Disclaimer: I don’t own X-men or Marvel. I just wish I did. Then I could make Jonda canon.

Summary: Kind of a follow up to He Doesn’t Understand, but this time it’s in Wanda’s point of view. There are various references to my fic, The Scorned in this. Jonda

If The World Made Sense

If the world made sense, I wouldn’t be dating St. John Allerdyce. Though, if the world made sense my father wouldn’t have abandoned me at an insane asylum when I was a kid, then force someone to completely alter my memories. Then my brother wouldn’t have let him get away with it, and I wouldn’t be able to hex people around like I do (which would be a down point. Hexing people into walls is easier than dealing with them). A lot of things would be different if the world made sense, but it doesn’t, and sometimes I don’t know how I feel about that.

I could look at it from all different points of view, really. I could see the world through the eyes of my friends, my teammates. I know they think I’m a little bit unstable, and they’re right. I am. I’m angry, and I’m bitter, and I still hurt from things that happened years ago. I should really get over it, but I can’t.

Okay, back to the idiot I’m dating.

He’s crazy. Well, crazy might be an understatement. He’s obsessed with fire, and obsessed with me, and I never know how to feel about that. He will tell me he loves me more than fire, and though it’s a compliment, it’s a strange one. I have never known what to say when he tells me that.

Though, when concerning John, things are never normal. If they were normal, I’d probably lose it (when did I have it?). I’m not normal and neither is he. Our life isn’t normal. Nothing about us is normal. And though it’s messed up, and he can make me so angry, I wouldn’t change it.

Okay, so maybe my relationship with him isn’t exactly healthy, and we’re always getting caught doing things. He also told everyone in my damn house that he calls me his fire princess of doom, of which, my friends will now tease me about. They just don’t understand.

Sage, of course, would try to look at us logically. I know she thinks we make no sense, and she’s not wrong. Even I know that nothing about me dating John can be logically explained. Betsy would look at us in a different way. She teases, she knows, and she insinuates things. She thinks we are together for lustful reasons. She’s not wrong, but she’s not right either.

Domino might think we’re just both insane, so we belong together. She’s not mistaken either. John and I are quite unstable people, but it might be that reason that draws us together so intensely. Rogue probably compares it to her relationship with Remy, and though that’s a bit farfetched, it makes a little sense. We both date former Acolytes who annoy us to no end when they want to. I think, out of anyone, Rogue is the one who would understand us the most.

However, even she cannot make logical sense of it.

Lorna has the same point of view as Domino does. I know she feels that way. I don’t think she trusts John all that much, either. I don’t blame her. I don’t like her boyfriend, and she doesn’t like mine. It’s just an overprotective sibling act of ours. Even though she could care less about John, she knows we’re good together, and she’s admitted it before.

Finally, there’s X. I know exactly how X feels about me and John. She’s made it vocal many times. She hates John and wants him to move out. He annoys her, and she has little patience for his antics (really, besides me, who out there does?) She is always threatening him, telling me to get someone new. X-23 doesn’t understand us at all. Though, she’s got that messed up thing with Pietro, so she can’t really talk.

All of these are valid points of view. I could add in some more, like how Nathan or Gambit think about the John and Wanda relationship. I’ve never really talked to Nathan, so I’m not sure how he feels about it. He probably would agree with Domino and Lorna on the topic. And Gambit, I’m sure he has a little bit of the Betsy and something similar to the Rogue perspective.

But, it doesn’t matter what all these people think. I mean, if it were up to them I think me and John would have broken up awhile ago. They might be my friends and my teammates, but I could care less what they thought about my boyfriend. I don’t care if that sounds rude. I am rude.

The truth is that you can’t look at our relationship logically. It’s near impossible and you’ll basically lose your mind if you try to figure it out. I should know. I have tried to. You also cannot say that the whole relationship is based on lust. It’s not. Though, it is there. You’d know it if you walked in on us enjoying ourselves, like a few have in the past. Actually, that was how Rogue found out about us. We have our games, and we have our fun. It just adds to our relationship, but it doesn’t make it.

We both have our insanity, there’s no denying that. John’s very obsessed with his fire creating, and I lived in an asylum most of my life. I have anger problems, and I can get depressed very easily these days. He’s a fire starter that will cackle at the highest flame, twisting it and moving it to his own desire. This adds to the relationship as well. We’re both so unstable at times, that the only thing that can stabilize us is each other. Hah, I’d like to see Sage make sense of that.

Yeah, John used to work for my father, and he used to be friends with my brother. I know this. I’m not stupid. I know he played a part in my little memory wipe. And though I have yet to forgive my family for that, I forgave him. Some people might think that’s weird. Hell, John thinks it’s weird. Though, I can actually explain this. I didn’t know John. I just knew he worked for my father. He wasn’t my boyfriend then, and he didn’t become that until long after I got my real memories back. He had a job to do, and he did it. He didn’t care about me then, he was just doing what he was told. And though it still hurts a small bit, I do forgive him for what happened. He was different then. Everything was different then.

Sometimes, I’m amazed at how well I tolerate John. I know he can be annoying. Hell, he always annoys me. Yet, I smile, insult him and it ends up with a kiss of some sort.

Hm, I don’t think I like the word tolerate. I take that back. I don’t tolerate him. I accept him for who he is, and love him for it. I don’t want him to change.

Love? Well, that’s a word the Scarlet Witch used to ignore. I used to be in such denial, pretend that I didn’t feel for him. Though, when I kept going to find him, kept hanging around him, even I couldn’t deny it anymore. And then I didn’t. I accepted how I felt, even if I won’t talk about it to anyone but him.

Still, how I even started liking him is a mystery to me. He annoyed me, followed me everywhere. He showed up everywhere I went, and even popped into my bedroom one morning. That last one really pissed me off. It was early morning, and I couldn’t yell or hex him into anything. It would wake someone up, and then they’d know. Oh, he used to piss me off like that every day.

Now, though he can irritate me, he doesn’t exactly piss me off so much that I’m fuming. He makes me feel so great, after I’ve felt so horrible. He puts a smile on my face, and his touch can make my emotions just overflow, almost as if they are coating my skin. He can change my feelings so instantly. How does he do it? I have no idea.

I like that too.

If the world made sense, John wouldn’t be my boyfriend, and all those reasons wouldn’t even exist. And though my childhood would probably have been a lot more pleasant, and my family wouldn’t be a bunch of power crazed, cowardice lunatics, I don’t think I want the world to make sense. No, I don’t want the world to make sense. It’s better this way, better with John.

So what if the world doesn’t make sense. I’m perfectly fine with that.

A/N: Wow, I’m on a Jonda rush. Yeah, had to have a few Scorned bits in here I was guna make it just like the previous oneshot, but then this happened. I’d like to thank everyone who reviewed He Doesn’t Understand. Hah, hope everyone liked this one and please review.