two.

Three.

That's all I need. Three.

So many tears to shed, like acid. Ripping through my heart. I bow my head...broken promises. Yet I still smile.

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“Poor girl, all her teamates are gone.”

“I know, she looks lifeless.”

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“It's okay Sakura, try again.”

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“Sakura-chan, I'll be back soon.”

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“T-Team 7 c-cherry bl-blossom”

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This is what it comes down to, ne? You there. Me here. I missed you so much. I cried my eyes out, yet nothing came out. I feel numb. So numb. Like being stuck out in a blizzard.

I'm going to come to see you boys. My boys. I took this mission for you. I know I can't take Pein, on. But at least I can try.

Don't worry, boys. It won't hurt. His katana is so near me, slashing. I felt numb long ago, stop worrying!

Cough.

Drip.

Drip.

Cough.

Am I going to see you? Would this be considered a heavenly punishment? Or demonic torture?

I want badly to be up there with you.

I took this suicide mission for my village, would that count?

I really hope so.

You know why?

Because I miss you.

My boys.