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Chapter 9 lost confessions
Kagome didn’t know what was happening; all she wanted was for the pain to stop, her heart throbbed. She felt sesshomaru’s hands tighten around her. She peered at her brother’s angered and shocked expression. Confusion washed over her as she glanced between the two. Then it hit her.
“Souta, you can see him…” Souta didn’t bother looking her way instead his hard hazel eyes were stuck on Sesshomaru.
“Get you’re fucking hands off my sister.” Kagome was shocked beyond comparison she never heard Souta even insist on saying those words in front of her. She could feel the growl that was boiling inside Sesshomaru. Souta took a step toward them and Sesshomaru acted on instinct jerking her back on the bed and standing protectively in front of her. It was then that Sesshomaru released a hostile growl.
“She belongs to me.” Sesshomaru growled out. Souta clenched his hands together and gritted his teeth. Kagome was shaking now. She was afraid of what the outcome was if these two fought. Her eyes were wide with disbelieve.
‘How can this be happening?! How can Souta see him? What the hell is going on!’ she placed her hands over her ears as she tried desperately to keep herself from hyperventilating.
“Kagome is my sister, my blood sister; there is nothing you can do to keep me from saving her. I will not have her dammed by the likes of you!” Souta growled out. He took another step towards the bed when Sesshomaru growled again.
“She is intended for me, regardless of blood bonds.” Souta growled deep in his chest and released his aura; it caused Sesshomaru to growl as it washed over him causing his hair to fly about his form. Sesshomaru released his. The two auras clashed against each other. Kagome began panting. She was going to crack soon. Souta took another step and so did Sesshomaru. They were standing close, only a five foot space separated them.
“If I ever see you near her again I will personally tear you apart.” Sesshomaru smirked and turned his back on Souta. When he looked down on kagome fear replaced the smug expression in his eyes. He went to reach for her.
“NO!” Souta yelled out. Kagome screamed and smacked Sesshomaru’s hand away. Her eyes were dilated and wild with indecision. Sesshomaru snaked his hand back as if he touched poison. Souta raced past him and shoved him out of the way. He cradled kagome in his arms despite Sesshomaru’s growls. Souta shot a glance at him then placed his hand on kagome’s head. She began to calm down.
“Souta?” she whispered. He nodded and smiled down at her. She snuggled closer into his chest. Her eyes caught with Sesshomaru’s and she smiled.
“sorry.” He only glanced at her then back to Souta. Souta tightened his jaw as he glared at Sesshomaru.
“What are you waiting for? You can go back to your doll house now.” Sesshomaru bit back a growl.
“Watch your tongue human; your presence is already annoying.” Souta laughed once it was a bitter hateful laugh.
“Hardly, i live here I know all about you lord of dogs, you can’t touch me, you have no power. Your threats are empty.” Sesshomaru growled. The tinges of red that surrounded his ready blackened eyes grew nearly taking over their blackened depths. Souta caught this. His eyes narrowed.
“So you are going to let your rage take you over? I thought you were over that oh mighty lord, have I upset you so much by telling you the truth that you refuse to believe? Kagome and I share a much greater bond than you think.” He looked down on kagome’s sleeping face. She had grown too tired from her dream and her initial shock. Souta gently placed her back into bed and pulled the blanket when he was done he turned to glare at Sesshomaru.
“Kagome is…different. When Taru died she went into a fit of depression, she constantly had nightmares about that day and would wake the whole house with her screams. I know she tells you everything but she never even told you anything about herself. Kagome never likes to hinder anybody. She is always throwing herself in front of danger to save others instead of herself. Her heart is fragile she never truly got over his death as easily as one should; she has formed a bond between the two of you mostly because you remind her of Taru. Our father had an attitude much like yours his face never showed any emotion not even with his own family present. But then kagome came and he threw away that mask. They were inseparable, so when the accident happened kagome just crumbled.” He turned his eyes on Sesshomaru who was standing in the same position. His eyes had long since returned to their onyx hue and they seemed to be lost between confusion and understanding. He then gave his attention to Souta.
“I am well aware of her emotional state, this is not the first time she has shed tears in my presence.” Souta gritted his teeth and flexed his hands to keep them from grabbing Sesshomaru.
“You…are so…” Souta took careful labored breaths. When he was sure he was under control he glared at Sesshomaru.
“I hope she kills you…” the comment caught Sesshomaru off guard and he stared at Souta waiting for an excuse.
“I’ve done a little research of my own. If kagome ever finds out about your past life and what you did to Airi she will have so much hate for you it will kill you.” Sesshomaru’s eyes widened by a fraction then lowered to slits as he released a feral growl.
“I could have told kagome the very day she told me about you, I could have let your secrete out a long time ago to save my sister from the pain, but I thought you would heal her heart. It’s obvious to me that you are using her to free yourself. Tell me what do you plan to do when she does find that body?” Souta glanced back to Kagome and noticed she had turned around facing the wall. When Souta turned to Sesshomaru he was gone. Instead he heard growling and then he was flown across the room. He landed in kagome’s bed nearly crushing her. He took a wary glance towards her and noted she was just starting to wake. He crawled to her.
“M…Souta?” she turned her head.
“Kagome its ok, go back to sleep.” She turned her head as exhaustion took her. Souta hopped off the bed with grace and growled. He wiped the small trail of blood from the corner of his mouth and smirked.
“At least you know how to throw a punch.” Souta smirked and lunged at Sesshomaru knocking him into the center of the room. Souta’s fist collided with Sesshomaru’s jaw. Sesshomaru caught his fist and squeezed. Souta used his other hand to grab kagome’s small dresser side lamp and hold it over his head. He brung it down with all his force toward Sesshomaru’s head and a sickening snap echoed throughout the room.
“S…” she stopped short not knowing which S to call. She shook her head and placed the palm of her hand on her forehead and it spun slightly. She got up from the bed and nearly tripped on something on her floor. She looked down and saw her lamp at the tip of her toes. She glanced around the room again and then back to the lamp. The house was an eerie quiet and a cold shiver racked her frame. She walked quietly from her room to stand in front of Souta’s. She held up her hand as if to knock but slowly brought it down to her side. She clasped the doorknob and opened his door. She poked her head in and found that his room was empty.
She turned and walked downstairs. She was expecting to smell her mothers breakfast cooking and coffee, instead she only smelt house. She walked into the desolate kitchen and sighed.
‘They must have left.’ The phone rang then and she jumped. She picked it up. She was greeted by her mother’s frantic voice.
“Kagome! Thank goodness! I’ve been calling for the past hour!” the urgency in her mother’s voice had her worried.
“Mom calm down what’s wrong?” she asked flying up the stairs to gather her bathing supplies.
“I’m at the hospital with Souta! Honey he broke his wrist!” kagome nearly dropped the phone.
“Mom what happened?” in the background she could hear Souta trying to calm her mother down. Kagome fumed.
“Mom put Souta on the phone… please.” She sighed as she heard the muffled voices of her mother telling Souta to be careful of his hand. She heard his voice then, it sounded strained and tired.
“Kagome…” she heard him sigh over the phone.
“Look I’m sorry.” Her eyes widened.
“What are you talking about?” she gripped the phone to her ear.
“Kagome I know you remember what happened last night.” He was speaking softly almost whispering. There was silence for a while before the flashes of last night rushed past her.
“Kagome?” her knuckles had gone white from holding the phone so hard.
“I’m here, I remember.” She uttered.
“And you do remember me seeing him…right?” kagome realized then that she was standing in the middle of the hall upstairs.
“yes.” She whispered.
“Ok, you were exhausted and went back to sleep…something else happened after…” kagome realized she was crying.
“Oh no, no, Souta tell me you didn’t…” she heard him sigh over the phone then heard her mother’s soft distant voice asking if his wrist hurt.
“No kagome I didn’t, but he did, the bastard broke my fucking hand!!! Every finger damn there is broken including my wrist...i managed a few good shots actually.” Kagome could feel his hatred through the phone. There was a brief pause and the sound of the nurse. A few muffled comments made by her mother and the sound of fabric. He returned then.
“Kagome we are on our way back to the house, I recommend you miss school today, later.” He hung up. The click was sudden, she stood there in the middle of the hall with wide eyes and the phone still pressed tightly to her ear. She slowly unclenched her fingers careful to not make it drop. She clicked the phone off and tugged into her room. She kicked the lamp aside and stopped. When she looked up he was standing there nearly in front of her. She took a step back. His eyes hardened.
“Why?” was all she asked she looked in his blackened eyes then and gasped, Right above his left eye was an ugly purple blotch. It wasn’t swollen but it contrasted sharply against the paleness of his skin. She was a bit taken back then understood with a glance to the lamp.
“Kagome…” his voice was strange to her, like it was foreign. She couldn’t understand why.
“Souta looses his temper around others he doesn’t know so well…even so…” she touched the mark then drew her hand back.
“You had no reason to break his hand. My mother is so distraught I thought Souta was dead. You can’t harm my family.” She whispered her anger was building slowly. He snorted.
“He said something that unnerved me, I simply solved the problem, you should be thankful I didn’t snap his neck.” There was a silence so strong she felt drowned in it, no matter what she wanted to say right now, her mind was at an automatic shut down. Tears leaked from her eyes as she blinked them away.
“Sesshomaru…” she held her head down. He raised his hand to touch her cheek but she shook her head and stammered away. He realized only then that he made a fatal mistake. She was staring at him with wide brown eyes. The tears glistened on her reddened cheeks.
“Sesshomaru…I’ll still find your body but after then…I…” she looked at him then and he inwardly staggered. Her eyes and reddened cheeks reminded him of the little girl he traveled with. The one he lost to his egotistical side on that day he was sealed. He noticed then that her voice was so low and crushed that he had to strain to hear.
“I…want you to leave…to forget about me.” her comment rocked him and their eyes collided. Nothing was said, the birds chirped happily outside her window and the sound of a car door slamming was heard. He made a move toward her but she backed away again. Her eyes caught with the doll on her dresser.
“I’ll give the doll to Dai for a while, at least then you won’t have to fight my family.” She was at the door then, her hand hovered over the knob.
“Sesshomaru what are your feelings? What are they toward me?” she held his gaze for a while then smiled. Her hand locked over the knob and her door opened.
“I see.” Was all she said as she stepped out the room and closed the door behind her closing off her feelings for him as well.
“Kagome we need to talk.” He whispered. He turned and shifted the kitchen chair before flopping in it. Kagome saw that her mother was still glaring at her, so she swiftly turned and poured the tea into two cups. She added the sugar and two drops of lemon and set one cup in front of Souta then sat directly across from him at the table. Their mother smiled at her children before advancing up the stairs and into her room. Souta waited five good minutes before silently shifting the cup out of his way.
“So you want to tell me what happened?” he said. Kagome sighed and looked dead into his eyes.
“I had a nightmare, I screamed because in my nightmare someone had broke my heart.” She heard him groan.
“Souta not emotionally.” His eyes caught hers then. His eyes were hard.
“Was it him?” kagome shook her head.
“Someone had said that he loved another, and he would never love me.” Souta never broke eye contact with her. His gaze unsettled her a bit.
“I saw him again, I told him I didn’t appreciate him hurting my family…” she trailed off remembering something.
“Souta, what did you say to him exactly?” she questioned. Souta responded by looking away from her. Kagome felt an ease of uncertainty at the possibility of knowing.
“Souta…” kagome locked eyes with his cast and then to the hand that was clenched at the end of the table.
“Kagome, when I first found out about Sesshomaru I did a little research. I found a lot of things about him that you don’t know things that I don’t want to tell you because I know it will hurt you.” kagome’s eyes widened.
“Souta…are you…” he shook his head.
“No, I’m not lying kagome, i know that Nagi or who ever his name is was involved in that incident, it was some sort of feud, a battle almost… for one thing.” he held her gaze. Souta only shook his head.
“I’ll tell you the rest once you figure it out. I wasn’t trying to keep you away from him just for protection and older brother jealousy, kagome I tried to keep him from you because of what he’s done and what he hasn’t done, I didn’t want you growing too attached because I was afraid the same thing was going to happen.” Souta was now leaning against the table his left hand rested under his chin waiting for her reaction.
“Souta…I’m sorry I never…” tears were falling now, she stood.
“I don’t want to hear anymore, I need to be strong I promised I would.” She said as she smiled at him then grabbed her cup and placed it in the sink. She grabbed the phone and before she could turn it on it was gone from her hands. She turned to see Souta standing beside her placing the phone back on its cradle.
“You need rest.” She shook her head.
“I have to call Dai so he can come get the doll.” Souta was silent as he considered it.
“I’ll call him, you go back to bed, I’ll make you some lunch when you wake up.” She smiled slightly then frowned at his wrist.
“Don’t worry, I’ll be fine, I’m not completely incapacitated.” She nodded and walked up the stairs.
“Ohayo, Suguro residence.”
“It’s Souta” Dai listened intently.
“Why are you calling?” he asked a little rudely.
“Save your attitude for someone who cares, come and get this doll.” His harsh tone caught Dai by surprise.
“Did kagome say that or are you just…”
“Shut up! Just come and get the fucking doll.” Dai held the phone away from his sensitive ear and winced. He growled and spoke to the phone while holding it away.
“I’ll be there in twenty.” He clicked the phone off and sighed. He grabbed his pale blue tee shirt and put it on, then grabbed a medium sized messenger bag and walked out his room. Locking the front door he walked towards Kagome’s house.
Souta was pacing back and forth when the doorbell rang. He got to the door and yanked it open.
“It’s about time you got here, what were you doing, taking your time?” Dai only walked past him. Souta nearly slammed the door. Dai was in the living room sitting on the couch when Souta emerged with the doll. He threw it at Dai.
“Watch it.” Dai growled out. He placed it in the messenger bag and stood. He noticed the cast around Souta’s wrist and raised a single ruby brow. Souta noticed and avoided his curious eyes.
“He broke it.” Dai chuckled.
“Is that why you want me to take it?” Dai asked standing curiously.
“No, kagome was the one who wanted to call you first, a lot happened. She no longer trusts Sesshomaru.” Dai heard the serious tone in Souta’s voice.
“Is she ok?” Souta shook his head.
“She’s confused. I know what he’s done, I’m sure you know as well.” Souta turned his eyes on Dai. Dai’s green eyes were shocked.
“You know about…Airi?” Dai took a step back staggering a little.
“I know the whole story, that’s why I didn’t want kagome getting too close to him. It’s too late now. She’s broken, your lord has his work cut out for him, if he harms kagome one more time emotional or not, I’m coming after your ass.” Souta locked eyes with Dai.
“Souta, I’m…” Souta interrupted him then.
“Don’t be sorry, you should have told kagome from the start, I attempted to tell her today but she couldn’t handle it.” Souta walked to the front door Dai followed behind.
“Souta I need to talk with kagome.” Souta stopped.
“You can try but I doubt she’ll listen.” Dai nodded.
“If you see that fairy Nagi tell him I want to talk.” Dai could only smile and nod.
“Tell kagome, I’ll see her at school.” Souta nodded and closed the door after him. He heard kagome’s footsteps coming down the stairs and he went to greet her at the bottom stair.
“How are you feeling?” She smiled weakly.
“I’m fine.” Souta could tell she didn’t sleep much at all.
“You didn’t sleep did you kagome?” she shrugged, and then looked around the house.
“Was somebody here?” she asked. She sat on the sofa and clicked the T.V. on.
“Yea, Dai just picked up the doll, he wants to talk with you.” she nodded.
“How’s your wrist?” she asked after a short silence. Souta looked down at his wrist and sighed.
“It’ll be ok as long as I take those pain killers on time. I’ll be home for a while too; those pricks at Mican will probably fire me after this. I won’t be able to work for weeks.” Kagome only remained silent; she flipped through the channels finally deciding on cartoons. She starred at the screen not really watching it until she felt the chair heave beside her. Souta Sat beside and swung his good arm over her shoulder.
“Don’t worry about it kagome, I know you can handle it. It takes time.” She nodded fully understanding what he was talking about. They were silent until the doorbell rang. Kagome stood with a sigh and walked to the door. When she opened it, her mouth nearly dropped open. Nagi was standing there in all his glory, his black wings folding shut behind him. Kagome panicked and grabbed his wrist and pulled him in the house. She glared at him.
“Are you crazy?” she looked at his wings then back at him.
“Put those away!” she nearly yelled. Nagi looked at her then his wings disappeared in a wisp of air.
“Kagome who was…” Souta came into the foyer and stopped upon seeing Nagi. He grunted something then walked back into the living room. Kagome looked back at Nagi.
“Come into the kitchen.” She turned and walked into the kitchen knowing that he would follow. She sat at the table and waited for him to sit. He sat at the seat across from her and pushed the seat back until his chair came off the floor slightly.
“Nagi, why did you come?” Nagi fixed her with a stare. Then smirked at her though half-lidded eyes.
“I saw your buddy leaving with the doll; I wanted to know for myself why you suddenly decided to give him back.” he said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Kagome only looked at him.
“Are you going to tell me about you, Sesshomaru, and Airi?” Nagi let the chair fall with a hard thud against the floor and he planted both hands on the table. He scooted the chair close to the table and allowed his hand to shoot out and grab her chin steadying her face; he analyzed her eyes before releasing her chin. They remained in silence for a while longer during that time kagome allowed her rapidly beating heart and fear to drop back to normal.
“So that’s what this is about? Is that why you returned the doll?” Nagi asked his tone serious. Kagome adverted her gaze, focused on the table, and nodded. When she looked up Nagi’s attention was drawn to the door of the kitchen where Souta stood. Souta only nodded and walked off. Nagi stood and grabbed kagome’s wrist.
“Eh? What are you doing?” she was pulled out of the house and within seconds, she was air born. She closed her eyes and just as her mouth opened to scream, a hand clamped over it. She looked up, and was fixed with a teal gaze. When he moved his hand, kagome remained silent. He adjusted quickly allowing both his arms to wrap around her. Kagome felt him shift and they were turning and climbing higher into the mid night air. When she looked down she could see the tops of buildings and she could just barely make out the cars and people down below. The wind blew against her face and dragged her hair back behind her causing her eyes to water slightly. Nagi looked down at her.
“We are almost there.” she nodded. She could hear his wings flap against the cool breeze. Suddenly he turned and she grabbed his forearms tightly and shut her eyes. They were turning fast almost as if they were making a u-turn but with the exception that they were also descending rapidly. She could feel her nails digging into his skin, which she found was soft. They were over a wide expanse of grass and he landed under a huge willow tree. Kagome stumbled a little when he released her. She realized then that her feet were bare. When she looked to Nagi, again he was sitting at the base of the tree waiting for her. She sat next to him allowing space between them. She still didn’t fully trust him yet. When she sat, he turned to face her. His eyes were suddenly soft as if she had known him for years.
“I brung you out here because I don’t want you running off when you hear the truth.” She looked at him then.
“You’re going to tell me the truth?” he sighed.
“Why else would I bring you here?” he said sharply. He crossed his arms over his chest and looked directly at her.
“Airi was my life; she had the power to control the emotions and feelings of those around her. Her power was one of the greatest out of all the gods. I met her after I slaughtered Yuudou.” Kagome looked at him confused. He sighed.
“Yuudou is a god; his power was that of darkness.” Kagome nodded.
“I was already in love with her long before I began to kill, she would often escape from heaven to see me. Our relationship lasted years until she set her eyes on Sesshomaru. i never saw her much after I killed Taro.” He looked at her.
“God of light.” Kagome nodded.
“So you killed the god’s of dark and light?” he nodded.
“I never knew of her secrete. I went to ask her to be my mate but instead I found out from Yuzuki that she was on earth. I hunted her down, some how I just knew where she was. There was an army waiting at his front gates, I killed everyone in my way even the women and maids, servants, guards. I covered his whole castle in blood.” He paused. Kagome saw that his eyes was glazed over, he was remembering that day.
“I found them in the guarding, he was standing protectively in front of her, ‘He never loved you, nor will he ever’ that’s what I said, and as I said it I attacked him.” Kagome had to stifle a gasp. Those same words were voiced in her dream.
“We were fighting for a long while until he did something I never thought possible. He turned from me and impaled Airi. He drove his sword through her heart and watched her die. I couldn’t believe what I saw. He told me then, that it was foolish to fight over her, he wanted her, so did I, and he destroyed her knowing that no one would be able to have her.” He looked into kagome’s eyes, Teal meeting brown. Kagome was crying now.
‘Is that why he wouldn’t tell me about his connection with Nagi?’ she thought. She looked back at Nagi.
“That is why on the night of our deal I told you, you were wanted for having his soul, Sesshomaru was suppose to die to compensate for killing Airi, his soul for hers. It was extremely lucky for him to be placed in that doll. I also asked you if you were willing to die for him…” he stared into her eyes searching for an answer.
“Can you still say yes?” kagome finally met his gaze. They held eye contact for a long moment.
“no.” her voice was cracked.
“I can’t say yes to that question any more? I don’t know…” he stopped her with a single finger.
“Don’t say ‘I don’t know.’ because then you’ll never know.” She only nodded. Nagi stood as did kagome. It was completely dark outside except for the stars in the sky. She gasped when Nagi picked her up bridal style and leapt into the sky.
“You have a lot to think about, especially since you are going to place his soul back in his body. When you do, the remaining gods will descend.” She looked up at him her face was horror struck.
“I’m guessing you didn’t know that either.” He focused on the sky and flew faster. Kagome tightened her hands into fist. It wasn’t until they were back at her house when she heard him speak again.
“By the way, when the gods arrive they are going to take your soul even if you don’t revive sesshomaru, you broke the law by helping him, the only payment is death.” It was then that kagome chose to cry. Not because of what was told to her, but that either way she was going to die. There was no way to escape fate.
ok so theres chapter 9 i hope i made it clear enough for you to understand. i'll try to update soon!!
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