Title: This Mistake I’ve Made

PART ONE: "I Want To Be Closer To You"

Summary: In one impulsive motion, acted in a heated moment, much can be revealed. Can Rikuo face up to his one night mistake? More importantly, how will Kaza react? KazaRikuo

Rated M: For detailed sexual encounters and adult situations.

A/N: Shouldn't I be working on all of my unfinished stories?

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I know a smaller boy... well... smaller than me. He works and lives alongside me. Our relationship? It's close enough, I'd say.

Whether he wants to admit it or not, he's falling for me. My teasing brings nothing short of a blush; such beautiful features... am I falling for him?

Could that be the reason that my heart beats unnaturally in his presence, his smile haunts my sleep - knowing he's only a room away when my body aches for company...

No...

That's not right.

I don't long for company. It's something much deeper. Much more... in the most literal sense.

My mind, my heart... they have nothing to do with it.

It's my flesh that is struggling. My finger, my lips, every part of me wants to be against him.

I can tell he's a virgin and it maddens me in so many unspeakable ways. It keeps my mind set in something I'm not ashamed of.

Can I say this more bluntly? I want him.

I don't know what exactly this is, that beats down my veins; what my mind thinks so constantly of. Sure, I know I want to fuck him. Any one could've told you that and in so many ways.

But tell me... why...?

Why do I want this so badly? Why him? Why don't I lust after Saiga or Kakei with their flirty gazes and constant gestures...?

Lust...

Lust.

I'm lusting for him. Is it that simple?

"Rikuo... you're making such a weird face..."

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Kazahaya bent over teasingly, a wide smile across his lips. All Rikuo could do with such a mindful of thoughts, was grab his chin before he tried to move away, and press his own lips to this boy, press hard against him and pray everything would just work for him - just this once, this one moment.

He rose and pressed his entire being closer to the young body, closer, closer, why does another man feel so good against me? Why does his confusion mixed with an undeniable pleasure... why does it feel so incredible?! ((because it's yaoi!))

"Rikuo... Rikuo... your hand..." His feverish voice pleads, his delicate, feminine hands grasps. "Rikuo..."

My name... on his aroused lips...

The horny one of the two had the object of all his desire rammed against the counter, up, onto it, his hand moving inside him, sliding around his guarded features, with his own body dying for something more, something intimate... anything to bring us closer.

"Rikuo..." This time, as he whispers his partner's name, he's more so breathless, his chest heaving, and his smile growing wider. "Rikuo... I think I love you... I..." Whatever he wanted to say, his voice cuts off to a violent shudder coupled with a repressed whimper. His grip tightens. "Ri-Rikuo!"

I can't stop myself... I don't want to bother with something trivial like foreplay... "Kaza... relax... let me finger inside you..." Tight... the ring of muscle is so incredibly tight, barely able for one finger, let alone two... "Kaza..."

He takes deep breaths, trying... trying... god, if I have to force myself in you, I will...

Between colored cheeks, he whispers. "Your tongue... use your tongue..."

Rikuo found himself trying to catch his eye, smiling fiendishly. "Kaza... what was that?"

His catlike eyes widened at once in shock. "Don't make me repeat myself!"

"Where did you want my tongue...?" Rikuo asked, playfully spreading his moist breath across his sensitive ears. As his blush increased, Rikuo bit down, sliding his tongue around it. "Kaza? Cat got your tongue? Where... did you say...? Where...?" He found his fingers roaming across his heated flesh... finger tapping lightly on an erect nipple, around his neck, back down his half open pants. "Where...?" Each question breathed in temptation... as his finger slipped neatly into a wet hole, Kaza found his voice.

"...there..."

"Ah..." Rikuo grinned, and moved two of his fingers within him, scissoring the opening more, as his mouth lowered further down the trembling body. "What a dirty boy you are..."

Down he dragged the sweaty article of clothing before his tongue ever flicked out to a throbbing organ, sliding wetly down to where his fingers once were teasing him and inside once more, probing for a wider entrance, for a somewhat smooth entrance that was to come.

Those virgin legs trembled under his large hands that held them firmly down, and became harder to control the deeper he found himself. Rikuo moved away, his tongue running back up to the main source of the boy's discomfort. He breathed the scent in before moving the boy's erection lightly between his eager fingers.

"Ri-RIKUO! STOP TEASING ME!"

To this heated command, he replied, "then straight to the fucking... ah... Kaza...?"

He glared in such an arousing way; Rikuo found himself growing in a worse situation then before. His fingers ran back up his slick shaft, rising up to his mouth once more as his other hand was preoccupied with undressing his lower half. His eyes drifted to the boy again.

"Such a wild cat... I'll have to tame you, won't I?"

His head threw back, violently; his canines biting his lip. "Hurry, Rikuo... please...! Ah... AHHH!" There had been no need for the command. Rikuo, who had been unable to bear this situation much longer, had already stationed his erection toward the slick hole before a word was spoken, urged at his lover's breathless voice. Rikuo held those beautiful legs, allowing his own pleasure such an easy entrance, before they came to rest at his shoulders. His free hands grabbed at Kazahaya's head, brushing against silk hair as he turned his ear in direction of his mouth.

Lips to that ear, he whispered heatedly the boy's name... "Kaza... Kaza..."

He shuddered violently. "R-Rikuo..."

"Your body drives me wild, Kaza..." His hand roamed back down, sliding around throbbing flesh. "Beautiful Kaza... let me hear your voice..." He drew back before moving deeper, shoving him heavily against the counter.

He let out a scream, loud in their shared apartment. "ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME?!"

Rikuo grinned, kissed him hard, before he allowed that rhythm to start. In, out, inside hot flesh that seeks release, wanting to tighten up and shove desire away - he became out of control. "Kaza... my Kaza... come with me..." His teeth were gritted down hard, unwilling to let away his voice. His body protested to the motions that could bring it all to an end.

Stubborn as always and what a funny time, too! Looks like he had to use force now... ((heh))

His fingers slipped back eagerly around Kaza's arousal, pumping up and down harshly. "Go on, Kaza, it's not a bad thing," he teased, pressing into him again and again, that space he was moving in becoming tighter and tighter with every motion. Ah, here... here it was! "KAZA!"

Kazahaya's arms wrapped hard around the other boy's neck, his whole back arching to bring him closer. "AHH! RIKUO!!" The liquid erupted up onto his chest, spreading semen between them.

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The sticky mess was pressed between two chests heaving for breath. Quite relaxed, they lay together for several moments before either thought to move. Rikuo being the one to draw back and smirk so evilly at the other boy. His catlike eyes looked dazed as they stared at him.

"I... I didn't think you..." Kaza said, so slowly a smile curving on his lips. "You just couldn't control yourself, now could you?" This being the first time the boy had ever made a remark back, Rikuo only stared at the kitten. The boy grinned and hugged his neck tighter. “I love you, too."

I... love you?

Rikuo's blood drained cold, almost shivering at something that felt like... what? Guilt?

Oh god, I'm confused... why am I acting so weird to that.

Somewhere deep within him, he knew what he had done. And he knew what he thought. He knew what had happened and why it had happened. He knew what his actions had been and how he was caught into a horrible mess.

Because... above all... there was one thing he knew and was unwilling to reveal.

He didn't love Kazahaya.

-x- X -x- Continued in Part 2 -x- X -x-