az: Redoing the chapters. XP. At least this time I have a clear idea on how to do the middle part of this fic as well as the end of this fic. Other than the fact that it had been my writer’s block that made this fic on hiatus... life also had a role. Was dividing time for job search, cosplay, fics and other stuffs. Last year had been pretty busy.

So now I’ll give Lulu and every one my attention now! XD. And yeah... I think Lulu and Kallen threw me that writer’s block as punishment for making them too emo. XO

Disclaimer: Code Geass: Hangyaku no Lelouch is copyrighted by Sunrise as well as character designs by CLAMP. I’m only borrowing the fandom for the sake of the fic and the love of it. Note: This fic will take place in a probable future and will be an Alternate Ending/What-if scenario..

Shadow Sun

Chapter 3.65: Turning point of Fate

By honou-no-izumi alias Izzu alias Izumi Ishtar

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Suzaku cast a faraway look towards the carrier driving out of the building. He sighed.

A part of him felt bad for making that suggestion. A part of him felt that this was the right choice. There should be no point of continuing this pointless struggle. Only innocent lives would be lost and still nothing could be changed of the situation. Japan did not need Zero to continue this fight.

Doing this, he had not hoped to be forgiven by him. He might not be able to reach out towards Zero but he might be able to reach out to Lelouch. He did not want to believe that he had lost this precious friend. He had already lost a very precious person... he did not want to lose anymore people!

Suzaku looked up towards the room before him. He blinked in surprise. It seemed that without knowing, he had sauntered towards the med room Lulu was in. He sighed. Might as well take a look over him. From the day before and this morning, he had been hearing sounds of screaming and banging coming from the room. But since afternoon, there had been no sound coming from the room, he could not help feeling concerned. He shrugged, Lord Schneizel had told him of the security password to the room after all.

But Suzaku had not expected that the moment he had opened the door, Lelouch's body would tumble over. He gasped as the sight of the unconscious lad startled him.

“What—how?”

He was speechless. Aside from the new eyepatch tied securely, covering Lelouch’s left eye; the young prince’s arms and legs had been tied as well.

“—It can’t be helped. We cannot risk him using his Geass. Who knows if at that the time we had other person with us, he would use his powers... we still do not know the extent or nature of his power. Other than that, I hadn’t the heart to force him into a straitjacket—”

Suzaku nodded as he greeted the second prince. ‘B-but... to the extent of hurting him this much, I—“

Schneizel frowned. “What—?” he cried as he hurried over to his side. True enough, Lelouch’s body was covered with bruises and blood stained his shirt. He quickly carried the lad in as her ushered Suzaku to help out.

Schneizel glanced towards the closed door as he noticed the remaining marks on it. He had not imagined Lelouch would hurt himself so much. Then again, Lelouch had always had this strong sense of determination in him. He must have slammed himself onto the door a lot of times until his injuries opened up again.

“Kururugi... watch over him. I have to attend to other business.”

“Yes sir...”

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Marianne the Flash, otherwise known formerly as Marianne Vi Britannia. His one and only mother which was also his one and only hero. Her gentleness and kindness had always been a comfort to him. Her courage and wisdom had always motivated him to strive to be the best. To try and outshine his other brothers and sisters so that he would be noticed. His mother... had always been his light, guiding him. Protecting him.

His only wish was to be able to protect her in return.

“Lelouch...”

The child Lelouch turned around and smiled as he ran towards his mother. He immediately embraced his mother and the mother chuckled fondly. Muffled giggles caught his attention as he looked around.

Young Clovis and Euphemia giggled again, teasing him. Little Lelouch pouted and started chasing after them before Marianne pulled him back. He turned around.

“What is it mother?”

The boy frowned as his mother suddenly appeared sad. Marianne knelt before him.

“Am I that important to you?”

He blinked in confusion. “Mother... I don’t—“

Marianne embraced him suddenly. Lelouch gasped. Suddenly he was no longer the 10-year old prince that was Marianne's only son. He was now in his 17-year old self and before him, his mother sat with him; addressing him with sorrow in her voice.

“Am I that important so much that you’d sacrifice yourself for me?”

“Mother... I—“

“Lelouch... please do not destroy yourself.”

He gasped as he reached out towards his mother. “Mother, I did not—“

The moment he stepped out, everything around him returned to darkness in an instant and Lelouch felt himself falling towards an empty void.

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Lelouch opened her eyes slightly. It seemed someone had moved him. His body felt numb but that sensation was nothing new. He closed his eyes again.

He wondered what that dream had meant. In this dreams, he saw Clovis and Euphie again. And his mother appeared as well. But unlike previous dreams, this time his mother had even talked to him and it was not about the past memories. It was of the present.

Why did he dream of Clovis and Euphie? Was it because a part of him still yearned for them? Why did he dreamed of his mother... asking all of those words to him? Was it his inner conscience, trying to tell him something? Or an inner thought and repressed guilt manifesting itself into his dreams...

Did those dreams tried to tell him that his actions in the past were wrong? What is the right thing to do then? How do one justify what is right and what is wrong? If being powerless is evil, is having power equals justice? Does the loser meaning they were in the wrong and the victor always in the right?

He had never liked the principles of beliefs that his father had adopted. The world was not only divided between the strong and the weak; predator and prey. Just because one was strong, did it entitled the strong to oppress the weak. Just because one was weak, it does not mean that any rights should be stripped off them. Nor did it mean that those who are weak should be forced to live miserable as the strong trampled over them. Because he could not stand that sort of principle did he dare to renounce his title, seven years ago.

His decision to fight back and lead the Japanese in the rebellion against Britannia had also been because of this same reason. His own personal grudge may have been a drive for him to take his stance of fighting Britannia but that did not mean that his action was wrong completely.

Schneizel had suggested that he should work together with him. The incident involving Euphie may have tarnished the trust the Japanese people have for Britannia to regain their independence but that did not mean that the situation could not be fixed. The Japanese people might have lost all faith on Britannia but not to the Order. Having him... Zero, work with them; would probably be able to smoothen the situation. If the Order be the ones that perform the action, the Japanese people would not object. In a way, Schneizel was using him to fix the current chaotic situation. He had heard a bit from Euphie on how Schneizel had made his plans but to this extent, Lelouch could not help to feel at lost. From this way of thinking, he could achieve much result without taking even more casualties than needed.

Japan’s liberation could be achieved and he could let go of the country to achieve his true goal. To defeat his father.

As if things were that easy. Schneizel’s plan might have been good but to actually execute it, it might be hard. That person would not have allowed it to be achieved so easily.

“Lelouch—? You’re awake, aren’t you? Don’t pretend to be asleep any more.“

Lelouch opened his left eye that was not covered as he leered towards Suzaku. “What do you wa—!”

Before he could finish talking, Suzaku had raised him up into a sitting position. Lelouch glared at him. “What do you want, Suzaku?”

Suzaku flinched at the harsh tone Lelouch used in pronouncing his name.

“You... can’t you stop? Japan... should not need Zero to free them. This thing you did... was so much like my father did before. You already knew what had happen in the end, why are you trying to do the same thing? Japan’s liberation... about that, please let me handle that. There should be another way of achieving the thing that we want. I’ve told you before, isn’t it? I’ll change Britannia from within... I believe that was not impossible. Lelouch, I don’t know what your brother asked you to do but I really hoped—Lord Schneizel had suggested something that could help me achieve my goal. I’m sure what he planned for you would also be beneficial—“

“Always quick with your assumptions, aren’t you Suzaku? Do you think you know everything about me? You—“

“Then... are you going to continue your senseless fight? Is your revenge all that mattered to you? Killing your brother Clovis and Euphie was not enough? Do you want to drag other people in this as well? Just so you can satisfy you selfish desire? Answer me!”

Lelouch did not answer, instead he just stared blankly before him. Suzaku sighed. He turned to grab a loaf of bread and took a chair to sit. He broke the bread into two and shoved it towards Lelouch.

“Eat. You haven’t eaten anything ever since you’ve awakened from your coma, have you? Don’t be stubborn any more...”

“I’ll be stubborn as much as I—!”, Lelouch glared at him as Suzaku shoved the bread into his mouth. He angrily chomped on the bread as Suzaku gave a sigh of relief. He got off his chair, knelt before him and started untying Lelouch’s legs. Lelouch eyed his suspiciously as Suzaku shrugged.

“It must have driven you crazy, being locked up in this small place. Let’s take a walk...”

Lelouch swallowed the last of his bread with difficulty as he sneered. “Are you trying to mock me?” Suzaku shook his head. “No. It’s just that... I don’t want to find you hurting yourself just to get out of this place. All of the plans will become useless if we lost you.”

“Heh... very well. It’s not like I could escape anyhow.”

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“Come over... don’t be slow.”

Lelouch cursed silently. “It’s not like I asked to go out. In the end I’m still captive here... and why are you taking me into this building? If I had wanted to visit the Britannian Administrative building I would have asked—“

“I’ve wanted to talk to you. About Euphie and everything... I still can’t believe you dared—“

“If you wanted to talk about that, we could have talked without coming here. Why—“

“It really doesn’t matter to you? Killing Eu—“ Suddenly the alarms were sounded as Suzaku turned his attention away from Lelouch. Several explosions were heard as the announcement of an attack was made. Suzaku cursed as he turned towards Lelou—to his surprise, Lelouch was nowhere in sight! He spat as he ran off to find him, scolding himself for being careless.

Elsewhere in one of the room near the hall, Lelouch watched as Suzaku ran off towards another direction and disappeared into the corridors. Lelouch could not help smiling; having managed to slip away from him but frowned as the hand covering his mouth still had not released him. He threw his weight onto the other as the person released him involuntarily after they hit the wall. The person cursed aloud as Lelouch turned towards him. Both of them gasped as they recognized each other.

“You—Lelouch?”

Lelouch blinked.

“Kallen? What are you doing here?”

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az: R2 and further character developments have an influence in this new revision, even then it won’t influence much. The hiatus had helped as well to get me out of fangirling mode. The old chapters freaked me out with the fangirl characterism. I hoped this time I won’t make everyone OOC too much. Sorry if it was too wordy... especially on Lulu’s part. I always imagine Lulu being that think-a-lot kinda person. Trying to finish this as soon as I can.