Disclaimer:All characters and original storyline belong to Rumiko Takahashi, so I, Kaiya, do not own InuYasha

Summary: One question sparks a deep conversation with Kagome and Sesshomaru...Why does Asa want to kill InuYasha particularly on the might of the New Moon? Will Sesshomaru reveal everything to Kagome in order to save his half brother? Or is it for his once lover from over eighty years ago? Or just maybe...It's for another reason...

I n u Y a s h a

The Daughter of Darkness

By Kaiya

Chapter Nineteen

"Forbidden Reason"

“Just a little longer...” The darkness in Asa’s evil voice pierced through the dawning sun.

“Damn you InuYasha. I can still feel his presence. Risa wasn’t able to kill him.” She turned around and looked at her remaining parts.

“Only you, Kyoko and Kazuo remain.” Asa looked at her rugged clothes.

“It looks to me like Risa and Ritsuka weren’t able to survive.” Asa glared at the sky.

“See? I told you so Kazuo! They were useless. I should’ve killed them from the start!” Kyoko’s cockiness kicked in.

Kazuo only shrugged and shook his head.

“What are you smirking at?!” Kyoko glared at him.

“Nothing really. It’s just...Nevermind.” He gave a sly smile.

“Somehow I feel as if you have something planned Kazuo.” Asa looked at him.

“You don’t plan on betraying us, do you?” She gave him an impatient glare.

“Betraying you? Why would I? I am of no use to you and yet you’re worried that I would betray you?” Kazuo gave a smart remark.

“I don’t take you for a smart one. Being a Priest of Mercy and all.” Kyoko smirked.

“Don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere.” He shrugged.

“Good...” Asa walked up on a hill.

“Now that Risa and Ritsuka are dead and weren‘t able to kill InuYasha...We have no choice but to go ahead with the final step in our plan.” Asa looked at a passing cloud.

“What would that be Sister Asa?” Kyoko gave an evil smile, then glared at Kazuo.

“Wait until the New Moon. I’ve decided. Let’s make InuYasha suffer. Along with Kikyo.” Asa smiled and turned to them.

“More fun.” Kyoko laughed. Kazuo crossed his arms and looked at the sun rising.

“Like I said...Just a little longer.” With Asa’s words, her, Kyoko, and Kazuo disappeared into the skies.

XxXxX

Meanwhile, Kaede was packing up her bow and arrows as Myoga waited on her shoulder.

“My lady. They said a strange masacre occured during early this morning!” A young man came into Kaede’s room.

“Invoving whom, might I ask ye.” Kaede’s eyes grew wide.

“A demon!” He yelled.

“Oh my...Thank ye young one.” She took out some beads.

“This braclet.” She whispered.

“What is that?” Asked Myoga.

“My sister Kikyo beaded this years ago. She said that she’d give it to the one she loved most. Is she were to ever have a daughter or son, then that’s who she would give it to.” Kaede hid the braclet in her sleeve.

“Oh my...I could feel a small aura coming from it!” Myoga jumped up and down.

“That’s because she sealed it with a Sacred Aura. It is said to purify a shadowed soul. But only a little.” Explained Kaede.

“I see!” Myoga smiled.

“And you plan on giving it back to your sister for proof that she had a daughter?” He asked.

“Yes...But...” Kaede walked out of the Inn.

“When Sister Kikyo was resurrected, she’s never--in my time I’ve spent with her after her resurrection--mentioned anything about her birthing a baby. So I decided to keep it a secret.” Kaede began to walk to where the masacred village was located.

“I have heard stories that if a woman births a half demon girl they die afterwards. I am guessing that’s what really caused Kikyo’s death.” Said Myoga.

“That is what has been said. But before my sister died...She gave me this braclet she had beaded herself. I should have told her when she stayed with me several nights back.” Kaede gave a guilty look in her eyes.

“What matters is that you’re on your way to tell her now! Once we find her!” Myoga jumped up.

“I just hope that...The news won’t pain her too much.” Yet Kaede’s words were only wandering wishes.

She continued onward, wondering what the future held.

XxXxX

It’s really quiet. Kagome quickly glanced over at Sesshomaru. Then again, that’s all thanks to Sesshomaru. Why is he always quiet? She asked herself. She hugged her legs and snuggled up against the wall. Sesshomaru remained laying on the pillows.

“It’s getting dark...” Sesshomaru muttered out of the darkened blue.

“You actually talked!” Kagome smiled. He gave her a quick glare.

“Sorry.” She giggled.

“What I mean is...Look out the window.” He pointed behind her. She turned to where his finger was pointing.

“Oh...Yeah it is.” Then she realized something.

“The days seem to be going faster? I notice it now. But why are the days going faster?” Kagome stood up.

“A Dark Priestess, such as Asa, has the ability to make days shorter and nights longer.” His eyes remained closed.

“But why in the world would Asa want to do that?!” Kagome sat back down and waited for his answer.

“The night of the New Moon. That is when InuYasha becomes full human is it not?” He asked.

“Yeah but--hold up a minute. That night when InuYasha first ran away was the last night of the New Moon. And the next New Moon is approaching. So Asa must want InuYasha to be a human right? The only questin is why?" Kagome shot questions at Sesshomaru.

“So she can torture him.” His voice gave a shiver down Kagome’s back.

“Torture?” Kagome’s voice cracked at the thought of poor InuYasha getting beaten...As a helpless human.

“I’m only going to tell this once human.” He glared at her. A strange feeling began to well up in his heart. What was this emotion? Why was he telling Kagome, a mere human, all of this?

“That Dark Priestess called Asa...She kidnapped Rin and Jaken. Just to get me to help her with her dirty work.” Sesshomaru stood up and walked a little closer to Kagome.

“You mean...You were forced to fight?” Kagome blankly asked.

“Correct...But I only did it for--” He looked down at the floor. Kagome finished for him.

“Rin?” She smiled. He gave her a strange look. Not a glare. But a strange look.

What’s this that I’m sensing from Sesshomaru? Isn’t he suppose to be cold hearted and mean? Yet inward about his own feelings?

“You could say that. But there’s something else.” Why am I telling this useless human all of this? Is it not because of this human appearance? Could it be affecting the way I act? Sesshomaru thought some. Then he glanced at Kagome.

“Something else?” Kagome asked.

“Yes...” But it seemed that Sesshomaru couldn’t continue. All of Sesshomaru's feelings some how...Were becoming altered inside of his soul...Then his heart began to race.

"Damn it..." He glared at the cieling, then at Kagome. Kagome was a little startled by the kind look in his eyes.

"Sesshomaru?" She tilted her head and gave a questioning look at him. What's this in his eyes? He seems so pure...His human form is almost...Gentle...No, scratch that. It is gentle. Could it be this barrier that is affecting him? Could it be that he is now able to show his emotions more clearly than that of his full demon form? Could be but...It's all so...Strange to me...

"Sesshomaru...Are you able to show and tell how you feel?" Kagome asked out of nowhere. He slowly stood up and glared at her. A million thoughts raced through his head as his palms began to grew hot and his breathing felt more difficult to do.

"InuYasha is in danger...That much you know...But so is his once lover Kikyo...You are her riencarnation...There is a possibility that...That--" Sesshomaru looked away as his voice began to grow more and more gentle and open hearted than before in his demon self. Kagome seemed to notice also. She set her hand to her heart and thought of InuYasha. Somehow...Memories of that night him and Kikyo shared came to mind...That dream she had when Asa was gazing into her soul...So painful to her...

Kagome couldn't seem to think clearly anymore...Her mind was in a daze as she soon realized how much pain she was in. Before, she could brush it off since she was talking to Sesshomaru...But now...It was unbearable...

"Sesshomaru...You seem to have something on your mind, don't you? I can see it in your eyes...Is there something that's pained you in your past?" Kagome's words seemed to faze him deeply...He began to melt into a memory...Yet somehow...He spoke those memorie out loud and clearly to Kagome.

“Long ago...I had strange feelings for a Light Priestess by the name of Anza Kirihara. I would do anything for her...I felt so...complete when I was with her...And then...She wanted to have a child with mer. Somehow...This sparked an idea for me and Anza. She wanted all humans to be safe away from evil demons. We did figure out a spell for this...I was full demon...She was a Light Priestess...But--" Sesshomaru looked away from Kagome...He was unable to look her in the eye.

Kagome's hear lurched. She thought of Kikyo and InuYasha's child...Asa.

"Then you truly did have a child?" Kagome asked as her eyes began to tear up.

"Correct..." Sesshomaru closed his eyes.

"And because InuYasha is half demon and Kikyo is a Priestess...Their child ended up a dangerous Dark Priestess?" Kagome asked, knowing well what Sesshomaru went through. He continued.

"Anza had a child...But because I didn't know any better...Her child was a girl and Anza was killed by her own child...Because the baby was a half demon." Somehow, Kagome was at least able to figure out some of his story too...Knowing everything was taking place now...Then it dawned on Kagome...How stupid could I get? She thought.

Myoga visited them not too far back!

"That's it! The castle for humans! The untold legend of a demon man and a Light Priestess! The Legend of the Age of Darkness! Everything's become so clear to me now! Sesshomaru...You're the legend? The Age of Darkness was almost achieved way back." Kagome's eyes were wide...Her face was so close to Sesshomaru's he had to back off.

"Myoga told you didn't he...Hm...What a flea..." He hissed underneath his breath.

"Then we can save InuYasha!" Kagome smiled as tears streamed down her cheeks. But Sesshomaru looked away.

"I'm afraid everything is too deep to save now...Because...Anza's child had fits and uncontrollable tantrums at a young age. Her half demon nature would become a full demon on the night of the New Moon. I couldn't even help her after she killed an entire village." His words scared Kagome some.

"Tell me Sesshomaru...Why was she like that? Even though she was half demon? Was she a Dark Priestess like Asa?" Kagome asked.

"She was not...She assumed Anza, her mother, abandoned her and left her with me...Her father...You are a female...You would be lonely without a mother would you not?" Sesshomaru asked.

"Actually yes...Every girl needs a mother to turn to...Asa's mother--" Then Kagome stopped.

"Kikyo..." Kagome closed her eyes...Realizing Kikyo died because of Asa, she was able to figure it out now.

"Now I rememer...Yes Kikyo didn't know about Asa. But Asa knew about Kikyo and now she thinks Kikyo abandoned her. Stupid me! That's the legend right? You're the legend." Kagome hit herself in the head.

"Yes...But Anza's child...She too wanted to create an Age of Darkness, what Asa's attempting to do." He walked over to a window and gazed at the dark sky, remembering his own flesh and blood's fate.

"I killed her..." He whispered, barely for Kagome to hear.

"Killed who?" She asked.

"My daughter of darkness...Dawn...That's when she was born...The incantation does not work on Asa...Yet it worked on my daughter...Somehow...That's the only part that confuses me." He gazed into Kagome's eyes.

"You killed your daughter? In order to stop her?" Kagome asked again.

"I did...But I didn't do it out of knowledge. I had to ask around and the rumor was that saying 'Born at Dawn' kills half demon females. But like I said, it confuses me that Asa cannot be killed by those words." He finished and looked away as he walked to sit on the pillows again.

"Sesshomaru..." Kagome felt sorry for him...How much pain he's endured.

"You've been hurt haven't you?" Kagome asked. He only looked at her for a brief moment and looked down. His emotions began to get the best of him. He began to think the forbidden in his thoughts.

Her eyes are as brown as Anza's...And her hair as dark as the night...So much alike...For many meetings we have encountered...Those are the meetings that have taken my breath away. No matter if I was fighting my half brother...I would always be destracted by her...Kagome...The one who would always be beside InuYasha...

Damned human emotions...This barrier is able to make me think forbidden thoughts...

Sesshomaru shook his head and looked at Kagome staring out the window.

Her delicate skin...So soft to the touch...Her silky hair...Somehow, in my countless battles with InuYasha, I was never really able to kill him...Was it because I was afraid of hurting that girl...Kagome...

A forbidden reason...That is why I walk a lonely journey...That is why I still breathe in this world even after Naraku was supposidly destroyed...That is why...Because of...you Kagome...

Sesshomaru slowly stood up and walked over to Kagome...Something came over him that he normally wouldn't do as a full demon.

"Kagome..." He whispered.

"Yeah?" She cluelessly looked up at his ocean blue eyes...His long black hair...She could finally see the true Sesshomaru...The human Sesshomaru...The one who would stack over any boy Kagome's ever come in contact with. No...Calling Sesshomaru a "boy" was an insult to anybody...Compared to InuYasha...He was a man...A mature full demon man who was the only beautiful man in the whole entire world.

The one whom many would refer to as Lord Sesshomaru...The one who saved Rin...His newly daughter figure...The one who saved Jaken...His servant...Why did he let those two follow him around? Because he was Sesshomaru...He was kind hearted and the way he was...Keeping deep in thought and inward emotions due to his lost lover, Anza...Then something whispred into Sesshomaru's thoughts.

"I am here when you need me Sesshomaru...Never forget our love...But please...I want you to be happy. There's an opportunity here. Move on...I want you to love again...Don't be afraid of your emotions."

The voice in his mind...It was Anza's voice...Her soft voice...Sesshomaru blinked...Then he talked back in his mind.

"But...You're the one I'll always think about..." He said in his mind.

"Yes My Sesshomaru...But you need to move on...Don't be foolish like your half brother InuYasha. I've seen how he is...He can't seem to let go of Kikyo. She just happens to be alive...Yet she needs to crossover. Otherwise, she'll live out a miserable life...Please move on...Show your brother you can move on. Even though he's stubborn, he'll always carry the burden of Kikyo, and he'll be stuck in the past forver." Anza's eyes came to Sesshomaru's mind as she spoke to him in mind.

That's when he was finally able to realize what he felt...For Kagome...

"Thank you Anza...I'll always remember you...I am able to move on now that I've heard your words..." He gave a small nod in his mind to Anza's voice.

"Now is the time to pass on...I will crossover now that I know who you really chose. Just remember...My love...I will always be watching over you, helping you...So don't be so quiet all the time...I want you to find happiness...And that's in your true feelings...This Priestess, Kagome...The time will come, when the Sacred Light needs to emerge with a greater Sacred Light to recreate a larger power."

That last part sort of confused Sesshomaru. But he didn't question it.

"Goodbye my Anza Kirihara...I will remember you...Crossover now...Rest easy..." He gave a small smile and looked at Kagome.

"Um...Sesshomaru? You were just standing there looking into the distance for a while...You okay?" Kagome questioned as she selflessly set her hand on his forehead. She could feel a calm and gentle presence emitting from his eyes.

"You're the reason..." He whispered again to her.

"I'm the reason? Reason for what?" She asked again...

With that, Sesshomaru slowly raised his hand to her face. Chills ran down Kagome's back. Her face grew hot.

"Sesshomaru...?" She blinked some.

"Kagome...You're my reason for life. The reason I go on..." He quietly, yet shyly stated. Kagome was speechless...She had no idea what was going on...A new part of her began to emerge.

"Forget the pain...Forget those hurtful memories...What you feel for InuYasha isn't complete is it?" He asked her straight out. Kagome thought for a second. What was Sesshomaru getting at? Was he...Telling her to forget InuYasha?

"Giving time is what it's about...Think about it...You're my forbidden reason for living." Sesshomaru took his hand away and began to walk slowly away and he looked out another small window. Kagome slowly sat to her knees.

What just happened? What was that about? Is this a dream? Thought Kagome...Maybe it was a dream...But dreams don't feel this hot...

Yet what was Sesshomaru trying to convey? His feelings...?