Tell Him I Died, a Buffy: The Vampire Slayer fanfic

Authors Note: The two songs in here are Avril Lavigne "Slipping Away" and "Broken" By Seether feat. Amy Lee of evanescence.

This is the rest of it. I went and read it all and i just realized that I use to be a horrible writer. LOL. So if you hate this i dont blame you guys. Even though it started from a great dream it turned into this. Anyway. So here it is.

Epilogue:

The funeral for Buffy was a horrible and sad one. Spike wouldn’t even speak. Joyce and Rupert had the twins most of the time. Except when Seth would cry so bad that Joyce would scream William and Spike would have to care for his son. Spike just couldn’t accept it. They had been so happy. He had…he loved her so much. And in their stupid wishes to have the babies he had lost the most important thing to him. His wife, his best friend, his lover, his world was taken from him the ay his son and daughter were born. Spike was sitting in the lounge listening to the radio when he decided to talk to Buffy. "Buffy…love why did you leave me? God pet, I miss you so much. It feels like this huge chunk of my heart has just been ripped out and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. And it bloody well sucks. I didn’t even get to say good bye to you." Spike said as he put his head in his hands and cried. As he did this a song came on the radio and the first few words caught his attention.

Na Na

Na Na Na

I miss you

I miss you so bad

I don’t forget you

Oh it’s so sad.

As soon as Spike heard that he decided to get up and turn up the radio and listen to the whole song.

I hope you can hear me

I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away

Was the day I found

It wont be the same

Na Na

Na Na Na Na

I didn’t get around to kiss you

Goodbye on the hand

I wish that I could see you again

I know that I cant

I hope you can hear me

Cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away

Was the day I found

It won’t be the same

I had my wake up

Won’t you wake up

I keep asking why

And I can’t take it

It wasn’t fake

It happened you passed by

Now you’re gone

There you go

Somewhere I can’t bring you back

Now you’re gone

There you go

Somewhere you’re not coming back

The day you slipped away

Was the day I found

It won’t be the same

Na Na

Na Na Na Na Na

I miss you

By the time Joyce came in with Alexia, Spike was in tears. Joyce gave Alexia to Xander and hugged Spike. "Oh William…I know…it’s ok…just let it out." Joyce said as she rubbed his back.

"It isn’t fair…she was mine…my wife and they took her away…it’s not fair…I don’t want to be alone anymore. I want her back Joyce…I need her…I can’t live without her." Spike said as she held him.

"William." Joyce said as he looked up. "Buffy loved you so much. And she wanted to have the babies more than anything. I know it hurts and it’s hard. But you still have her. In these two children you still have her…you have to take care of your children William." Joyce said as she smiled at him. "Buffy wouldn’t have it any other way." Joyce said as she got up and went to get Alexia and Seth. She handed both of the kids to Spike and left the room.

Spike looked down at the two babies looking up at him. "Ello there you two. I’m your dad. That means you have mind me…" Spike said as he looked at Alexia. "You look just like your mum. Speaking of your mum…you two want me to tell you a little bit about her?" Spike said as his eyes filled with tears. "Ok then…your mum was the most beautiful woman in the world…or well at least to me. She never really believed me though. You know your mum was a stubborn little chit." Spike said as he began to tell his two children all about their mother.

Time had gone by real slow for Spike. It had been 14 years since Buffy’s death. And still he couldn’t shake all the memories of it. "Dad!" Seth yelled from the living room.

"What?" Spike asked as he walked to the living room.

"Lexi and I are going to Aunt Willow’s. We’ll see you later." Seth said, as he was getting ready to leave.

"Ok." Spike said as Lexi ran up to him.

"Bye daddy. I’ll see you later." Spike smiled and kissed her forehead.

"Bye love. Be good." Lexi nodded and left with her brother. Spike went back in his room and put his seether cd in his cd player. He put on his favorite song and lay on his bed.

I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh

I wanna hold you tight and steal your pain away

I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

Spike listened to the words as they came from the speakers. He reached for Buffy’s picture and began to sing to it.

Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome

And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

You’ve gone away. You don’t feel me anymore

Spike sat on the edge of the bed as Buffy sat next to him. Spike looked over, "Buffy." She smiled and began to sing.

The worst is over now an we can breath again

I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away

There’s so much left to learn and no one left to fight

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Spike smiled and began to sing with her.

Cause I’m broken when I’m open

And I don’t feel like I am strong enough

Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome

And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

Spike stopped singing and stared at her beautiful hazel eyes.

You’ve gone away; you don’t feel me here anymore.

The cd clicked off and Buffy smiled at Spike. "Hello Lover." Buffy said. Spike smiled back at her "God pet. I’ve missed you so much." Spike said with tears in his eyes. "I know that’s why I’m here, to see you. Spike I know these past 14 years have pretty much sucked. And I’m not saying the next will be any better. I hate that we were only together for 8 years. That makes me so mad sometimes. But I still love you. And one day we’ll be together again." Buffy said as she kissed him on the forehead. "No Buffy please don’t leave." Spike said as he jumped up. "I never will Spike." Buffy said as she stared at the picture of the twins. "I’m always here, in them. I love you Spike." She said as she turned to him. "Goodbye my William." She said as she disappeared. "Goodbye Buffy." Spike said.

"Dad! Wake up. We’re leaving." Seth said as he shook his dad awake. Spike looked around and realized it’d been a dream. But he ha finally gotten his goodbye and there was all that mattered to him.

A/N: I hope you liked that. I worked so hard on it. I had a dream about me and my boyfriend and my friends. And this was it. I decided that I could write a story about it and make it spuffy and I guess I succeeded. I got two awards for it and best work in progress from my friend's site. I hope you enjoyed it. And I’m sorry it wasn’t the happy ending you expected.-

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