When You’re Gone

Disclaimer – By now you should know that I don’t own anything apart from the idea of the story :) Also ‘When Your Gone’ belongs to Avril Lavigne.

A/N – I’ve reposted this chapter as I’ve slightly changed the end. Also after a very negative review or two, by Alphie13 I believe, I have decided to end the story on this chapter. I did have up to ten chapter for this fic but I feel it may be better to end it hear now. So please re read this and I hope you enjoy the ending. Thank You to everyone who has sent such amazing and positive reviews; they mean the world to me. Look out for other fics being updated and new stories too

“I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side”

Only 2 hour passed but it felt like days to Brennan. She’d moved herself from the doorway and onto the couch, curled up on the left hand side not even taking up the whole space. The apartment was engulfed in natural darkness, the only light coming from the moon outside. Arms wrapped around the cushion she hugged it tighter and rested her head on it, left side down tears running down her cheeks.

“When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?”

She thought about when he left the look of disappointment and hurt within his eyes that she caused. She’d listened to his footsteps as he walked down the hallway, each and every heavy step. She mentally slapped herself for being so weak and not going after him.

“When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you”

She placed the cushion next to her and leaned forward picking up the forgotten wine and took a sip from it, leaning back into the seat. Even though she knew it was impossible she felt like her heart was breaking, she already missed his smile and the way he watched her when he though she or no one else was looking. She wished she had him here now, comforting her and coming by with the usual Thai comfort food.

“I never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
and the clothes you left they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do”

A glimmer of light caught her attention and she turned to her right, Booth’s jacket still laid there, the moonlight dancing off it. She placed the wine glass back down and stretched over, picking up his jacket. His cologne wafted up her nostrils, the familiar scent she became used to after the many hugs he’d insisted on her.

“When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?”

Feeling something hard within his pocket she puts in her hand and pulls out a folded envelope. Unfolding it she recognizes the writing on the front as her own, Booth’s named printed on front and dried dirt around the envelope. She released her breath that she hadn’t even realized she’d been holding ‘It’s the note I left him…’

“When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you”

She slowly took the note out of the already opened envelope, the paper inside creased from many readings and unfolded it;

Booth,

Not to sound so cliché but if you’re reading this then I’m dead. The Gravedigger won. I know you and the rest of the team will have tried your hardest to find us in time. As I’m writing this we don’t have much time. Hodgins and I have come up with a plan; if were less than four feet it should work in our favor but if not well then you’ll be reading this. I don’t really know what to say in situations like this and it’s less easier when I’m in the middle of it so I’ll just say what I’ve wanted to say for some time and have been to cowardly to say. I think I…have feelings for you. I can’t say love because I don’t know if it’s love; I think I may be unable to love. But I didn’t, I don’t want to die without you knowing this. Tell Angela, Zach and Cam that it has been an honor to work with them and to know them. And tell Angela that Hodgins loves her, she should know just like you.

Goodbye

Your Bones x

“We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah yeah”

She folded it back up into the envelope and placed it back in to his jacket pocket. She got up off her seat and went inside her bedroom, sat on her bed next to her side drawer. Upon it were a lamp and one singular photograph taken by Angela one night out. Picking it up she smiled at the obvious fun and relaxation in both their features, you also tell they both had a little to drink. Her arm was wrapped around his back, her fingers on his shoulder while his arm was snaked around her waist both with huge smiles on their face displaying the fun of that night. She thought about how comfortable and happy she looked, with him and she realized something she’d know deep down for a while. He’s the only one she can ever truly trust; the first person in fifteen years and she can’t imagining it ending badly but like always she pushed him away as she had with others.

“All I ever wanted was for you
To know everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me Yea...”

She placed the photograph back in its place and with rushed into the bathroom. Turning on the taps she threw some water on her face, shut off the water and out into the living room. Rushing over, she grabbed her shoes from the side of her couch and quickly put them on, balancing on one leg as she put on the other.

“When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too”

Grabbing his jacket from the couch and her keys out of the pot by her front door she raced out of the apartment. She ran down the flight of stairs and out of the main doors into the parking lot. Jumping into her car and starting it up she raced through the little traffic of the late night. She gripped the steering wheel tighter, determined to clean up the mess she’d made.

“When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok”

Pulling up outside his place she noticed there was no light on from his house but the glimmer of the TV screen. She stepped out of the car and walked towards his front door looking more confidant than she felt. She raised her hand and knocked three times on the hard wood door. After a few moments she heard the lock being undone and the door creaked open, seeing the confusion and relief on his face she held up the jacket in one hand and the letter in the other. Clearing her throat she smiled “I think we need to talk”. Smiling back at her Booth replied “I think we do”. He stepped back and held the door open for her as she stepped in. Once she was inside safely he looked back outside, up into the sky and whispered “Thank You” before turning back around into the apartment, closing the door softly behind him.

“I miss you”

THE END!

A/N – So there we have it, my first multi chapter fic done. I hope you all enjoyed it and once again thank you all for your amazing reviews. I made a Bones video to this song, the link to my youtube page is on my profile if you’d like to check the video out. The picture I used in Brennan’s room is