Twenty years.

It’s hard to tell for me, why am I even writing this. You’ll never read it. Maybe I’m trying to give myself a good excuse. Maybe I’m not. All I want you to know is that I feel uncertain, and I feel, that something in all this so called reality is very wrong. Unfair. Why all of them love you so much, when the truth is, that you’re not better than me?!

“Kakatott, why…?” I’ve asked you once.

“Why what?” you said to me.

“Why are you so stupid, and why-“ I couldn’t finish.

I couldn’t say: “why do I want you so much?!”

You wouldn’t understand. And you wouldn’t give me the answer.

You, the great strategist, who’s always wrong.

Remember, when you were here just for a day? When you could defeat Buu, but you didn’t do it, because you didn’t want to? What-you thought that the kids would have some fun?! Ever thought of it, how many people died because of you?

But no, they say, that I have homicidal tendencies! They call you their savior! You were a liar, even, if you couldn’t lie. A chicken. You left your wife, and ran away. You told your son, that he won’t have to kill, and then said that he’s the one who had to defeat Cell. Like, ‘Surprise, isn’t that fun?’. You didn’t know a shit about your own children. It makes me wonder, what were you doing while that seven years in heaven- you didn’t even know about Goten’s existence! You were training, right? So why the fuck you didn’t use the Third Level, when it was the time to do it?! Why did you lie to all of us? Why did you lie to me?!

I’ve died for you, and you didn’t even care to notice…I died for you, you hear me?! Died for YOU!

Much time I’ve spent long years ago, to get you back. I’ve even stayed on Earth and waited. And waited…

Maybe this is it –you’re less innocent than I am, and I envy you, I want that in you.

Or maybe it’s that I want to make you pay? You’ve humiliated me, when you left me alive, and now I want to humiliate you so badly? Maybe, if I would rule over you it would be enough? Cause you don’t really see the difference between being alive and being dead…

The worse thing is, that you think, that other people are the same as you…Well surprise, they’re not!

I wonder, if I as your prince told you, to lay down before me, would you listen? But I guess, that I’ll never know that, you’ve ran away again. And this time, I feel it’s for good.

Do you feel lost now? Are you tired of all the bonds, you have made, that you selfishly run away? Is this me, who you are troubled about?

So, Kakarott, are you afraid of the dark…?

…And I can’t sleep at night, because you wanted to be a never ending story….